A/N: Wow I never thought I'd get to a part 5… serious I only expected to write a couple of chapters for this fic, and now I've been scared into writing part 5 straight away from a review… you seemed very desperate to see what Kaiba says. So here you go.
How? How could this be true? K-Kaiba… he can't be… he just can't! Why would this happen to me?! I can't believe it! How could he do this to me…?
I was frozen. My fingers gripped onto the seat and my jaw was clenched tight. It can't be. I replayed the words he had said, over and over again; each time more slowly, louder and more painfully.
"I'm married."
A jolt of terror struck through me when he spoke those words, and I couldn't bring myself to recognise them. I stared straight at him as his eyes watched me warily. I can't even imagine what my expression must have been at that moment: terrified? Painful? Angry? I don't know how I even felt there were too many emotions swarming around me; and they revealed themselves without my control.
"Married?" I murmured. He nodded solemnly.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner." He heaved a sigh. "But at least now you know and you can begin to realise my circumstances." I just continued to stare blankly ahead, not really taking in what was being said. The words still replaying in my mind and constricting my heart. I'm married…
"But that doesn't mean-"
"What?" I butted in, my fingernails now digging deeply into the material of the seat. "It doesn't mean what? That we can't still be together!" I cried. Kaiba jumped slightly at me outburst and people nearby began to look awkwardly in my direction. "So what? You expect me to just swallow this crap and move on? You expect me to totally ignore the fact that you're fucking married?" I stood up. I could feel myself burning up, and the anger had finally become too much for me to withstand.
"Ryou, please! Sit down!" Kaiba glanced at the people watching me.
"No! I won't fucking sit down until you explain to me what the fuck is going on! I mean… what… why didn't you say? If you damn well knew how I felt then why didn't you say?" My vision became misted with tears, and the strength of my anger began to dwindle. "And why… why did you make me think…" I had to stop for a moment as my voice broke and the tears streamed from my eyes. "Why did you make me think you love me?" I stared at him now, eyes watery, face a mess and I'm pretty sure the rest of me looked a mess too. Kaiba's expression had been blank for a while now and still was as I stood there shaking. I sighed and stood up. I looked at him helplessly as he walked out from the booth and horror struck me as I thought he was about to leave me; but instead, he grabbed my arm and led me out of the coffee shop, giving a small apology to the staff who didn't look very happy about the disturbance. Once we had walked a couple of meters I pulled my arm from his grip and walked silently next to him. I could see the hot air of my breath blowing from my mouth and hitting me in the face. I don't know how far we walked, or where we were walking until he finally spoke, but from what I could see, we had ended up back in the park.
"You're such a pain." He mumbled. I looked up at him through puffy eyes.
"What?!" I yelled.
"You heard me." He looked down at me sternly and pierced me with his bright blue eyes. "You didn't have to make such a scene."
"Well then why the hell did you tell me there? You should have known I'd be upset." Kaiba sighed in aggravation and looked at me in a way I couldn't place the emotion of… was he sad? Or was he angry with me?
"You never let me finish explaining." He muttered.
"What's to explain?" I said; I'd intended to sound bitter but I was too exhausted. I leaned again a nearby tree and bowed my head so my bangs covered my eyes. "You're married. So you don't want anything to do with me…" Kaiba stepped closer and placed a hand on my shoulder.
"That's not true." My head shot up and I looked at him, unsure by what he meant.
"W-what?" I stammered, trying to suppress an awkward smile. "So you want to cheat on your wife? I doubt she'd like that." Kaiba stared and blinked at me.
"What makes you think that?" He seemed to laugh slightly as he spoke. "Like I said you never let me finish explaining." He sighed and stood beside me. "We may be married… but it's not exactly a marriage." I looked up at him in confusion.
"Eh?" Was all I could say. He chuckled lightly and smiled… which was really weird because Kaiba very rarely smiles!
"Look I'm trying to tell you that I'd rather be with you." He said bluntly.
"But, what about your wife? Won't you be ruining your relationship?" Kaiba laughed again.
