A/N: Ok so I've started writing another chapter. Now lets just prey I don't get side tracked like with the last one. I want to at least get this fic done before I either start another or continue with Yami no Koi and Forbidden. Plus there's a couple of one-shot ideas I want to write up before they go away. Hope this chapter comes out well haha I have no idea what I'm going to write about really.
Oh the next few days were fabulous! I'd never felt such a warmth inside me and I never imagined that it would come from someone like Kaiba.
He was still a little off, but I just put that down to the fact he's not very social, so suddenly having a boyfriend was freaking him out. Oh my god… "Boyfriend"… it sounds so odd: especially for someone his age. I was feeling pretty strange too. It was only a couple of days ago that I was miserable as hell and would have preferred to sit at home reading manga than going out every day. I'm actually wondering what my mother thinks. She knows I've been going out every day but she has no idea why… she also noticed that I seem happier. When she asked me the other day…
"Ryou, are you okay?" She said in a worried voice.
"Hm? Yes mother I'm fine!" I chimed with a bright smile. I think I'd just been daydreaming about Kaiba so my eyes must have been pretty sparkly.
"It's just… you seem so… so… happy lately." Her brow furrowed but a smile still covered her lips. I nodded and smiled again.
"Well I've got to go now! Ja ne!" I cried as I charged out the door.
…
Yea if your only son suddenly changed his mood over night and acted like a love struck girl then you'd probably be worried too. I wasn't acting that girly though was I? Oh well I sure don't act like that around Kaiba. I have to keep my cool so he won't get freaked out…
"Halloooooo!" I chirped as Kaiba opened the door to his apartment. He didn't smile or say anything, but the look in his eyes was kind and happy. "How are you?" I asked, beaming as I took my shoes off.
"Fine." He said simply. He never asked me how I was… I wonder why… but like I said: he's unsociable.
"So what shall we do today?" I asked excitedly. I'm pretty sure if my life were an anime there'd have been all sparkly bubbles and stuff floating around me. Not to mention the "luffyness radiation". Kaiba shrugged indecisively and walked through to the lounge.
"I kind of have work, but we can go out somewhere if you like." He spoke as he sat on the sofa in front of his laptop: a usual scene. I sighed a little, and smiled sadly.
"It's okay. If you need to work then we don't have to go out." Kaiba looked up at me, he seemed surprised I guess. He really was acting differently, like he didn't know what to do with himself. It must have been a lot easier for him to be mean to me, but he's really been trying. I sat down next to him and glanced at what he was typing. It seemed pretty good… even though I wasn't exactly an expert on romance novels. Malik, begrudgingly, lent me some of his books that Kaiba wrote so I could try and get to know about him or something. You know how they say writers put a bit of themselves into their work? Well maybe these romance novels show the romantic side of Kaiba that he's afraid to let out!
"Hm? What this one about?" I asked. Kaibe glanced at me for a moment before returning his focus to the monitor.
"You're actually interested?" He asked in a monotonous voice. I nodded ad leaned my chin on his shoulder.
"Tell me! Tell me!" I cheered. (Malik must be rubbing off on me).
"Well it's about this guy who has a wife but he falls in love with someone else and… Hey!" He yelled as my head lulled to the side and I began to snore. "If you're going to be immature then you can get out." He said, returning to his usual blank voice.
"Oh no! I'll be good I promise!" I yelled.
"Well shut up then." His voice seemed to regaining it's old cruel tone. Oh but what a wonderful voice it was.
…
Well today I'm hanging out with Malik at the shopping centre. He insisted that I come with him so he can buy some new clothes. Of course it couldn't be Marik who got dragged here. If Marik came then Malik what get embarrassed and would take ten times as long to pick anything. God he was such a girl sometimes.
"What about… this?" He asked cheerily as he pulled out a baby-blue t-shirt with a pink paw print on it.
"Hm… blue's not really your colour." I said. I was bored out of my mind. Clothes were not my forte. I preferred to go to the manga store or maybe the arcade.
"I'm not talking about for me, Ryoouu!" He sang.
"What? Then who the hell are you shopping for?" I asked. So if all this time I'd been sat here giving half-asses opinions on these clothes and they weren't even for Malik then why the hell was I here?
"It's for you silly!" He said as if it was blatantly obvious. I think I felt myself pale.
