Edward's POV

We had just made love, God I couldn't get enough of Bella. I didn't want to ever let her go. She had just jumped off the bed and was putting her clothes on

"What are you doing?" I asked

"I'm hungry Edward! I've worked up an appetite. I'm just going to get an apple and I'll be right back!"

"Hurry back!" I said as I watched he go to the door. I decided to put some sweats on; she ran back to me and kissed me passionately on my mouth

"Just a sample for later…" she teased

I went over to my CD's to look for the special song I was working on for her wedding gift. I was keeping it a surprise, & I knew she would love it!

I was dreaming about Saturday when I heard Alice, she'd had a vision that I just couldn't fathom.

I quickly saw Bella, at the sink, she turned around with an apple in her hands she had a knife and she was startled by…oh god Jasper. NO! This was happening now!

"No! Jasper NO! I screamed as I ran down the stairs. Alice was directly behind me.

As I reached the bottom of the stairs, I saw Emmett run into the kitchen just inches ahead of me. The apple was on the floor, and Jasper had Bella's neck in his mouth. We pulled him off of her, and I saw her drop to the ground. Her eyes were open for a moment as I looked down at her. Then they closed.

"Oh God No! Not Bella, not now! Please baby, please wake up. You're okay-your okay. You'll be okay!" as I pulled her close to me

"ALICE! Get Carlisle!" I screamed

Emmett held Jasper back, "Emmett, get him out of here!"

"Edward" Alice said

"Oh god, what the hell happened?" Carlisle asked as he kneeled down to check her

"Jasper" was all I could say as I looked down at my angel laying in a pool of blood of her own blood

"Edward, please step outside with Alice"

"I'm not leaving her! Bella, please wake up!"

"Edward, please calm down. I need to check for a pulse, I need to see if she's still alive."

"Oh God Carlisle help her! Please, I can't lose her!"

"Jasper didn't drain her. He was stopped in time. Thank god! Edward we need to move her, take her upstairs."

I lifted her limp body and held her tight against me. As we walked to the stairs, I saw everyone gathered in the living room. Jasper has his head in his hands; Alice was trying to comfort him.

I'm sorry Edward I didn't see. I never thought he would. I'm so sorry Alice thought to me

I laid her on our bed, as I looked down at her I noticed She was so quite, where was the screaming?

"Carlisle, why is she so calm? What's wrong?"

"Nothing is wrong, everyone is different. We just have to stay with her. Edward, please go clean yourself up"

I looked down and realized I was covered in blood, her blood!

"Please don't leave her. I'll be right back!"

I showered quickly, not wanting to be gone from her for even a moment. I ran directly back to her side "Carlisle, any change?"

There was a knock at the door, "Please just go away. Leave us!"

"Edward, we need to discus what were going to tell Charlie. He's expecting to walk his daughter down the isle in 4 days. That's not going to happen now."

"My Bella, I couldn't save you. I'm so sorry! Please forgive me! I always tried to protect you from danger, it didn't cross my mind you would need protecting from one of us!" my voice broke as I spoke the words

"What do we say to Charlie?"

"Carlisle, I really don't care what you say to Charlie. That doesn't matter to me right now! Less than an hour ago I was holding her soft and warm in my arms, and now I'm cleaning her blood off me and she's gone! So, I really don't give a shit about Charlie!"

"I'm sorry Edward. I know. I'll take care of it. I'm going to send Alice up, you shouldn't be alone right now"

I lay down next to Bella and held her hand. It was already colder and I started grieve for her. My existence had changed in a heartbeat. It would never be the same. But at least now she would be with me, forever.

Alice came up and took Bella's other hand "Edward, Jasper feels-"

"Alice, please don't. Not right okay!"

"Edward, Bella's going to be fine"

"Fine, Alice? Damning her to hell is not fine with me!"

