Fire Of Defeat
Chapter 11
"Harry you can only read books now, your magic is not very stable," said Severus softly. They had tried another spell and it had gone berserk, nearly hitting Harry. He did not want anything to happen to their child, so was forcing Harry to stop using the spells.
"But how will I fight them if I can't use magic" pouted Harry. He was now eating normally. No morning sickness no eating anything horrible, and no more crying. Something that Severus was thankful for, with a sigh he sat down, placing his hand over Harry's stomach. Harry now only had to deal with being kicked from the baby. Severus had informed him that the child was going to be a beater in Quidditch.
Harry had read a book on it, and had been fascinated with it. However, Harry was honest he did not care for quidditch he liked flying more; he had only flew a few times. The times he had he had nearly give Severus a heart attack. Of course, Severus had spelled the broom and now he could not go on them. However, he found he did not want to harm his child with flying. He had never been a child before or a teenager but it did not bother him much. He felt way over one hundred years old most of the time anyway. But ever since Severus had, came into his life he had given over himself to the man. It was up to Severus what was done about the visions he had etc. since Severus took over he felt as if a whole world had been lifted from his shoulder. Harry trusted Severus to do what was right and that was that, he trusted the man to take care of him. And that was what Severus was doing, taking care of him.
"Do we have to?" asked Harry. He knew he was whining but he just got his magic back and he was being told not to use it.
"Do you trust me?" asked Severus/
"Yes"-replied Harry, no hesitation.
"Then trust me to do what is best for you, you can get hurt. I realise you have or did have control over your magic but with your body going through changes its hard for your magic. Every pregnant person has to go through it, with there not being many male pregnancy's since the time of Merlin it's going to be much harder on you love," said Severus.
"Ok, I wont do magic," said Harry. Melting when Severus explained everything. The man cared about him that was enough for Harry realising he had been stressing Severus out he agreed. Then he agreed that there was not many people would know what do to with males being pregnant.
"Thank you Harry" said Severus bringing Harry's head up for a kiss. "I know how hard it was for you not having magic, I did not really have mine in a way" it was true he had been forced to do horrible things with his magic. "Just remember I'm not taking your magic away just asking you not to use it" finished Severus.
"Ok, Sev I won't use it I promise," said Harry. Leaning into Severus' hand and closing his eyes, he sighed with content. Severus could not wait until the child was born so he could have Harry to himself again. He had longed to thrush into Harry again having cold showers was not very nice. He had been taking them until Harry had caught him, having no previous experience only visions he did what he could do. He massaged them before licking the tip, and sucked. He had Severus coming within minutes, every time Harry had touched him wither it was his hands or mouth magic tingled over his skin. It was too much for him most of the time, of course Harry did it for him most of the time. And Severus returned the favour and they were always both sated. Funnily enough, Severus needed it done more than Harry did. Harry it seemed did not have over whelming teenager hormones.
So Harry had read all the books he could, he now had to take naps. That was something humiliating for Harry; he had never had naps as long as he could remember. He had never slept scared in case the Dursley's caught him unaware something he would hate to happen.
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Therefore, his pregnancy progressed with no problem. Severus was called; he took the blunt of the Dark Lords anger. However, nothing could hurt him, for Severus had the knowledge that the man he loved and his loved unborn child were safe. Plus there is the fact he knew that the Dark Lord would not kill him. He was never hurt for long, with Harry around. Who healed him as soon as he got back, cleaning him properly with water and a face cloth. He had been doing that before he had been told not too use magic.
As the time went on, Harry got scared. He knew deep down that it was going to hurt having a baby. He had hurt so much in his life he did not think he could take it much more. With a sigh, he snuggled up to his lover, who was writing in his potions journal.
"Sev?" asked Harry softly. Not wanting to break the silence and quietness of the room.
"Yes?" asked Severus distractedly. He was after all reading and no one can do both at the same time.
"Does it hurt?" asked Harry. He really needed to know now; the fear of pain was overwhelming him.
"Does what hurt?" asked Severus looking confused.
"Having a baby" stated Harry.
"Of course it does, it hurts everyone having a child," said Severus. Not realising he was scaring Harry more and more. Looking down when he felt Harry stiffen he wondered what was wrong.
"What's wrong?" asked Severus looking concerned.
"I'm scared Sev" said Harry. He would never lie to Severus, because he knew Severus hated when he lied. Severus could not help him if he lied, that was the first rule Severus laid down. I was not to lie to him, and he explained why, if I lied he would not be able to help. And Harry had found no reason to do so.
"Of what?" asked Severus. He did not want Harry to be scared of the child that was the only thing he could think what Harry meant.
"Of the baby coming out" said Harry. Painfully aware that he was being stupid, but he did not want any more pain than he had already had in his young life.
"Ah" said Severus. Realising the problem and it was a problem because Severus knew it was going to be painful and he could not tell Harry a lie, it would not be right.
