OMG. This chapter made me so angry. I wrote it three times and this is what it came out to be. I just couldn't find a way to make it good. Well, this is what I chose. FORGIVE ME FOR BEING SO LATE.
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Silence remained as if the two of them had never said anything in the first place. The only sound was from the soft breeze that cooed through the open window. None of this was expected, she hadn't realized her feelings were that obvious and that he was able to catch on this quickly. Of course there was a part of her that was glad he asked because she hated hiding from him and hiding her feelings. Then there was the other part of her that was absolutely stunned and completely taken back by his question. All she wanted to do was run and hide but would he allow her to escape this time? This wasn't a hard question, she either says yes or she can say no but both answers will definitely affect what happens next.
"Where's this coming from?" She finally asked, looking at anything that wasn't him.
"I get it, I shouldn't be asking this. I mean we barely know each other, so maybe I'm getting ahead of myself. I'm sorry." There was disappointment set in his eyes and she could definitely see it. Was she making him angry?
"There you are, Leon! We're having lunch and you weren't there." Claire beamed a cheerful smile, her attitude peppy beyond belief. She was the nicest person anyone will ever meet and that's how she was easily voted for the student representative counsel. Someone who represents good humanity and equality is worth voting for president of the counsel.
"I'm not going to eat with you guys every single day, it gets kind of boring." He sighed, looking at her before glancing at Helena, who was rather calm from the prior conversation.
"Is everything okay?" Claire turned her head to Helena, hoping to receive an answer out of her then from Leon who had a different change in mood.
"I'm fine, I'm coming, I'm coming." He pushed off the wall gently, following around the desks to Claire, "Are we still cool Helena?"
"Ah… Yeah." She put her hand up and waved, her hand slowly dropping once he half smiled at her and left. That annoyed her a lot, he couldn't be as stupid as what he's coming off as. Helena couldn't blame him anymore than she should blame herself. There was a chance to say yes, there was a real chance to tell him how she felt and it was gone. A very aggravated groan escaped her, her hand slamming the wall in a huge fit of frustration. Helena was angry at herself more then she could imagine. The only guy she might have a chance with is gone and it's all her fault, no one else's but her own. After a moment of major regret, she exited the classroom.
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"Ashley." Sherry snagged Helena behind a group of students that hung out together by the base of the first floor. They lifted their hoods and blended perfectly with the skaters and music lovers. The popular kids all passed in their little group, heads high in sport pride. That was until Helena was tugged and turned.
"There you are," Leon frowned, "At first I couldn't tell it was you then I saw the body shape and height and knew it was you. Are you avoiding me?" The sadness that hung in his eyes was unbelievable. Helena felt bad, it has been two days since she last spoken to him and she won't reply to his texts. It wasn't that she was avoiding him… she really was busy with preparing and scheduling the next month after her father's surgery since he would be at the hospital for a while, Helena would be full time babysitter for Deborah during after school and mornings which means no plans for a while. There wasn't anything wrong with that since she really didn't do much but spend her days with Sherry watching anime, dancing to some pumped up music, or watching a romantic comedy that they happened to come across during one of their hang outs.
"Are you avoiding me?"
"Don't reply to my question with a question." He frowned, his hands sliding from her shoulders to her elbows where they remained. Leon looked really worried too.
"I've been busy…"
"Oh that's bullshit, Helena. It's not hard to just tell me I made things awkward." He was abnormally louder. Others looked as if the two were having an argument or breaking up even. Leon covered his mouth quickly, looking embarrassed. Helena turned her back to him,
"You have no idea…" She muttered, following Sherry down the hall.
People began to talk about what happened, the rumour so far is that Helena and Leon apparently broke up, kept it a secret, and it spread like a wildfire. After an hour of that, she found a small note from Leon with instructions to meet in the gym soon. It was odd since she just talked to him an hour ago but it wouldn't hurt to talk in private and explain to him that she really was busy.
"Where are you going?" Asked Sherry, who looked at Jake with a smile of cuteness and obvious affection. It wasn't long for these two to find common ground and go on a second date. Other than that the two bicker a lot, especially for a couple who hasn't started dating yet.
"Leon left me a note… I'm going to go talk to him in private, in the gym apparently. I'll be back." Helena left, wondering the hall till she found the gym. It wasn't a long walk and he was waiting there to with a note in his hand, "Are you going to apologize or hear me out this time before yelling?" She frowned and noticed his expression was just as confused.