Over the next two days I never left her side. I couldn't leave my angel. Carlisle would check in on the periodically because this transformation was not going like the others. She didn't move and she didn't cry out in pain. There were whimpers now and again. Tears flowed from the corners of her eyes.

I placed my head on her chest as her heartbeat became erratic; within minutes I heard the last beat.

"Carlisle, her heart has stopped!"

"It's complete. She'll wake up soon. Edward, just hold her, talk to her."

I did as my father instructed. I wanted her to know I was with her and that I hadn't left her.

"Bella, I'm here with you. I love you Bella." As I kissed her lips, her lips moved, and I kissed her again. She kissed me back "Bella?" she was waking up

"Edward, what happened? Did I pass out again?"

"Don't you remember Love?"

"I went to get an apple, then I saw- Jasper"

"Yes, Bella. Do you remember cutting your finger?"

"Jasper, bit me?" she trailed off stunned "so, I'm a…"

"Yes Bella you are. I'm so sorry!"

"Edward, are you okay?"

"No, Bella I'm not. My brother attacked you!"

"But you're not mad at me?"

"Oh God no Bella, why would I be mad at you. Don't be ridiculous"

"Let me get Carlisle"

I opened the door and called down for him.

"Bella! Good to see you are up. How do you feel? Carlisle asked

"I'm confused. I don't really remember what happened exactly. I thought that I had just passed out again"

"Are you thirsty Bella?" he continued

"No, I'm not."

"Then would you mind a visitor?" she shook her head

"Alice, you can come in!"

"Oh Bella! We are all so glad that you're okay!"

"Why wouldn't I be?"

"Alice, please. Don't she doesn't remember much" I said

"What Alice? Why wouldn't I be okay?

"Bella, Jasper didn't just bite you. He almost drained you"

"Oh, I didn't realize. Where is he?"

"You shouldn't worry about this now" I said

"Edward, Alice I'd like to see Jasper please" She asked

"What? No way not after what he's done to you!"

"I want to see him alone, please!" she was getting more agitated

I stood up, and walked to the door with Alice. The whole family was waiting on the other side of the door. "Jasper, she wants to see you" I watched as he hung his head, and walked into my room shutting the door behind him

Bella's POV

I was still fuzzy about the event's leading up to my "new" existence, I had realized Jasper had bit me. But I hadn't known that he tried to drain me. Alice's little slip had caught me surprise.

"Oh, I didn't realize. Where is he?" I asked, hoping he was okay

"You shouldn't worry about this now" Edward spoke softly to me, stroking my hair

"Edward, Alice I'd like to see Jasper please"

"What? No way not after what he's done to you!" Edward jumped off the bed angry at my request

"I want to see him alone, please!" I requested again, more forcefully this time

They walked to the door to leave, I saw Edward look back at me with what looked like curiosity. The whole family was waiting on the other side of the door. I could hear them. "Jasper, she wants to see you" Edward's voice rang in my ears.

As they left the room, I moved from the bed to the window. I looked out into the vast forest that lay in front of me. Only separated by a thin pane of glass. I touched the glass with my hand and felt the warmth that radiated through.

I heard the door click behind me. Jasper was here. I could feel him. The blood that ran thru my veins was the same as the blood in his. "Why wont you look at me Jasper?" I asked, still gazing out the window. I could feel his anguish, he was unable to control himself, he had thought of taking me many times before.

"Bella. I-I…"he stuttered, unable to get out the thought. He still didn't look up.

"I know Jasper. I know" I calmly spoke this words "Jasper, come. Look"

He moved closer and stood next to me. Still not looking at me." Look and see how beautiful it is" I said looking out to the trees

I looked over to Jasper, and saw as he tried to steal glances sideways, he wouldn't meet my gaze. I turned to him and he saw me he fell to the ground sobbing his dry tearless cry. "Oh Bella, I wish I could take it back. I would do anything for forgiveness. Please forgive my, Bella." As he grasped my legs begging.