"What?" He giggled. "But you said we were here for you to buy something."
"Yes Ry-Ry I'm going to buy you some new clothes because you waste all your money on those stupid picture books and you need some nice clothes to impress your BF." I stared daggers at him.
"You tricked me."
"Well don't you want to look nice for Kaiba? After all he must be pretty rich and from what I've seen he dresses pretty snazzily! You should do so too Ry-Ry. It would give you more sex appeal!" He practically yelled the last part and everyone within a mile radius seemed to come running to see why the word "sex" has been shouted out.
"Malik shut the hell up; and don't talk about Kaiba out loud what if someone hears you!" I glanced suspiciously at anyone who may be listening in.
"Oh don't be silly as far as they know it's some other Kaiba." He giggled. "Now, lets go get you some fly gear!" He said, adding specific attention to the words "fly" and "gear".
And so about 2-3 hours went by of Malik stripping me in dressing room and people running in to make sure it wasn't rape. Although, I guess it didn't help that I kept shouting rape out loud. After the gruelling work of finding not just one outfit, but like… 10! Malik finally decided it was enough. We began to walk to the nearest café and I sighed heavily as my body ached.
"Damn Malik how did you pay for all this?" I felt kind of bad for making my friend spend all this money…
"Well I am holding down 3 jobs and I owe you about 5 birthday and Christmas presents."
"True." I sighed again. I just hope Kaiba liked this stuff because I thought most of it looked pretty stupid… or gay. Damn, if that's what Malik was trying I'll kill him! After having a mocha each, we decided to head home. The shops were all shutting now and there wasn't much else to do; and I never even got to go to the manga store or the arcade.
"I guess I owe you know her Malik?" I chuckled… "Malik?" I asked as I turned around. Malik has stopped walking about 2 meters back and was staring in another direction. I walked over.
"Malik?" I followed his gaze down one of the corridors and I felt my heart skip as I saw, standing there, none other than Kaiba. "Ah! Kai-" I couldn't finish shouting as Malik put a hand over my mouth and dragged me behind one of the randomly placed pillars near by. "Malik what the hell?" I exclaimed.
"Shhh!" He hushed, placing a finger over his mouth as he did so. "Look, he's with someone." He said and began to watch Kaiba and the other person again.
"So?" I asked. "I'm his boyfriend," I turned to look again. "Why should it matter if he's with… some… one." My words drifted away and I stared unbelievingly. I felt my chest burning as I watched Kaiba… and he was… kissing the other person! My eyes widened and a mist of tears overwhelmed my vision. Now Kaiba was just a blur that blended in with the shadows, and then I ran.
I sat in my room. The lights were off and the mumble of talking could be heard from downstairs. I guess my new sudden change in attitude came as a shock to my mother again. She had tried to come in and talk a few times but I just didn't say anything. I was just sat on my bed with my overly sized jumper on and held my mobile in my sleeve-covered hand. I scrolled through the few pictures I had taken of Kaiba and me. Why am I only noticing now, that in every one he never smiled?
I've given up on stopping the tears and snot from running down my face, and my hair must be a mess: I haven't showered or washed in a day or two now; and Kaiba hasn't even called or messaged me. I just couldn't stop crying. No matter what I did, I kept thinking of him. Why had he been with that other person? Had it been a guy? A woman? Just what the hell was going on? I never even remotely considered Kaiba to be like that… like some kind of man-whore who just fucks with people and then goes off with someone else! I hated him so much! I hated him for doing this to me? If he never really liked me then why the hell did he let me go on thinking… thinking that he loved me? I punched the mattress and left my fist there as my body shook. I would have sat back up but why should I bother? I let myself fall onto my front. I sobbed into the mattress.
Why?
I could feel him jabbing his index finger into my back. The constant shove made my skin sore and I hated it, but I just couldn't bring myself to make him stop.
"Hey, Ryou…" Malik said quietly. I made a noise to show I was listening, but that was it. "Did you even ask Kaiba about it?" I sighed. How could I ask him? What would I do… just walk up to his door, wait for him to open it and ask, "Hey who the hell were you kissing the other day?" Yea, like that would work.
"No." I stated simply.
"Then why don't you go ask him? It could just be some misunderstanding… besides I'm sure he's wondering where his glory hole has gone."
"What!" I yelled, sitting up and staring at him.