"You wanted me here…" He stood in front of the gym storage room with the note, he showed it to her and it was Sherry's writing. Jake shoved them both into the storage room, shutting the doors and locking it on them from the outside with some chains.
"Sherry says you two apparently needed to talk and I listen to the woman. I'll be back in a hour or something."
Helena landed on her rear from his push, kicking the brown door in hopes of it opening. It didn't budge even a little bit. Leon tugged and pulled, beat and shoved, and yet nothing worked. The door was tightly sealed and the next hour there was no gym so no one could even notice them if they tried. To Helena this was just one big joke Sherry is going to get back but Leon seemed more nervous than her. A cold sweat broke on his forehead as his hands got clammy.
"You okay?" She looked at him with concern, getting up and moving closer inch by inch. Leon was looking pale. His determination to get out was beginning to surface as a major worry to her. It wasn't that bad to be locked in the gym storage room with her, was it?
"I'm just really claustrophobic… really claustrophobic." There was shaking in his voice, his 'I's' trembled more than anything. She guided him to a stool and put him down, he followed too easily. Even his breathing became quickly paced and uneven. She kneeled in front of him, taking his sweater off so he wouldn't be so cluttered. Her hands brushed through his hair, letting his body feel loose.
"Don't worry someone will have to come sooner or later because your friends are always in here throwing footballs, right?" She took her sweater off and the over shirt that rested as a top layer to her clothing so he could wipe the sweat from his head. Leon's hands began to shake and he couldn't seem to calm down. With a soft sigh she rested her hands on top of his, hers being not exactly as big but very cool and refreshing, "The more you think about it the worse it'll get. I don't know how to treat claustrophobia but I'll try."
Nothing but silence since she grabbed his hands and it did seem to calm him down a little. Though he kept his head down and away from her at all times.
"Talk to me." She began,
"Talk to you about what?" His eyes kept to a bag of soccer balls that rested in the corner of the room alone.
"About why you thought I was avoiding you… You couldn't say anything that could make things awkward. I really have been busy. I'm sorry though for making you think that."
"I guess I just over thought it all and just got worried. You know, I don't meet girls like you every day and I guess I can't stand seeing you not talk to me. I'm used to having any girl I could want wrap around my finger but you… you're different. I just really like it."
"Any girl you want?" her eyes fluttered from their hands to meet his eyes in a gaze. Leon covered up quickly though.
"I mean every girl I hang out with make moves on me that get really old, they come on to me really fast."
"Except for Claire, right? She must've hit a homerun,"
"Well, there's this rule where you don't touch your best friend's sister and I broke it once and we made out ONCE. The only time my mom caught us too. There's nothing between us and never will, even if she begs." His shoulders relaxed now and his breathing calmed down a lot, it seemed he just needed to be distracted.
"That's good for Chris but the fact he doesn't know though." Helena kept her view to the man to assure she didn't just assume but it seemed she was alright to, a look of guilt flooded over his face.
"Yeah, I can't tell him or he might try to murder me. Chris and Claire are pretty close so…" He shrugged, grasping her shirt tightly and realizing that her hands had still held his tightly. Leon loved how kind she could be for someone who looked like she might murder someone at any moment. He could see past her little defensive wall no matter how high she tried to build it.
"Ah, I see." She let go, allowing her hands to fall on her lap. Leon quickly grabbed hers, they were an asset in his calmness and he didn't like the way he got sweaty and weak in front of her.
"I probably seem like a huge baby to you." He laughed at himself but she didn't. Helena tilted her head and gave off a very disappointed aura. Her legs crossed shortly after as she scotched closer.
"You really think I would think of you like that? I don't think you're a baby. We all have fears and phobias and yours just happens to be confined areas and such. There's nothing wrong with that, it just makes you even more human."
"What are you afraid of then?" they stared at one another for a moment before she parted her lips to speak, though nothing came out. Helena shook her head disappointed at herself for not being able to trust him as much as she should. Leon would never use her weakness against her.
"I guess I'm afraid of being alone. I don't think I would've been as calm and collected as you. I find when I'm alone and in the dark that's the most terrifying. That's a secret between you and me though and no one else. Okay?"
"I promise you I will never tell. Not even my mom." They both had a little bit of a laugh before it dropped. They had a little bit of fun with talking, teasing the other and falling into a serious conversation about their popularity differences and Helena hiding.
"I don't understand why you hang out with Spencer and Ashley? You could kick them out and things would be normal. Everyone looks up to you." Somehow she ended up sitting side by side with him on the floor, her knees up to her chest as Leon leaned his head on her shoulder, it seemed he found himself calmer when he could touch her.