"What's this now, you're beginning to act like you want me to stay with her?" I blanked. Why was I saying this? Kaiba is mine bitch! "Well I never said that we were happily married."
"Oh…" I looked at the ground and felt as the cold breeze shot through me. Damn it was really cold at night. I shivered slightly. There was another block of silence as I took in what had been said: so Kaiba was married, but he didn't like his wife?
"So… if you don't like her so much… then why did you marry her?" I asked awkwardly, trying to pick my words carefully so as not to offend him. Kaiba shrugged and I looked up at him. He was staring up into the sky and I could see the stars reflect in the pools of his eyes.
"I guess it was mostly a cover-up." He muttered.
"Cover-up?"
"Well it's not like I'm really gay or anything… it's just… I was told that a marriage would be good for my career as a romance novelist. After all, what does a single guy who lives all alone know about romance?" I continued to watch him as he gazed heavenward. I felt like this was something I should listen to… like it was something he'd never told anyone else. He continued after a while, obviously realising I wasn't going to comment. "So I just kind of met her… we seemed to get on well. Take note of the word 'seemed'." He added with a chuckle. "But a year or so passed after we got married and we basically hated each other, except she refuses to have a divorce. She says it's because of her dignity. More like the fact that she doesn't want anyone else getting my money." He sighed in aggravation and looked down at me. Even with his intense eyes on me, I didn't look away; I just couldn't.
His brow furrowed as he looked at me.
"You look a mess." He muttered. I was about to yell back when his hand touched my cheek and all I could do was stare blankly up at him. The coolness off his skin chilled me and I stood there helplessly as he moved closer, and the cold skin of his lips chilled me even more. I felt my eyelids growing heavier as he held me gently and then he kissed my eyelids. It startled me as I hadn't expected it and was just about to open my eyes again, but I felt as though his kisses were clearing away my tears. Once he pulled away, I open my eyes slowly and stared up at him. He smiled a little:
"You don't need to cry anymore." He whispered and I felt my whole body freeze as he kissed me again. The wind cut through me and my body began to shiver as I leaned into Kaiba's body, his warmth surrounding me and taking me over.
I lay on my back, the soft bed sheets rubbing against my skin as Kaiba kissed me, trailing his fingers down my sides. I could feel the blush coming to my face as every touch filled me with loving warmth that I'd missed all this time. He slowly began to leave soft kisses down my chest and my breathing began to heave as my nerves were getting the better of me.
"Kaiba." I breathed, but he continued to tickle my skin with kisses. Although, he soon brought his face level with mine and looked at me with a concerned look on his face. I stared back blankly, unable to ignore the sweet feeling of his breath hitting my bare skin.
"Ryou…" He breathed. "Do you want this?" He asked. I was taken aback at first, wondering in my dazed state what he was talking about. I soon nodded and smiled, glad that he was considerate to ask.
He kissed me again as he began to push inside me. A muffled cry forced its way from me as pain shot up my back, but I held tightly onto Kaiba and pushed through it. It wasn't too long before the pain passed and he continued to slowly move in and out of me. I held onto him the whole time as his body engulfed my small frame.
Wave after wave of ecstasy washed over me as Kaiba began to speed up his movements, and I could feel myself getting closer. He pulled away slightly and left me lying on my back as his hands gripped my waste and he helped my movements as my hips move about with his thrusts. All I could do was cling onto the sheets and try to stop myself from going insane. My mind was just a blank fuzz and I vaguely thought about how I had missed Kaiba so much. How could I be allowed to feel so wonderful right now? Surely I didn't deserve it…
Suddenly my muscles tensed painfully as I could feel myself about to climax, and Kaiba firmly wrapped his hand around my arousal. With every cell in my body aching for that feeling, I dragged myself up and clung desperately to Kaiba, and had to adjust myself so that I was moving up and down.
