It's been two years since Ryan has seen Felix. In the first few weeks of him missing he searched everywhere he could think of. He didn't find him and after a while he checked YouTube and saw he hadn't made any recent videos. When he looked down at the comments several were asking where he was and why he wasn't uploading video. Ryan had cried day in and day out wanting him to come back, yearning for him.

He had nightmares about what could have happened to him and dreams when he finally came. He also had dreams about him returning his love for him.

During this whole time Ryan didn't make videos either he just sat at home depressed in a daze of Felix and him together. He ordered fast food all the time, his lights in his house were rarely ever on. The only time he would ever go out was to work at his part time job which was working at a nearby convenience store and that barley happen. At least not till recently. His boss said he needed to help because many of the other employees had either quit or took the day off. Today his shift was from 3 PM to 10PM, it was a long shift but Ryan couldn't afford to quit his job. He already had to deal with the guilt, pain, and regret from Felix leaving two years ago.

The door of the store rang and Ryan pulled a smile. "Welcome." He said as cheerfully as he could. But for some reason the customer avoided eye contact with him. How rude! I can't believe he would do that! Here I am saying 'welcome' as cheerful as I can even though I've been through a lot of depression lately! Geez I can't believe some of these customers!

After a few minutes later the man came to check out with a few vegetables and meat. Ryan looked at the customer's features. He had a long blonde beard, his shaggy hair matched and he had medium blue eyes.

Wait a minute, now that I look at him he looks a lot like Felix except for an older version. Could he be…? No there's no way… After the men realized he was being stared at, he coughed then looked to the ground. It is him! There is no way someone would just do what he just did without some reason.

Ryan reached for the man's face and turned it to face him. "Pewds?" The man jerked his head away as his eyes went wide.

The man tried to escape the place as he grabbed his bag of groceries but Ryan forbade him from doing so by grabbing his arm. Ryan now knew it was Felix but said nothing. He forced him forward and put his lips on Felix's. Felix's eyes went wide and tried to escape but Ryan didn't let him.

"Felix," Ryan's eyes watered. "I've been looking for you. Just where the hell did you go?! Ryan hugged him over the counter then looked side to side. "Come on let's get out of here." He whispered. The blonde nodded and waited for Ryan to get around the counter. He grabbed Felix's wrist and yelled to his manager, "Boss I'm feeling sick so I'm leaving!"

"Ok!" he heard his boss say as he left through the front doors with Felix's wrist in his hand tightly.

Soon they were at Ryan's house and as Felix walked in Ryan locked the door. Ryan looked straight at Felix. "Where the hell have you been?!" Ryan started to cry. "I looked for you and never could find you! Just what the hell have you been doing! Even if you didn't contact me you could've made videos on YouTube so your fans didn't worry and at least then I would've had a clue that you were ok! Do you know how scared and worried I was about you!?"

"Ryan, please just calm down." Felix edged toward him slowly.

"Calm down you say. How could I? I was scared, I thought you died!"

"I'm sorry Ryan, I really am." Felix said and then hugged Ryan when he was close enough. "I thought you hated me. That's why I left. I'm really sorry for worrying you." Felix hugged him tighter. Ryan returned the hug and buried his face in the Swede's broad shoulder.

"Felix, I'm so glad you're back." Ryan cried harder. Felix went wide eyed at the sound of his name and held the brunette tenderly.

"I'm glad to be back Ryan." The blonde smiled gently.

The stayed like that for a while until Ryan interrupted moment. "Hey Felix could you know, cut your hair and beard? It's sorta discussing.

Felix backed a few steps away from Ryan and felt his beard and hair. "Ah, you're right."

"You didn't know?"

"Well I was too busy traveling to realize that it had grown out."

"Traveling?" Ryan cocked one of his eyebrows up.

"Well then I'll be barrowing your bathroom." Felix rubbed the back of his head as he nervously backed away from Ryan. Few that was a close one. Felix thought as he entered the bathroom, undressed and got in the shower. Still I'm glad he doesn't hate me. But know I have to tell him my feelings. I thought I never would've sorted them out but when I went on that long journey I found out exactly how I feel about him. Felix got out of the shower and went over to the sink and got a razor. He shaved his beard off and then got scissors. He cut his hair a shortish-longish style and looked at himself in the mirror. He smiled and thought, wow I look smexy. But then turned serious. Ok now what's left is to tell Ryan how I feel about him.

I wonder what's taking him so long? Ryan asked himself as he paced back and forth waiting for the blonde to walk down the steps and show himself. Finally he walked down the steps looking like the man Ryan knew.

"Ryan I need to tell you something could we please take a seat on the couch?"

"Why are you being so formal?" Ryan asked nervously as he headed to the light blue couch which held several important memories from two years ago for the both of them. They both took a seat and faced each other. Could this be the moment where Felix tells me the answer to my confession? But there's no way he could remember that I even said anything. It's been two years for Christ sake. I doubt it was even important to him so what could this be about?

"Ryan," Felix swallowed hard. "I think it's about time I tell you my answer."

No way. I don't want to hear this! Ryan covered his ears and crouched down. I know what he's going to say!

"Ryan, listen to me." Felix tried to remove Ryan's hands from his ears but Ryan held tighter.

"NO! I don't want listen!"

"Ryan!"

"NO!"

Felix bit his lip then leaned over to Ryan. He kissed him. He forced the kiss to get deeper as he forced his tongue in Ryan's mouth, Feeling his heat.

There it is again that cherry flavor. Man how I've missed it. Ryan's wide eyes disappeared as he thought that.