"I had a thing with Ashley and when we broke up I promised her we could still be friends and she sort of became a bitch after that and Spencer was always a douche bag to begin with. He beat me up in ninth grade for sticking up for Sherry. I assume she already told you that though, we're still pretty close though."
"You're a chicken shit."
"Thanks."
"I really never went to a school as cliché as this one and I think that you could do a lot better than that with her. Can Spencer really kick your ass again if I can kick his? You are a better human being then this and this is the little bit of respect I'll never have for you. Whether we meet again sometime out of school," Helena took his hand, balling it in a fist, "I'm not necessarily saying you should fight for her physically, not until he threatens first, but if you still really care about her you'll do something."
"You should really understand from my point of view." He mumbled. Leon fell forward gently but jerked up quickly in attempt to stay awake, nodding off now and then.
"Understand what? Is popularity really that important—it's the scholarship isn't it."
"Yeah and Spencer would ruin it if I acted like a total asshole back. He wants it just as much as I do and… I don't know. Scouts are coming to pick us some time and if he could, any game he would fuck me over."
"Isn't that a reason to try harder… Never mind you look like you're dozing off." She leaned back against the wall next to the rack of basketballs and volleyballs. Getting comfortable on the floor that was cold as ice and uncomfortable but nonetheless Leon found comfort with his large body leaning against hers, he was warm but her ass wasn't. Helena didn't have her phone and apparently he didn't either.
"Stop moving." Leon grumbled annoyed,
"My ass is freezing and you're really heavy."
"Are you complaining?"
"And if I am?" She shifted again. Leon scooped her in his arms easily, setting his legs so they crossed the other, and placed her on his lap. His arms wrapped around her waist as his head found comfort on her shoulder. Helena leaned back into his chest, her heart beating fast. There was no way he couldn't hear it from there, he was near it and there was no way of hiding it. Leon seemed fine, that or he was just really tired and didn't really put much effort into thinking. She could definitely agree that it was much more comfortable and the warmth was unbelievable. It was better than sitting next to the giant for sure.
His snoring was soft, it was rhythmic and cute. This didn't help with her feelings at all and she kept overthinking once again. Maybe if they could just stay friends that wouldn't be as bad as not really talking and he said it himself that he didn't want them to stop— as well as saying he wanted her in different wording— and this was probably nothing more or less.
A flash woke them up and the second had their attention immediately. Leon gazed at the two, Jake and Sherry, and he would've killed them both at that very moment but Sherry was smiling while taking millions of pictures on his phone and Jake doing the same to hers.
"So Cliché, the socially awkward misfit and the schools captain of the football team? I saw this in a movie once."
"Shut up, Jake." Helena rolled her eyes, getting up slowly and helping her sleepy companion. They both looked tired and pretty happy that they could smell the fresh air instead of feet and plastic. They all rolled out of the gym and it was dark out. Helena rubbed her eyes tiredly, yawning and stretching her arms up high. It felt good and a girly squeak escaped her throat.
"You two look exhausted, what were you doing?" Jake continued to pick at them jokingly, a smirk played on his lips. Leon was going to attack him but sadly he was too tired and not in any mood to wreck the half of a good mood he was in.
"We were planning your deaths and how to hide the bodies." Helena opened the school doors that were now supposed to be locked, exiting into the cool air that felt great against her warm skin. The weather was only great for a little bit before it got to cold.
"We're going on a date. See you guys!" Sherry exclaimed, a happy attitude to her. Helena waved them off and began to go her own way.
"You think I'm going to let a girl walk home alone this late at night? I'll give you a ride home. C'mon, Helena." Leon motioned towards his truck, looking at her clearly. Helena nodded, hopping to his side and walking to the school parking lot. The night was quite clear and beautiful, though the stars couldn't be seen from the city lights being so bright.
"Thanks for giving me a ride." She got around the truck, hopping inside and getting comfortable in the truck. It started up with a quick flick. Helena leaned onto the window, looking obviously at Leon till he finally caught her.
"What? Is there something on my face?" he looked in his center mirror, gazing to her brunette beauty who sat before him. Helena shrugged, giving him a smile that he couldn't resist. He hated that she had put him in the friend zone though.
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I'm sorry I haven't posted this chapter but there it is. Yes, if you all caught on Leon does like her but they're both stupid. D: Please forgive my week tardiness. I had so much troubles with deciding how this chapter would play out. I promise on my life chapter seven will be out tomorrow. Review if you're not mad. .
