As I awakened from my slumber with Aleks, I could hear the quiet wimpers he was making in his sleep. The cute sounds made me giggle. Though I couldn't really see him from my positioning on the floor, I could feel his arms wrapped tightly around my body. I want to preserve this memory forever. A smile crept onto my face. This day has got to be the greatest day of my life.
In this moment, I am happy. I pull my arms tighter around Aleks. This position was going to be the start of many mornings to come. Every time I wake up, I want it to be just like this. Well, hopefully in the future, it will be in a bed.
I want to let him sleep, but at the same time, I want to wake him up, and smuther him in kisses. He hold on me tightens a little every few seconds. I love it. I love this. The feelings that have emerged from my body are taking over my heart. Feelings for Aleks.
I want him. He is worth more than the world. I need him. He must be mine. Aleks has just merged himself into my soul. I have to have him. I love him.
"Aleks," I softly whisper as I light brush my fingers against his chin. Then I hug him even tighter.
He was about to tighten his grip on me again, but someone burst through the door as loud as posible. Aleks' eyes flew open instantaniously, and he threw himself backward, resulting in him hitting his head on the desk. I sat up to tent to Aleks, and see if I could assist him in any way, then I looked over to see Seamus standing in the doorway. He was petrified, not knowing what he had just walked in on.
"What the fuck do you want?" I shouted, while getting to my feet. He stood there a minute, confused and nervous.
"I just...wanted to ask Aleks something," he said hesitantly.
"Well what the fuck was so god damn important that you needed to ask him?" I was pissed.
"Um...I...I can't...remember," he said nervously.
"What the fuck did you just say? Didn't anyone ever teach you how to knock?" Seamus took a step back. "It must have been really fucking important otherwise, you wouldn't have barged in here without knocking, am I correct?" I intimidated.
"Yeah...well, I guess," he managed.
"You guess? You fucking guess?" I pressured. "Aleks is hurt now, because you guess you had something important to tell him, but now, you can't even fucking remember what it is?"
"James I'm fine." Aleks said quietly.
"Look man, I'm sorry," Seamus tried to apologise.
"Oh, you're sorry now too? I'm getting kind of sick of your sarcasm, Seamus!" I bellowed. Jordan came into the doorway as well.
"What's going on in here?" Jordan asked.
"What's going on? Well, Seamus interupted us and scared poor Aleks into hurting himself, that's what's going on." I shouted again.
"James I said I'm fine," Aleks tried again. He put a hand on my shoulder.
"You know, James, you've been offly aggressive lately. A little too aggressive if you ask me." Jordan said, accusingly.
"Well I didn't fucking ask you, now did I?" I said, smugly. Aleks gave my shoulder a tight squeeze. I turned to look at him.
"I'm fine," Aleks said with a slight smile. I felt the back of his head. There was a definite bump.
"Come on, we need to get you some ice," I said shoving our way passed Seamus and Jordan, and dragging Aleks into the kitchen area.
It was empty; thankfully. I went to the freezer, and grabbed a bag of ice. Aleks stood patiently by my side. I placed the ice bag on the back of his head and held it there with my left hand, and pulled him in for a hug with my right. He hugged me back. I tried to calm myself down, and get rid of my anger.
"Thank you for the ice, James." He said quietly. Then broke away from the hug.
"No problem, I wouldn't want you getting a concussion." I said. He looked sad.
"No, I guess not," he said taking the bag, from my hand.
"Aleks what's wrong?" I asked, concerned.
"You shouldn't have gotten angry at Seamus," he said quietly.
"Aleks, I'm sorry. I know that I shouldn't have lost my temper, but ... well, I'm not really sure what happened. I don't know why I got so angry," I got on my knees, "I'm sorry Aleks. Will you please forgive me?"
"I'm not the one you should be apologising to." He said, staring at the floor.
"I know, I just don't want you upset with me." I said, standing up.
"I'm not, I'm just worried about Seamus. You've been friends for like six years, and I saw the look in his eyes when you went off on him. Plus Jordan doesn't seem to be too pleased right now either. I don't want you to get kicked out of The Creatures." He pleaded.