"His glory hole." Malik repeated with a smile. "He must not have much gay sex so you're his one and only glory hole!" It disturbed me how happy he seemed while he said this.
"That's disgusting, Malik. Besides… we only did it once." I felt a faint blush cover my cheeks.
"Really? Wow, no wonder he needs someone else." I really wanted to punch him… or drop kick him either would do; but it's true we only ever had sex once… but he never said, he never tried. Or was it my fault? Maybe…maybe…
"Maybe you're right." I muttered, and I could feel tears prickling my eyes.
"Uh, Ry-Ry I didn't mean it like that." Malik tried to recover, but it was too late. "You shouldn't listen to me! I'm an idiot!" The thought had already burned itself into my skull, and it wouldn't go away.
"Ryou? Ryou!" Malik shook my shoulder; I didn't want to move. I just kept my head in my knees and cried. I knew this was all too good to be true. Why is it when I'm finally happy with my life, something comes along to fuck it up? I should have known that someone like Kaiba would probably not want a lowlife like me… He probably just wanted someone to fuck with for a bit.
Kaiba…
"Hey." A low voice said. I gasped into my knees and felt my whole body tense. That voice it's-
"OHMYGODIT'SYOU! IT'SACTUALLYYOU!" Malik screamed from beside me. My head jerked up painfully and I saw him completely mesmerized as he stared up at the brunette stood over us. I glanced up at Kaiba's face and quickly looked straight ahead of me.
"What? No hello." He mused as he walked into my line of vision. Now I was stuck staring at his legs. Damn, why did his legs have to look so good right now? I made a hum noise in recognition; I know that if I talk then I might let something out that I should keep a lid on.
"You okay?" He asked with his usual uncaring voice. "I haven't seen you for almost a week now." I tried to not listen. Instead I tried to focus on the sound of a dog that was barking somewhere else in the park. It was one of those really annoying barks that go through you, but it was better than listening to him.
"Ryou?" I was brought out of my slight daydream and I jumped when I realised that Kaiba was knelt down now and his face was level with mine.
"Yea." I mumbled into my knees. Ugh, why was this guy so persistent.
"You sure? You're eyes look all puffy." Shit. I mentally kicked myself and rubbed my eyes.
"It's nothing. Just hay fever." Kaiba quirked an eyebrow; he sighed heavily and stood up again.
"Well I'm going for a coffee. You can come if your hay fever isn't too bad." Ok so hay fever eyes were the oldest lie in the book but whatever. I sighed heavily. As crappy as I felt, and as much as I wanted to just tell him to fuck off, I had to go. If I didn't go now then I probably wouldn't ever see him again… and I've really wanted to see him. He helped me to my feet and I glanced at Malik. He was still dazed by the looks of it; so I stuck a post-it note to his forehead telling him where I'd gone. You'll be surprised how long he could stay like that even after Kaiba has left.
The walk to whichever coffee shop we were going to was an awkward one. Kaiba kept asking me random questions like how I'd been and what I'd been up to. Of course I lied about them or just shrugged it off and said, "Okay."
I sat fidgeting in the booth with a hot chocolate in front of me on the table. It smelt really nice, and this place looked pretty expensive, but I couldn't bring myself to drink it. Kaiba was sipping on a coffee and has been staring out the window for a while now, glancing every so often at me. This was more awkward than the walk here. Damn why is this so difficult? I just want to ask him and get it over with, but I'm sure that if I do then he'll tell me something I don't like. Oh but I could be here forever if I don't just spit it out! What have I got to lose? Well… just the man I love, my dignity, my self-esteem… yes, quite a bit. Although, if I do ask and it's actually some big misunderstanding then I'll feel bad for being so upset. Maybe Malik was right the first time? Maybe this is all just some big misunderstanding! It might not have even been him, after all I didn't really look that hard, and it was kind of shadowy and it could have just been someone who looks a lot like him! Yea, I should just ask now and it will have all been some silly mistake and everything will be okay!
"Kaiba-" I began, but he talked over me.
"I'm sorry." He said forcefully. He still didn't look at me and I just stared at him, unsure. "I should have told you earlier. I'm…"
Oh God, no…
A/N: Waha I did it! I didn't get side tracked! I ahd planned to carry this bit on a little longer but this seems like a good cliff hanger and I think 5 pages is enough… hopefully.