Mom and Dad finally went to bed around eleven or so and I hadn't budged from my spot on the tile floor, the feeling of it reminded me of myself some how. It was cold and flat , smooth, yet bumpy and most of all lifeless just like me know. Her thoughts carry her back to the old life of the once wonderful Melinda that had confidence , a laugh, a smile know all of it was dead and buried along with her secret of It raping her. It hurt to think how little people really cared no one had ever bothered to ask if she was alright. Though she would only lie but in the end it would have made her feel better.
Why was I even existing? this was a new question to me one I had no answer to and never would. Not wanted this made Melinda cry, tears gentle glided down her pale cheeks as a string of drool crept out of the corner of her mouth onto the tile. Where was my happy ending!? This was not how my life was suppose to turn out , know I just wanted it to end.
Melinda suddenly remembered the night she had cut herself but barley with a paperclip how little dribbles of blood had popped out onto her wrist. Her mom hadn't even cared , suicide is a cowards death as her mother had always said. Will you know what I guess am a coward than I can't do this anymore, if she doesn't care why should I care about myself. Their where no friends or family to stop me besides if I kill myself my parents can start again have a perfect girl who's bright, popular and pretty everything am not!
Melinda sat up slowly than put out a shaky hand to brace her herself against the sink as she lifted her self, after she stood the mirror looked back at her. She saw a faceless girl this made her in raged it was taking what was left of her self control to not scream and shatter that mirror.
Am sorry this chapter is so short and I can only update on Fridays because am so busy with school and stuff know, Thanks to anyone who's reading this! Love Ashley