Jacks Contribution.
June 27th
"They asked me to write something to put in the coffin with Luke. And as I sit here with this pen, I can't think of a thing to say. Or maybe I want to say a million things, and don't know where to start. I guess...I'll start with, 'I'm sorry'. Cause I am. I screwed up in not even offering help to the poor kid. I mean, I thought I was hit hard by my sons death I...guess I didn't really consider how bad Luke felt. And now? He's dead. I'm looking at his body and suddenly I don't see him anymore, not like this all groomed and proper. I see him as the little riolu we got from the adoption house, that liked peanut butter crackers and playing in the rain. I see him as the little guy who always came home with James covered in mud, and would make a mess in the bathroom when we tried to get the stuff out of his fur. I see him as the kid Who was crying out for help, but nobody listened. And I'm so sorry that I ignored it. But it's too late now to save him cause he's already dead. I wish so badly it hadn't turned out this way, but that's how life goes sometimes. You don't know how good you got it until it's all going away.
So, then. What would I want to tell Luke now? I'd wanna say I'm sorry for not being there for you, Luke. Id say I did love you like a son, and that I feel horrible that I never told you that. I thought you just knew. I'd tell you that I'll always be here for you if you needed me, and that if you ever needed someone to talk to I'm right here. Cause I loved you like you where my son, buddy. And I can't help but wonder if lousing you like this is worse than the way we lost James. Taking your own life? How badly where you hurting, Luke? Musta been awful. I'm sorry you had to go out this way, all alone. It's not how it should happen. But that's what happened, and that isn't right. Ain't fair, that's how you would say it. But life Isn't fair. I'll make you a promise though, bud. Every Friday I'll leave a fresh rose on your grave. To try and make up for all the love You never got to know I felt. Becuase I did love you. You where a son to me, and it'll always be that way. that's what I would tell luke if I got the chance. Just one more chance..."