"Alright, I'll go patch things up with everybody," I said lifting his chin to look into his eyes, "as long as you're still waiting for me when I'm done."
"Of course," he smirked.
I kissed him on the forehead, and then headed for Seamus. A huge feeling of guilt came washing over me. I can't believe how I treated Seamus. We've been friends for years, and I turned on him in an instant. Aleks saw me do it too. He watched as I changed into a raging mad man in a matter of seconds. No wonder he was scared to come out of the closet to me.
A voice in the back of my mind kept telling me how much of a srew up I was being. the voice made it known that no one would forgive me. That I was nothing but a sore loser, and that everyone was pissed at me now. I feel so bad. I never meant to hurt anybody, but I am aalmost positive that Seamus is in a world of pain right now.
I need to find him. I need to make things right. I need to apologise and make it up to him somehow. Not only for our friendship, but also for Aleks. Aleks made it clear, that need to fix what I fucked up. I need to make everyone happy.
Aleks's office was empty now. Everyone deserted it. I made my way to Seamus' office, and knocked lightly. He's probably going to fuss me out. I heard movement.
"Seamus?" I said softly. He opened the door.
"Yeah?" He gave me a depressed stare.
"Look, I don't know what happened back there," I rubbed the back of my neck, "but I'm sorry. I just don't know what came over me."
"It's fine, I should have knocked, but instead I barged in, and interupted you guys. He gave me a skeptical look.
"No it's not fine. I was out of line, and I want you to know that I am truely sorry. You didn't deserve that back there." I said, letting out so much guilt.
"Don't worry about it." He said. We were about to turn away from each other, but then I remembered something.
"By the way, what were you going to ask Aleks anyway?" I asked, casually.
"What? Oh, nothing. It was a private thing. But is everything alright with him. He been acting really strange lately, and then today I saw you two... in his office. I just wanted to make sure everything is okay." He said, with a weird look.
"Yeah, everything is fine," I assured him, "buy the way, could you not mention what you saw in the office to anyone? I don't people worrying any more than they have to."
"Sure thing, I wasn't going to saw anything either way. It's not my business to tell." He said.
"Great, thanks. I uh, got to go, so I'll talk to you later." I said.
"You're welcome, bye." Seamus said.
I turned to my next destination, Jordan's office. I didn't particularly want to appologise to him, but I needed to make Aleks happy. I needed him to forgive me for being such a dick to everyone. If I want Aleks' forgiveness, I need Jordan's first.
I open his office door to find him whispering with Dan. Probably about me. They stopped when they noticed it was me. Jordan sat back it his chair. Dan mirrored him.
"I come in peace," I put my hands up.
"Do you now?" Jordan asked.
"Yes," I want to call him an idiot so badly, but I can't.
"Good, because peace is the only thing we'll except from you at this point." Dan said cocking his stupid head to the side. Like they could get rid of me? The Creatures would lose have there fanbase if they kick me out.
"And what about apologies? Do you except those here as well?" I asked like a whipped bitch.
"I believe we do," Jordan perked up.
"Well you're in luck, 'cause I'm passing out apologies like Christmas presents." I said with a fake smile, when I really wanted to tell them to suck my dick.
"I'm listening." Jordan said, urging me to continue.
"I'm sorry for my behavior, and that I've been such an asshole lately, to both of you." I apologised.
"Apology accepted," Jordan said.
"Dido," Dan said.
"Great, well I'll see you guys later." I said waving goodbye and walking away before I could hear one of there stupid comments or voices.
I did what Aleks asked. Now I need to find him. He can forgive me, and we can pick up where we left off, before Seamus interupted. Working with other grown men gets very tiring. this extra sleep is amazing.
I walked back to Aleks' office to see the door was closed. I opened it slowly, and quietly. The light was on. Aleks, was gone. Before I could panic, I notice a note infront of his computer. The note had my name written on it. I quickly walked over, and grabbed it.
It read "Thank you. P.S. I'm waiting buy the car."