"Ryou…" He breathed heavily into my neck and I let my fingers run through his matted brown hair. This was it, I could feel myself about to lose control and I probably would if this didn't end soon. A final jolt ran through my body and I came. I struggled to keep myself up as Kaiba had to continue his thrusts a while longer before he finally came inside me. It was a strange feeling as it was filled with the warm damp. I shakily lay back and Kaiba landed on top of me. I don't know how long we were there for, trying to catch our breath; but even just lying here like this felt wonderful. After a while, Kaiba lifted himself up and looked at me. I just smiled sleepily as I could barely keep my eyes open any longer. I felt hot lips press against mine, and we kissed for a while. This truly felt like pure bliss. Even in my tired state, I was loving every feeling that swarmed my body.
"I love you." Kaiba whispered heavily as he lay beside me. I pulled myself into his chest and snuggled into him so that his heat surrounded me.
"I love you too." I whispered back.
I guess that wonderful feeling must have lasted longer than I thought it would, as even after a few days I was still feeling light headed and ecstatic. Seeing as I'd left Malik in a daze the last time we hung out, I decided I owed it to him to spend some time with him, seeing as he's my best friend and all.
"So what happened to you the other day?" He asked randomly. I was kind of surprised he hadn't asked that the minute I called him to ask if he wanted to hang out.
"Ah, well… yea sorry about that. Kaiba ended up taking me somewhere to tell me something." I said awkwardly as we strolled down the high street. Malik was happily eating an ice cream as we did so and took a few more licks before replying.
"Oh man I was so excited when he showed up." He said, grinning to himself. "I mean of course it was great for you 'cause you got to see him and all; but I've been a fan of his for a couple of years now and the more I read his stuff the more and more I wished that I could meet him. You know, to meet a guy who can write romance novels like that… he must be really sweet to you." I rubbed the back of my head awkwardly. Oh Malik if only you knew…
"He is… I guess." I stammered.
"You guess?"
"Well, he can be really sweet sometimes… but a lot of the time he either acts like he's totally blank and doesn't care, or he like annoying me sometimes." My brow furrowed. He was never really horrible but he did tease me a lot and it gets really embarrassing!
"Well of course he'd tease you a bit. You blush so easily when you get annoyed and it looks kind of cute." He chirped and I just blinked at him.
"Wha?" He just giggled in reply and we subconsciously walked into the manga shop, as I always dragged him in there anyways.
I looked through a couple of series that I was reading right now, but I could never decide which ones to buy. Maybe I should get a job… then I can buy a lot more at a time than I do now. In the end I just got a couple of Furuba books.
"I don't see why you buy those crappy things." Malik said as we left the shop. I playfully slapped him around the back of the head as we started for the park (our usual get away now).
"They aren't crap, and I like the artwork as well as the story."
"Yea but…" Malik quickly dipped his hand into my bag and pulled one of them out.
"Hey!" I yelled as he continued to talk.
"You read them and it only takes... what an hour tops. Then you never read them again. It's really a waste of money! Why not rent them from the library?" I snatched the book back and placed it carefully inside my postal-bag.
"One, I don't read them only once; and two, the library's selection sucks! Not to mention the fact that they've all been handled by snot nosed kids who dropped food on them and stuff." Malik snorted.
"Snot nosed kids. That's exactly who reads those things Ry-Ry."
"Whatever. I like what I like so there!" I said, quoting the name of one my favourite BL animes (and yes, if you were wondering, I am a nerd haha).
Once we arrived at the park, we just sat around on the grass. There wasn't exactly a lot to do here unless you like just sitting around and talking, which Malik and I did a lot.
"So, what happened with you can Kaiba anyway?" He said while chewing on a piece of grass.
"Ugh, don't do that! A dog my have crapped on it." I said, causing Malik to spit it out as I continued. "And we're doing pretty good if I do say so myself." I beamed.
"But what about that woman he was with when we saw him?" I stared at Malik blankly for a moment then said,
"You know what? I totally forgot about that." I laughed.
"What? So for all you know he might be cheating on you!" Malik yelled. I laughed again and smiled.
"Don't worry Malik. I may not know exactly what he was doing but he told me… you see… well…" I probably shouldn't tell Malik this: he'll go nuts! Then again if I don't and he found out some other way then he'll kill me. "He's married." I said simply.
