[Wowhie hold the phone girrrrl did some of you readers forget my little authors note about NOT hating the usui x misaki couple?! gee wiz, I think some of you need to calm yourselves right down and listen to BAP's "coffee shop" or even donghae and eunhyuk's"still you". Although some of you dislike my ideas and flame about and such, you guys give me the satisfaction that I provoked such a strong emotional response and as a writer that makes me proud, so thank you for that loves xo
Enough of that, let us continue?]
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Misaki lay curled up on her bed with blankets thrown onto the floor and pillows soaked with the salty bitter oceans that were her tears of grief. On rainy days such as these the rain did not soothe her aching soul but instead deafened her and brought her back to the times where Usui was in the centre of her galaxy.
There was no sea in the world that could even hold the amount of tears that Misaki had cried that night, in fact, every night for months on end were almost identical to each other.
Tears and pain, grief and sorrow, these were the only emotions that visited Misaki.
Her mother grew more and more worried as days rolled on by, even her school council grew suspicious of the leniency she had when scolding disobedient peers.
"Alright koribi kun, it doesnt matter how you wear your necktie, as long as you wear it, okay run along to class." She uttered monotonously to a classmate who blinked and squinted cautiously at the class president. Numb was an understatement of how dead her senses had become.
More nights rolled on and more and more questions filed through her head. "Why? what can I do to make things right? will everything be alright?"
She felt the need to skull bottles of painkillers to ease the pain that made her feel so numb. These emotions themselves confused her furthering her progress of becoming a seemingly lifeless shell of what used to be the most avid and fiery individual.
Saying goodbye, becoming strangers again, was that what a break up was? Or was it simply just the finalising event which cemented the fact that the bond between two people was just not the same anymore. The fact that the sweet sweet love had come and gone, never to return?
Misaki tossed and turned again as she wiped her tears away with her hand that appeared to weak to even move. Half of the tears pooled up into her ears and made a damp mess into her raven hair.
There was a quote that Misaki had always repeated at the worst of times but for some reason, she felt as if she didn't believe these words that she had once placed so much faith in. Things could be worse.
THINGS COULD BE WORSE.
Those four words were the words that pulled her through her darkest times but she sighed heavily in dismay.
If she were to strip away all the comforting thoughts, she knew that deep down, things couldn't possibly be worse.
Was it bold of her to say that she felt betrayed? Perhaps even cheated?
It was wrong... but right at the same time.
Misaki feigned a smile as she noted her phone buzzing on the table. She looked at the screen and cupped her hands to her mouth.
"U-Usui?!"
Ignore it.
Dont be so childish.
He wants you back.
He pitys you.
The many thoughts and decisions collided within her mind and gave Misaki a dull ache in both her heart and her head.
She picked up the phone and gulped.
"Hello? Ayuzawa-san speaking."
" Misa-chan, how are you going?"
I knew he pitied me.
"Good thankyou, yourself?"
"Quite well actually."
Typical.
"I have to go make lunch, talk later?" Misaki almost stuttered at the end but she suppressed her pain and managed a giggle.
"As long as you're okay, that is all that matters" Usui cooed.
She hastily ended the call and slammed her phone onto her desk. Her pace quickened and she let out a few heavy breaths of air.
"This son of a bitch never stops does he?!" Misaki roared at the top of her lungs.
She told herself that it was okay to cry and that time could heal even the greatest of wounds. However, time was ironically taking far too long to help her. She felt as if she could just be swallowed up by the earth and never return to the surface.
She rubbed her head lightly and looked at her own reflection in the mirror opposite her.
Gee i let myself go.
She frowned noticing her usually neat raven coloured hair resembling a ravens bird nest instead. She also noted the dark circles under her eyes that lingered as much as the memories she shared with her ex.
Misaki also noted the photo frame that had a picture of herself and her best friends. It stood proudly on her desk reminding her of the good times. Her friends had changed too. They didn't say much to Misaki but when they did, it was only the clichéd things such as "You deserve better!" and "He is a jerk!"
No matter...
The world always seemed to change. As if the time or date of a certain memory was seen through a different lens. The good memories were always warmer and bright while the current time period could seem as black and bleak as the clouded night sky.
Misaki knew she wasn't ready to face the world as she saw it. The dark views didn't appeal to her and only scared her further into her shell.
When will the sun rise again?
[{ so pardon this late late chapter
I've been caught up with things (; /#LeagueOfLegends/, sorry what?
Yeah school work hasn't been my friend lately
Thanks to those who readd my story ^^ means alot
i guess
ahh xoXO