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Derek's p.o.v
"Honestly Derek? Honestly?" Malia's voice has my eyes snapping open, pulling me out of my slumber. I rub my eyes before sitting up on the couch and looking over at her.
"What?" I ask, yawning.
"You saw Ismah naked?!" she exclaims.
"Oh" I say, my cheeks heating up and no doubt turning a very deep red. "It was an accident, I swear" I say, sounding like a kid who's just got in trouble with his Mum. Malia sighs before coming to sit across from me.
"Is there something going on between the two of you?" she asks, making me look up at her. "It's just..she's become a close friend to me and I don't want her to up and disappear if something happens.."
"I would never hurt her Malia" I defend.
"I know but..just don't toy with her okay? I know what if feels like to be where she is and it sucks. Don't make it worse for her" Malia warns.
"Malia, nothing's going on between us anyway" I say, realising it myself. So what I accidently saw her naked? So what i've caught her staring more than once? So what i've stared more than once?
"Right now there isn't" she corrects. "I'm not blind and i'm certainly not stupid" she points out before getting up and leaving for her room, leaving me to think about the things she's just said. If Malia can see there's something between us then is it true? Has Ismah said something to her to trigger her 'break her heart and i'll kill you' speech? With the millions of thoughts going through my mind, I don't even hear the loft door open.
"Uh..Derek?" Ismah's voice snaps me from my thoughts. "Are you okay?" she asks, studying me.
"Yeah..i'm fine" I say, avoiding her eyes..those turquiose eyes that I could get lost in.
"Izzy?" Malia calls out.
"Yeah Lia, it's me" she answers. Malia comes back down the stairs, glancing between us quickly before standing in front of Ismah.
"Did Lydia come up with you?" she asks.
"Nah, she just dropped me off..said she had a few things she had to do" Ismah tells her. Lydia can only handle so much of Malia simply because she's with Stiles. The things you notice when you actually pay attention..wait. I didn't even realise Ismah wasn't here. I should have known she wasn't here. She's my responsibility now-wait. Is she? She is living with us so she must be? The snap of fingers in my face break me from my thoughts..once again.
"Derek?" it's Malia.
"What?" I ask her, only looking at her.
"You okay?" she asks me, both looking at me with concern. I glance between the two before standing up.
"I'm fine" I answer gruffly.
"Derek-" Malia tries.
"I'm going for a run" I tell her, walking out the front door and taking off into the woods.
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Ismah's p.o.v
"What the hell is his problem?" Malia asks.
"I don't know..he seemed pretty out of it when I got back" I tell her. All of a sudden, Malia looks awful guilty. "Did you do something?" I ask her, feeling the need to protect Derek. I quickly back down when Malia gives me a knowing look.
"I told him..to make sure he doesn't hurt you" she tells me.
"Why would Derek hurt me?" I ask her in confusion.
"Dump you, break your heart, whatever you wanna call it you idiot" she laughs. What the hell is she talking about? "If you wanted to..you know..date Derek or whatever, like Lydia said..I just wanted to make sure he wouldn't hurt you" wait, what?
"Why would you do that?" I ask her.
"You're the closest friend I have other than Stiles" she admits shyly and I smile at her. "And i've been in your shoes..it's not the best thing in the world"
"You're right..it isn't" I tell her. "I feel so lost..I don't know how to act or behave, I just feel out of place within the pack" I admit.
"You'll learn, trust me" Malia says, placing a comforting hand on my arm. "I want you to be happy and I want you to fit in with us" she says. There's a long silence before I remember Derek's sudden departure.
"I'm going to uh..to find Derek, make sure he's okay" I tell Malia. She smirks and gets up.
"And i'm going to stay the night at Stiles'. I'll see you tomorrow Izzy" she says.
"Wait" I yelp, grabbing her arm. "I haven't stayed here without you before" I tell her, a panic setting in my voice.
"Trust me, everything will be fine" Malia says.
"You promise?"
"I promise"
"Okay..tell Stiles I say hello" Malia nods before leaving. I take a few deep, calming breaths before going after Derek.