"WHAT?" Malik screamed. I sweat-dropped, knowing that people were starting to look. "Ryou that's insane! How can you still be with him when he's doing something so disgusting?" I blinked.
"Disgusting?" He nodded. "It's not really that big of a deal Mal." I waved my hand dismissingly. "He told me that they, he and his wife that is, pretty much hate each other and they would be divorced only she's a greedy bitch and won't sign the paper."
"Ryou, you're not seriously buying this bullshit are you?" He asked. Somehow the usual cheeriness in his voice and attitude had vanished, and it was when Malik got like this that I got scared.
"Malik… calm down it's-"
"Don't be an idiot Ryou; of course it's a big deal. This guys got a wife and he's playing around with you!" A lump grew in my throat. No! I've already been through all this and I know Kaiba's feelings for me are real! I shouldn't start doubting him again. "If he really hates this woman then he can obviously get a divorce without her having to agree with it. There are ways; and sure he may be really sweet and can sweep you off your feet – when it suits him – but you have to wise up Ry." He looked at me sternly. "If you insist on staying with him, then at least confront him about that woman he was kissing the other day, and don't fucking let him always have his way." I stared at him, unsure why Malik suddenly seemed so upset about this… if I'm happy with it then surely isn't that what counts? He sighed and got to his feet. "I have to go. I'll talk to you later." He mumbled as he walked away and left me sat on the grass in shock.
"Um… Kaiba." I mumbled awkwardly from the doorway, as Kaiba sat typing away on his laptop.
"Hm?" He hummed. I stepped over to the sofa and sat beside him, glancing curiously at the monitor: just the usual paragraphs of writing that I couldn't be bothered to read, even if he had written them.
"It's… it's about the other day." I twiddled my fingers, and he continued to type away, eyes never leaving the screen. "Well… y-you probably didn't know this but I saw you in the shopping centre a while ago… and it's just… you were with someone and you…"
"Shopping centre?" Kaiba mumbled as he looked up and stared randomly as he scratched his head. "I haven't been to the shopping centre for about a month now." I blinked. I released a huge sigh of relief. So it wasn't him. I knew it was probably just a misunderstanding or something. He glanced over at me as O sat there smiling stupidly to myself.
"Buy anything good?" He asked. I look at him; he usually isn't interested in what I've been doing, but I he seems to really be trying. I smiled and pulled the manga books from my bag.
"I got these." I said, handing them over. He looked at me strangely.
"You read?" He asked, teasingly.
"Sure I do! Just because I find romance boring doesn't mean I don't read at all." He flipped through the pages and smirked.
"Aren't you a little old for picture books?" I punched his arm lightly.
"It's manga you ignoramus. I read them and look at the art work."
"Whatever." He said, carelessly tossing the book onto the coffee table.
"Ah! What are you doing?" I yelled, grabbing the book and making sure the pages weren't bent or anything.
"Try reading a real book, kid." I was fuming now. Damn why did he always tease me like this?
"I read novels too. Just better ones than that drivel you write." I mocked. See, two could play at this gave.
"Drivel?" He seemed unhappy and frowned at me. Oh no! Now I felt bad.
"Ah I'm sorry Kai-" SLAM! My face collided with his palm as I went to hug him.
"If you think romance is 'drivel' then I won't bother trying to be romantic anymore." He put simply. Now I really regretted it.
"No Kaiba! Please, I'm sorry don't hate me!" I whimpered meekly. He sighed and pushed his hand down on my head.
"You're hopeless." I blinked for a moment, and then for no real reason, I just burst out laughing.
A/N: Wow 2 chapters in a day. But I've had a lot of free time today with only having two lessons this morning and nothing to do all day. I hope you appreciate this hehe I might not update for a while now. This is, every time I say I won't update, I ended updating. Reverse psychology on myself! MUFAFA!
Kaiba: I think she's finally list it.
Ryou: I wonder where Shuichi and Yuki went?
Kaiba: Ah they pissed off. We don't need those dorks in our story.
Ryou: but they weren;t even in the fic… we were just based on them… kinda, sorta… not really…
Baku'240: -Giggling and rocking in a corner- REVIEW!