Another chapter so soon? Yes. I find it as hard to believe as you do. I think the main reason is because the last chapter was basically a filler, BUT i do have the next two chapters or so written and I am extremely excited about that. Keep reading and review!

xoxo Jules

Chapter 21: "…and thrown it all away-"

Alex's POV: "Or maybe for a moment"

Alright, I'm done, just done. I can't lie to myself anymore, and I can't deny the feeling that have been trapped in my heart for so long. So that may sound a little too teen angst for me but I really don't know how else to describe it.

I have loved Luke Ward since the night that he climbed into my bedroom with a sprained wrist and a black eye. I have loved him since he stood up for me when I got braces, or how he was there to block my fall after everything went down with Gabe. I love him because he always loved me. He was always there, I could make mistake after mistake and that was okay with him. He didn't expect me to be perfect.

My mind rambled on and on as we hopped aboard the boat.

"Ready?" Seth asked as he untied the rope from the dock.

"All clear." Luke called back as he took hold of one of the sail.

"Alright." Seth then used whatever leg strength he could muster to push us away from the dock.

Summer and I laid out on the deck in our bathing suits sun bathing. It must have fallen asleep because before I knew it there was a cold breeze that overtook me. When my eyes fluttered open they met an angry black sky.

"What's going on?" I asked as I flew to my feet

"It seems we headed a little off course and right into a storm, but it's okay, I radioed in to our dock, with the coordinates that I have here the coast guard says that we should only be about three miles from shore." Seth explained

I looked around at the unfamiliar area.

"What shore?" I asked trying to remain calm

"Somewhere called North Costal." Luke informed me as rain began to drizzle down on our heads.

"Here!" Seth said tossing us life vests as we rushed around deck trying to secure the sails.

Everything from there on out was a blur. I remember slipping on the deck and falling forward. I saw blood and there was a throbbing pain in my knee, that was it. When I awoke I was surrounded by white walls.

"Hey there." A soft voice said from beside me

"Luke." I whispered. My voice was weak and strained.

"You gave us a scare squirt."

My body tingled as Luke wiped hair out of my eyes.

"What happened?" I asked trying to remember but coming up empty.

"You took a little spill on our way into shore. It seems that you cracked your knee cap."

My mind was reeling as I suddenly turned my head towards the foot of the bed to see my leg in a big cast and a sling.

"They had to put pins in your knee to stabilize it but everything should be okay. You parents are on the way."

It was so much information to take in at once, but Lukes soft smile eased whatever worries that I had.

"I've been thinking about something for awhile."

"Oh yeah?" I asked as I met his blue eyes with my own

"I was thinking that maybe you want to go out and grab dinner or something." He smiled nervously

Was he asking me out? No. That is my best friend. There is no way that he could think of me that way, right?

"We grab dinner all of the time."

Luke then stood up, shoving his hands in his pockets.

"Uh, yeah, well okay then, I'm going to get some coffee."

ALEX, what the hell are you thinking? Isn't this what you have been waiting for since like ever! Luke is in front of you, he wants you, you want him so stop being such an idiot!

"Luke!" I called from my bed before he reached the door. He turned silently.

"I would love to grab a bite with you. I mean as soon as these pins are out of my knee or something."

My voice was quivering with nervousness. Would this change things between us? The last thing that either of us need is a complicated relationship. But then Lukes face lit up;

"Yeah, I would love that." He smiled with the excitement of a small child

"Well then it's a date." I said gaining more confidence.

Seths POV: "He forgot who he was"

I watched as Summer flirted with one of the doctors at the coffee machine. He reached towards her chest and fiddled with the locket that lay there. She smiled a girlish smile back up at him before turning on her heels heading back over to me.

"Here!" She said beaming as she handed me my hot chocolate. I was never very much of a coffee guy.

When she smiled at me it almost turned my stomach. I actually had thought that I had a chance with this girl but she wants nothing to do with me. Why should she? I'm not hot, and I don't have any money and that's what matters to girls like her right?

I took the cup from her hand without looking at her.

"Is everything okay Seth?" She asked me

She sounded worried but I bet it is only because she felt sorry for me.

"I'm fine." I said as I turned away from her.

"Seth-"

She reached up trying to touch my shoulder. I backed away from her quickly.

"What is going on!"

I could see hurt flash in her eyes.

"Nothing, you don't have to worry about me anymore. You can go back to letting that doctor fondle you." I said coldly.

"Oh, do you think that was what that was!" She began to laugh. When my expression didn't change her face changed. "Is that really what you think of me Seth? Am I just a girl that cant live without getting into guys pants. You think of me as a whore Seth? Well than fuck you." She screamed

"Well your bedroom has always been like a fucking revolving door Summer! What am I supposed to think? You like old men that can give you all of the attention and all of their money so long as their wives aren't around right then."

The words flew out of my mouth never once coming in contact with my brain. Almost immediately I regretted everything that I had said.

"Fuck you." Summer whispered in the voice of a hurt child as she fled the emergency room into the storm.

Rain beat down on our heads and made the pavement slick. The sky was angry and booming above us. It seemed in that moment that there would be no end to this darkness.

"Stop following me!" Summer yelled as she spun around.

"Summer, I'm sorry!"

"No Seth, I'm sorry! I am sorry that I ever thought that you were any different. I am sorry that I thought that you cared. You made me feel like I was more than a worthless slut that never hesitated to go spread eagle for any John! So fucking what I have a past Seth, we all do! Maybe my parents never cared about me, and I fucked my first guy at age six and countless others for as long as I can remember. I'm a whore Seth, a good for nothing whore, stop wasting your time with me!"

"I'm sorry Summer, I am so sorry. I didn't mean those things that I said. You are an amazing intelligent girl with endless potential. You're not a whore, those were things that your mother made you do and she should have known better, it's her fault."

My heart wrenched as Summer broke down into tears.

"Then how come they hold it against me? It's all people see when they look at me!" She furiously wiped strands of soaked dark hair away from her face.

"No it's not!" I took one more step towards her and pulled her into my arms "I swear it's not."

And then I did it, I leaned in and I kissed her.

Freedom is taking a leap. You have to let go of your past or you will never have a future. Life is more than pain, life is love, forgiveness, and growth.

I recently have developed this attachmemt to Summer's character which is more that convienent in the wake of next season... but anyway we dont talk about that. I hope this is what you guys had wanted so please review! I listen

xoxo Jules