"Yes, it's going to hurt, but it will only be for a while. Then I can give you potions to help just before you give birth" said Severus. He knew the worst part is giving birth, so he would need to keep the potion until then. He could not have more than one pain reliever in five hours. Magical children are usually out within two or three hours.
"Oh, I'm still scared," said Harry. Would it hurt as much as when his uncle hurt him? Would it be that bad? What if it was, he did not think he could handle it. With a sigh, Severus closed his book and put down the muggle pen. When he was at school a friend had used a muggle pen, and he had found them much neater and tidier. He had asked her to get him a load; of course, he had to get them himself for a while now he could not do without them.
"Don't worry love; I will be there every step of the way. You should be able to handle it, it can't be worse than what you have already had at the hands of you 'muggle uncle'" said Severus. Spitting the word out muggle as if it were a curse.
"Really?" asked Harry. He just really hoped it was a lot less sore than when his uncle hurt him, it had hurt when his uncle had hurt him. He remembered how powerful and invincible he felt when he threatened his uncle. Then the tables turned, he learned he would never want to be how he used to be or like his uncle. It was probably one of the main reasons he had given himself over to Severus. He remembered the day he had asked for Severus to do that. Also, when he asked,
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Flash back
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"Severus I read a book today, and I'm curious about it, would you help me understand it properly?" asked Harry.
"Sure what is it?" said Severus eating his dinner. Not a conversation two normal people would have at a dinner table. But these two are far from normal.
"It's about Dominative and submissive" said Harry. As if, he was explaining the weather. Severus began choking on the drink he had been drinking unable to believe the boy wanted to talk to him about this and here of all places. Sure, they had had sex with each other but that was just so not, what he had expected Harry to read at all.
"What do you want to know?" asked Severus collecting his cool.
"What's a Dominative?" asked Harry.
"A Dominative is called a Dom mostly; they are masters who like controlling everything their partner does, they like being in charge, and on top. They like looking after someone and watching there partner spreads there wings, most Dom's have teenagers under there wing." said Severus.
"And a submissive?"
"Is the one the dominative controls, someone who wants to be lead and controlled. The submissive wants the decisions made for them, they are the stronger in the relationship. To trust someone with your life and submit to them is a lot harder to a master," said Severus.
"Sev?"
"Yes?"
"What are you?" wondered Harry.
Severus choked on his chicken; swallowing with difficulty, he shook his head. How could Harry sit there innocent as you please while talking about this? Something he had never thought of never mind bloody talk about.
"I'm a Dominative or I like to be Dominative," said Severus, after stopping to think for a while. Wondering if he should have just told him. That book he had thought was long put in the bin; he wondered why Harry had taken it but shrugged it off.
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End Flash Back
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It was days before Harry approached Severus.
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Flash back
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Severus was sitting in the study. After telling Harry what books, he was too read before leaving him. When he saw Harry coming towards him, he wondered what was wrong. He was surprise when Harry kneeled down in a very submissive position.
"What are you doing Harry?" asked Severus curiously.
"Will you be my master?" asked Harry.
"What" was all the man could squeak.
"Will you be my master? Will you let me submit to you? Will you take care of me and help me?" asked Harry. The books were very vague and did not mention how you were meant to go about asking someone.
"Do you realise what you are doing?" asked Severus looking at the kneeling boy, he had not been in this role for quite a while.
"Yes," said Harry.
"What are you doing then?" asked Severus. He wanted to be sure that Harry realised what he was doing before getting into this. And if he answered correctly then fine, he will become Harry Potter's master.
"That I am giving myself over to you, to do as you please. Trusting you to take care of me and tell me what to do. You already do most of it anyway, but I want to make sure you don't turn me away when this is all said and done, I want you to tell me what to do and to be able to share your bed at night" said Harry.
"Yes, that's right. Very well, but you do know you are getting into a magical contract and you will be mine unless you leave but you have to comply with the rules set forth?"
"Yes, Sir" said Harry.
"Good. Accio contract" yelled Severus. He knew he had them somewhere, he just did not know were as it had been a long time since he had actually been in this role.
"Read it properly and if you agree then sign it," said Severus. Severus added a few new ones to the paper before giving it to him.
Harry carefully read it, reading the rules making sure he memorised them all. He did not want to forget and disobey his master. It stated that he was not to call Severus master, Harry could guess that Severus was reminded of Dumbledore and Voldemort and did not want to be. Signing his name, he watched it burn into the paper.
I agree Harry James Potter he had not known his middle name until Severus told him. Then Severus signed it before it was hung on the wall, remembering Harry who he was and who he belonged too.
Severus Salazar Snape
There we go! just remember harry needs looking after! thats what he needs. After being abused for that amount of time...he doesnt want to be strong and independant he just wants someone to rely on for the time being. Severus was happy to be that person! well thats it take care goodbye!! Debs