Edward's POV

I jumped out the window after her. I called out for Bella to come back. But she was gone. I searched and searched but to no avail. As the sun was coming up, I made my way home. My family was waiting for my return. When they saw I came back without her they were shocked.

"Where's Bella?" Carlisle asked in a worried tone

"I couldn't find her. It's like she just disappeared"

The phone rang and Carlisle answered it.

"Yes, Charlie she's what? Oh Lord, I am so sorry Charlie. Yes I will tell him." Hanging up the phone

"Carlisle, what did Charlie say?" I asked

"It appears that there wont be a wedding today because Bells is dead."

"What? What the hell are you talking about?"

"Just what I said Edward. Charlie found Bella dead this morning in her room."

"What was she thinking? I have to go get her!" I said as I ran for the door. I needed to get to her house. I needed to see her, to talk to her what was she thinking!

"I'm coming with you Edward!" Alice said sliding into the car next to me

"Fine!"

We got to Bella's house and Charlie met us at the door. He grabbed me, hugging he tightly "Edward this is so horrible. I can't believe this has happened, Today of all days. I wasn't prepared," he sobbed

"I know Charlie, I just can't believe this. What happened Charlie?"

"I woke up this morning and I saw a note from Bella. I read it, and I was filled with such joy. Today was going to be a great day. The letter was filled with love and happiness. I went to talk to her, to thank her for the letter. Then I found her. She was so cold and still. But she looked peaceful."

"What did the note say, if you don't mind me asking?"

"Edward, come in. Please read it for yourself" we went in the house and Charlie brought 2 envelopes to me sobbing quietly. "This is the one she left for me, and this one was addressed to you. I'm sure she meant for you to read it before the wedding"

I sat down and looked first at the letter to Charlie:

Dear Dad,

I am getting married tomorrow and I am so excited for my life to really begin. I have dreamed about this day for a long time now and cant believe it is really here! My nerves are getting the best of me now, but I think of my wedding day, you walking me down the isle, kissing me at the end as you give me away to Edward. This is the thought that calms me. I love you daddy. You have always been there for me even if it wasn't in person I knew you were there with me. You have cried with me and laughed with me. Tomorrow I 'm sure will be filled with a bit of both. But I want you to know from the bottom of my heart, that I am truly happy and will be happy forever with Edward by my side.

I love you daddy, there is so much more I want to say but I need to get some sleep. I've got a busy day tomorrow and I can't wait!"

Your loving daughter,

Bella

I looked at the letter stunned. Why did she write this? When? I looked at the other envelope, Alice sitting next to me "Charlie, Can I please see her?"

"Edward, she isn't here."

"Where is she Charlie? I need to see her!"

"They've taken her to the crematorium. It was what she wanted."

"Oh my God! Where is she, please I need to see her once more!"

"I called Sullivan Brothers Mortuary."

As he said that, I ran out the door Alice on my heels. I didn't care what Charlie thought. I needed to find her

Alice was on the phone as I drove franticly to the funeral home "Carlisle, we have a problem. Charlie sent Bella's body to the crematorium. We are on our way now; we'll meet you there. Sullivan Brothers" then she hung up

"I hope we're not too late!"

We franticly made our way to the funeral home. God I hope we're not too late. I thought as we rushed thru the doors.

"May I help you?" said a man in a dark suit.

"My fiancé passed away this morning. I believe she has been brought here. I would like to see her, one last time. For closure." I said looking sullen

"Her name please?"

"Isabella Swan"

"Oh yes. She was so young, such a tragedy. Please follow me" Alice and I followed the man thru the hallways, and into what could only be described as a preparation room.

He went into the vault and pulled out a gurney the tag on it said Swan. There was a body; I was finally going to talk to her.

"I'll leave you with your loved one, please knock when you are ready to leave"

"Thank you"

After he left, Alice and I looked at each other and unzipped the bag.

"It's not her! Where could she be Alice? Can you see her?"

"No, I am getting nothing Edward"

"Maybe it's the wrong bag?" I knocked on the door, and the gentleman appeared.

"Done so soon?" he asked confused

"Well, we never got started. This isn't her, this isn't Bella!"

"This can't be. We have never-"

"Well then this is a first. This is definitely not my fiancé. I would know!"

"Oh, the tags must have been mixed up with Mrs. Fairfax But I guess it's a good thing you were wanting cremation because that's where she is now."

"WHAT? You're burning her! Where?"

"Sir, please calm down. It was the service requested. I'm sorry you can't see her again, but it's too late."

"Where is she?" I growled at him, Alice holding me back.

"I'll take you to the room, please just calm down Sir."

We entered a room that had a large cremation oven at one end. There was a body, ready to go in "Stop! Is that her?" I screamed

"Let me see, the tag says Fairfax, yes, this is Ms Swan. Please forgive the mistake."

"Please leave us!" I growled

Once again Alice and I opened the bag. This time however there was no body. She was gone. "What is she thinking?"

We walked out to the car; the rest of the family was waiting.

"She's gone," I murmured

"Oh my god they burn-"Carlisle began

"No, she left. I'm not sure where she would go," I said as I put my head in my hands

"Edward! The letter, she wrote you a letter remember!"

"Thank you Alice! I forgot about that" as I ran to the car and picked up the envelope

My name was written neatly on the front. It was a larger envelope than Charlie's letter. Something was in it.

I opened the letter and looked inside. I tipped the loose content into my hand. It was the ring Bella had picked out for me. It was a beautifully elegant band in platinum. I looked for the inscription on the inside. We had joked about what we would put on the inside, but she would never tell me. She said we needed to wait till the wedding. I looked for the words from my love. But there were none. It was just a symbol engraved in the band, the symbol for eternity. I let out a gasp and sat down next to the car. Alice sat next to me. I slipped the ring onto my left hand, where Bella would have put it on me today.

I looked to the letter to provide me with some answers I desperately needed to know

My Dearest Edward,

I dream of walking down the isle to you, my love. My father giving me to you. Watching your eyes as you raise my veil, and we kiss before god to seal our union. Our two souls forever one. But it all is a pointless act, in some ways.

Because you have always had me. I have loved you my entire life. I was made for you and only you. Time and distance cannot separate us.

Please find enclosed a poem by e.e.cummings, it is my favorite and I think of you whenever I read it. Also, please find your ring. Please never forget me my angel. I love you more than anything in the world. My lovely husband, for that is how I will think of you from this day forward, and maybe, someday my dream will be true.

Eternally yours,

Bella

i carry your heart with me


(i carry it in my heart)


i am never without it


(anywhere i go you go, my dear;


and whatever is done 
by only me

is your doing, my darling)

i fear not fate

(for you are my fate, my sweet)


i want no world


(for beautiful you are my world, my true) 


and it's you are


whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows 


(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud 


and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;


which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) 


and this is the wonder

that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

by: e.e. cummings

Alice held me as I sobbed dry tears. This day was to be our happily ever after, and now I couldn't wake up from this nightmare

"Why Alice? Why?"

"Edward. I just don't know what else to say"

"Bella!" I cried out into the wind "Please come back!" I whispered

"We need to get home Edward we need to represent a united front to Aro and the others"

She helped me up, I felt like a broken man. I let Alice drive and as I looked into the woods passing by all I could see was Bella's face. When we arrived home it was raining I looked to the heavens and felt the rain against my face. Heaven was crying the tears that I could not.