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"Derek?" I call out, walking through the forest. "Derek?" I call out, louder this time, still getting no response. I wish Malia was with me. I wish somebody was with me. I'm walking and soon pick up a familiar scent. I take in my surroundings. This is it. My den. I find myself going over to where I used to sleep, my scent still heavy in the air. Maybe things could just go back to how they were? I could be a panther again, I could live here again. I could feel whole again, not feel lost, not feel like I don't fit in. I'd be an omega again..well i'm still an omega but I would be alone again. Maybe that's what I want, what i've wanted since I turned back. It wouldn't be hard, going back. I'd shift and never shift back until i'm stuck in my panther form. I go into my den. I place a hand on the rocks and leaves I would sleep amoungst. I can go back.
"I know what you're thinking" a voice says from outside. I let my eyes shine green, growling as I come back out, ready to take on the person intruding on my former den. My scent is still heavy here, they shouldn't be here.
"Derek.." I say, seeing it's just him. I let my eyes go back to normal, my attack stance going away. "What are you doing here?"
"What are YOU doing here?" he answers with a question.
"This is my home" I answer.
"You're with us now" he says.
"Not until Scott decides I am"
"He's going to let you stay" he tells me. "You've given him no reason to deny you"
"And what if I don't want to join the pack?" I ask him. Derek narrows his eyes and steps closer to me so we're less then a metre apart.
"Why would you say that?" he asks, his voice soft.
"Face it..I don't fit in with you and the pack..I just don't" I admit, looking down at my bare feet. "I feel lost when i'm like this..when i'm human. I'm constantly looking over my shoulder, waiting for the hunters to finally catch up with me..they'll kill me Derek" I say, a saddness washing over me. Derek just steps closer, until he's far too close for my liking..well, maybe I do like it. Okay, I like it. I may be a were-panther but i'm still a teenaged girl, well a young adult.
"Tell me what you're really afraid of" he says, is hands coming to my arms.
"I..I.."
"Ismah, you can trust me" he insists. I look into his piercing green eyes and nod.
"I'm scared that..if I become pack of the pack, the hunters will find us and..and they'll leave me alone again, i'll have noone again. I can't let that happen..I can't let you or anyone else get hurt because of me..I care for you all too much to let that happen" I whisper. I can't let another pack get murdered, I just can't. The hunters are vicious and cruel..I won't let them get to the McCall pack.
"You know we'd protect you if they came right?" he asks me, his arms coming around my waist loosely, carefully, like he knows one wrong move will send me bolting further into the forest.
"I couldn't ask that of the pack" I tell him, shaking my head.
"You don't have to ask..we'd do it anyway" he tells me.
"Derek, I should just go back to-" my sentence is cut off when I feel soft flesh over my lips. At first I don't react. His lips move over mine softly, carefully, he's giving the opportunity to stop this, pull away, push him away. But I don't want that. My thread my hands through his jet black hair, massaging his scalp as I finally start to kiss him back. I find myself arching into him, wanting to be as close to him as I can. One of his hands find it's way to my cheek, holding me, while the other tightens around my waist, pulling me even closer. When we finally pull away for air, his hands still hold me and he leans his forehead againist mine.
"You're not lost, you're just struggling" he tells me. "You'll find your way Ismah, we'll all be here to help you" he assures, placing another soft kiss to my lips quickly.
"If Scott wants me..i'll stay" I tell him. Derek helps fill the emptiness inside of me that was created after my pack was murdered. I feel something for him that I never thought i'd feel again. This, Derek, Malia, Scott, the pack, they all bring out things in me I didn't think i'd see again. If they'll have me, if they'll help me, I think I can be the person I was before my pack was killed. I think I can be normal again.
"Good..I don't want you to go" Derek whispers, pulling me into another kiss.
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It's the lst chapter next chapter! What do we want? Fluff, smut, what? It'll have a pack meeting with Scott's final decision for weither she stays or goes so stay tuned! Favourite, follow and please review! Stay golden!