Behind me, I heard the door open softly; I knew Edward was in the room. But I continued to focus on Jasper

I bent down, and looked in his eyes. He was startled, but couldn't break my gaze. I touched his cheek. "Jasper, there is nothing to forgive." I felt an energy pass between us and he blinked away.

"How did you do that?" he asked standing up and stepping back

"Jasper, I've done nothing," I said in my cool calm voice that was now my own

"Bella? Are you okay?" Edward said rushing to my side. Looking at Jasper with anger and disgust.

"Edward, please. Everything is fine" I reached to touch Edward's face. I felt the energy sensation again

"Bella? What was that? You did do something, what is that?" Edward said concerned

"Edward, please it was nothing. I need to change. Please give me a moment" I knew that Edward didn't want to leave

Jasper kept looking at me. He didn't want to leave either. But I saw Edward take him by the arm and take him to the door.

"She wants to get changed. She'll be out soon, Please wait for us in the living room. Alice?" Edward said

"I'm on it. I'll be right back!" she chirped

I was in the bathroom, sat on the edge of the tub and ran the water. This seems familiar to me. Deja vu I thought as I stripped the blood stained clothes off of my body…I heard an intake of breath behind me. "Edward" I looked at him over my shoulder, my eyes taking him in "either I have too little clothing on, or you my dear have too many" I teased

I walked over to him and touched his shoulder walking around him like I was circling my prey "Please Edward, say something."

"S-Something" he managed to sputter out. As I laughed out a low chuckle

I stepped into the warm water, and it felt wonderful against my cool skin. I sat down and looked to Edward. His mouth was open, his eyes dazed as I pulled my hair away from my back" Edward, would you mind?"

"What..?" his eyes seemed to comeback into focus "What Bella..?"

"Wash my back?"

"Yes, of course" he picked up the sponge and rubbed circles into my back. I moaned with the pleasure of his touch

I turned quickly to look at him, and I gazed into his eyes "Why don't you join me?"

I reached over and pulled him in. "Hey, Hey wait Bella! I'm still dressed!" he said as he slid into the water. I took his face in my hands and I kissed him "I told you that you had too many clothes on!" I whispered against his face.

Edward stopped and pulled away from me. "Bella, I-"

"Edward I know, don't worry about it. Shhh…shhh, just kiss me. Love me!"

"What do you mean you know? How would you know what I was going to say?"

"It's nothing Edward!" I reached out to kiss him but he stood up he wanted to leave

"Bella, please talk to me!"

"Fine just go!" I said, "Leave me!"

"I'm not going to leave you I'm just concerned. Let me get Carlisle I'll be right back. Please Bella"

As he left I got out of the tub, I needed to get ready for the confrontation that was surely going to come. I combed out my hair, and put the clothes on that Alice had brought up.

I went back into the bedroom and took my place over by the window. Feeling the warmth, feeling the glass against my skin.

"Bella, I've brought Carlisle. Please let him look at you."

"I've spoken to Jasper, Bella. He told me about your talk. He told me what happened"

"What are you talking about Carlisle?" Edward asked "Just please see Bella"

"I am Edward, Please let me talk with her. Alone"

"No, no, she needs to rest. She needs to drink"

"Edward, Please give me a moment alone with Carlisle." I said as he looked at me with pained eyes, he shut the door behind him.

"Bella, your are extraordinary! What Jasper told me was amazing!"

"Carlisle, please it was nothing!"

"But your gift it's, well, we need to test it out more"

"I'm not sure how I did it. It just came from me. That's all I know. Edward seems confused about me. He wants you to assure him that I'm fine, that I'm not damaged."

"He loves you very much Bella, he never wanted this for you. You know that."

"I know. Can I tell you something Carlisle?"

"Of course Bella, you can tell me anything"

"When I had the car accident, I was clinically dead when they found me. They brought me back to life. Did you know that?"

"Yes, I did"

"Does Edward know about that? That I was dead?"

