I had a dream of me and Aleks together. It took place in a few years from now. We were together as a couple, and we were actually really happy. In the dream, we were discussing whether we wanted to go with adoptions or surrogates. Aleks wanted to go with a surrogate, but I was really leery of that choice because I didn't want to knock up some poor woman and take her baby from her after nine months.
We also discussed what to name it. I suggested we go with a Russian name. When I did, a really big smile appeared on Aleks' face. He tried to hide it, but it was too late. I didn't want the smile to leave him, so I started tickling him. Then the dream ended.
I woke up to find Aleks gone. He had already left the bed. In a way, I was glad to see was already gone, but I was still hoping he was just in the bathroom an he would come back to bed soon. Five minutes pass; he never came back into the room. The bed was getting colder by the second.
Enough time has passed, that I get out of bed. Aleks must be down stairs. I go into the bathroom, and wash my face before heading to the kitchen. On my way, I glanced down to see my morningwood. A sigh escaped my lips as I attempted to push down my member. My dick can really get in the way sometimes.
I continue walking until I find Aleks in the kitchen. He was standing by the counter eating a chocolate pastry of some sort. Due to his lack of attention, I think it's safe to say he hasn't noticed me yet. I stood, and watched him for a moment. He had crazy bed hair. His body was shifting from side to side. Aleks looked so peaceful eating his unhealthy breakfast. He swallowed the last bit of his pastry, and grabbed a pepsi out of the fridge. As he took a sip, he realized he was not alone anymore.
His eyes slowly shifted toward me. Suddenly, his peaceful look changed back to his nervous look. Not knowing what else to do, he removed the pepsi can from his wet, pink lips, and set it back on the counter. Then he turned his whole body to face me. He stared at my shirt, not my eyes. Aleks' eyes were wide, his mouth gaped open, and he looked like he'd rather be anywhere but here.
I walked over to him, and tried to fix his hair a little bit. Aleks almost moved away from me, but I guess he must have changed his mind. As I finished making his hair perfect, I messed it up again so I wouldn't have to stop. After a while, he was finally brave enough to look me in the eyes. He looked so sad, that I pulled him in for a hug and rested my chin in his hair. Feeling the compassion, he gave in, and hugged me back.
"Thank you," Aleks said, as he gave me a slight squeeze.
"For what?" I asked, enhaling his sent.
"Thank you for staying with me last night." He said.
"No problem, I actually kind of enjoyed it." I said with a smile, as he lifted his head from my chest to look at me.
"James, I don't want things to change between us," Aleks said softly.
"Things wont change between us, and if they do, then I promise it will be for the better." I soothed.
Aleks untangled himself from my arms, and stepped back a few feet. Our hug was over. He took a sip of his pepsi, and put back on the counter. I could tell he wanted to get something off of his chest. He took in a deep breath. Then sighed.
"I just mean that because I like you, doesn't mean you should feel inclined to make me feel better through a pity date or something." He said abruptly.
"Aleks," I took a step forward," I don't do pity dates."
"Okay," He said as he started to walk away.
"If I go on a date with someone, I actually like them. Even if it's the kind of like that lasts for one night." I said sternly.
"Alright." He said as he grabbed his pepsi and left.
Space should be good for him. I'll find him when it's time to head to the Creature Office. Then we can work on whatever, and determine what the theme of our next live stream should be. We done so many themes so far, that we might as well go with "Jolly Jim The Mystery Tree" and "The Lunchbox Killer."
I grab some gatorade and a poptart. Simple and unhealthy, just the way I like it. As I eat, I think of the events that took place last night and the dream I had. I've had a lot to take in. Aleks is gay. I'm the one who turned him gay, and I don't even know how. And then there's the dream. I don't even know if I like Aleks back, and I'm already day dreaming about having kids with him.
Life with Aleks is pretty fun. A relationship with him might be a little different. I would have to cuddle, talk more, and make a commitment. Which isn't all that bad, but I don't know if I really see Aleks in that way. It wouldn't be that hard either; we already live together. Although, I am happier with Aleks around, than without him around. I don't really have that emotional change with anyone else. Maybe I do feel something for Aleks, and I just never realized it.