"No, I don't think he knows that part."

"I saw heaven Carlisle! At least what I perceive heaven to be. I saw light, pure energy, radiance!" as I spoke these words Carlisle just gazed at me in astonishment "It was wonderful, peaceful…beautiful…and then it was taken away from me, suddenly."

"When I spoke to Jasper he said you made him feel different. He couldn't really describe it, but that even when he left you he was changed somehow"

"When Jasper tried to drain me and I was once again dying I felt my soul return to the light, I was warm and felt pure love. I believe I was protected from the pain of the transformation. Then I woke up to Edward's voice, calling my name."

"Bella, the things you have told me are miraculous! Something I could never have imagined, I always had faith but I never felt. Never known-"

"Carlisle, when I spoke to Jasper, I sensed his despair. His anger at himself for taking my life. I offered him a gift. The gift of serenity."

"Jasper told me he felt forgiveness, and tranquility emanating from you. He still feels it now."

"Edward once told me your theory on why he could read the thoughts of others, and Alice's visions. I believe my gift comes from what I experienced when I was dead. The peace, tranquility, love and light. I feel that is what I can offer to your family if you allow me to stay."

"Bella, you are part of this family, you have been for years. I already consider you a daughter."

"Thank you Carlisle, I am grateful to be a part of your family." I reached out and placed my hand on his cheek. I felt the spark transfer from me to Carlisle, as his eyes widened in amazement.

The door opened and Edward came to my side.

"So Carlisle how is Bella doing? Is she fine?"

"Oh, Edward she's more than fine. She's perfect!"

"Edward, I think I'd like to go downstairs. I'm feeling a bit restless"

"I was thinking the exact same thing! Everyone has been anxious to see you!"

Edward, Carlisle and I made our way, down the stairs. My entire family was there to greet me.

"Bella, I'm so glad to have you as a daughter!" Esme was the first to reach out to embrace me as a member of the family

"Thank you Esme. You have always been so kind to me!" I looked into the group and noticed that Jasper was the furthest away from me, just watching

Rosalie gave me a hug, and then Emmett picked me up and swung me around "Bella! I do believe you owe me an arm wrestling match!"

"Your right Emmett, I do! Would you like to give it a go now or do you need time to prepare? Rest up a bit?" Everyone chuckled

"Oh that hurts Bella! Let's do it now and I'm not going to go easy on you so prepare to get your ass kicked!"

"I was just going to say the same thing to you Emmett!"

Emmett and I went to the dinning room and everyone followed "Don't you guys usually take bets on this sort of thing?" I asked

"Um…we already have" Jasper finally spoke up

"Okay let's do this!" Emmett snarled

"Bella, Good luck!" Edward said as he kissed me. I winked at him as I turned around

We clasped our hand together, Carlisle was officiating, as Emmett tried to stare me down" On the count of 3, 1-2…3"Carlisle said

His grip was tight and our hand didn't move. He kept starring at me, I looked into his eyes and he loosened his grip. As he did I flung his hand down on the table. I had won, Emmett just looked stunned

"Hey Bella! Best 2 out of 3? I'll get you next-"

"No Emmett, you wont!" I teased

"I concur!" Alice chimed in as we walked off together, into the kitchen.

I froze as we entered the room. Alice and Edward turned to see why I stopped

"Bella? Are you okay? What is the mat-" he immediately realized what was wrong. This was where my old life ended and the new one began. I closed my eyes for a moment

"What did you tell my family?" I asked

"Charlie thinks you are off on a girls weekend with me!" Alice said

"When can I see Charlie again?"

"Bella, we need to see how well you can control your urges first, then we'll see"

At that moment Emmett bounded in the room" Guys, what would you say to an impromptu hunting trip? Bella, needs to get out and sink her teeth in shall we say!"

"Funny Emmett!" Edward said "Bella, what do you think. Would you be up to that now?"

"Yes, I would like to try."