As soon as Dean had entered his hotel room he fell hard on the floor recklessly throwing his luggage away. He lied down on the floor breathing hard as the images of his action with Seth earlier in the night flashed in his brain.

Dean had almost gone over the edge and given into Seth unaware of the fact that his actions could have serious repercussions. Roman's voice had jolted him out of his act, and just the sound of that pure love, dedication and trust which was oozing out of the Samoan man's voice had forced Dean to stop his advances.

It was killing him from inside that in that lustful moment with Seth he hadn't even forgotten about his man who had done nothing wrong other than to love him with all of his heart & soul. Dean's body had started to shake in anxiety, fear, and shame as he felt dizzy with overblown emotions.

His mind was running erratic with various questions and his heart was bursting with various feelings.

Seth loved him and wanted him back.

Roman loved him and was with him.

He loved Roman too, but then he'd never really forgotten bout Seth.

What was he supposed to do?

He couldn't push Seth back after he begged him for forgiveness because it was Seth. The same man that was the first person in his life to pull him outta his misery and love him.

Seth was the ray of light in his dark, depressing moments that had followed him all of his life since his traumatic childhood. The younger man was the sole reason for Dean's sanity during those struggling and very frustrating FCW developmental days.

Dean had almost given up and was beyond pissed for not even getting a proper spot on the show, but Seth never stopped encouraging him. Seth had not only bought happiness into his professional life, but he'd even made his personal life colorful with his charming presence.

Dean couldn't stop but think how happy he was with Seth, and how adorable they were together.

"You always wanna watch that movie again? Let's watch something else." Dean plopped himself on the couch with a slow thud.

"It's our off day and I wanna watch 'The Dark knight' not some shitty action movie." Seth gabbed the bowl of popcorn after playing the DVD in the player.

"You remember it line by line baby."

"And so do you of that trashy crime flick, Point Break."

"Ugh, whatever let's watch it." Dean gave up on their argument just like always as Seth was one stubborn man. Every single time Dean was the one who had to surrender to Seth's child like wishes.

Their relationship mostly wasn't about what they both wanted, but it was more bout what Seth wants. Fair to say that Seth held the keys to their relationship.

"Baby." Seth moved to sit on Dean's lap while Dean quickly wrapped his arms around his waist. "You wanna know why I watch this movie so many times."

"Why?" Dean lazily asked chomping away at the popcorns that Seth was placing in his mouth one after the other.

"Because I love the Joker, and he reminds me of you." Seth crooked his neck while innocently battling his eyelashes at his boyfriend.

"But, babe I'm nothing like him"

"No, you two are similar. I read comic books not you."

Dean sighed softly before a smile appeared on his face. "So correct me if I'm wrong. Isn't Harley Quinn the Joker's main squeeze or something?"

"Oh! You remember babe, yeah she is." Seth spoke excitedly.

Dean slowly caressed Seth's cheeks. "So, if I'm the Joker then are you my Harley Quinn."

Seth's nose instantly flared in slight anger. "Shut up, I'm not a girl."

"But, you're more demanding and fashion crazy than any girl I know."

"I hate you."

"Nah, you love me."

"Yes, I love you." Seth nodded slowly before he closed the small gap between his & Dean's lips. They shared a soft kiss with lips gliding & brushing over each other's in a uniform motion.

Seth pulled out of the kiss first and moved to place another soft kiss to Dean's cheek. "Are you gonna watch the movie or not?" Dean asked him.

"I was thinking something."

"What?"

"Jimmy Jacob's gonna be organizing Halloween party next week." Seth pecked Dean's lips once more. "Why don't you and I go as Joker & Harley Quinn?"

"Really? You're gonna dress up like a girl?" Dean laughed a bit and Seth punched his arm.

"I won't be the only one. Jimmy's dressing up as Marilyn Monroe himself."

"I don't feel like dressing up."

"You have too or else no blow jobs."

"Alright!"

"What?" Seth squealed with shock.

"I mean we'll go together, okay."

"Aww...love you baby." Seth quickly placed the popcorn on the table to straddle Dean's lap kissing him feverishly.

Such sweet memories never died in Dean's heart and remembering them only made him scream loudly. He cursed as he started to shake and writhe with anger.

When Seth had broken his heart and chosen business and success over Dean's love then there was nothing that could've pulled the Ohioan back from the dark place that he'd got lost to.

Dean had practically killed himself by over thinking about any mistake or any goddamn thing that may have pushed Seth away from him.

Yet nothing came to his mind.

Seth brutal declaration of loving the success & fame more than his love although bought Dean some comfort but it cut him even deeper. Here, Dean was relieved of not being the reason for Seth's betrayal, but then he realized it soon that he was once again alone and thrown out by someone whom he'd considered to be his life.

Seth had pathetically followed suit to the long list of heartbreaks & betrayals that Dean had over the years from his family to his friends to anyone whom he'd ever trusted in the past.

Dean was troubled, hurt and broken after the break up, and there was no one to give him comfort and to tell him that it would be alright. Other than a man that he'd started to trust and depend on since the beginning of the shield group, Roman Reigns.

Roman was that beam of hope that came into his life pulling Dean back on the track and rescuing him from his terrible situation. The Samoan man was always close to Dean and had gladly welcomed Dean in his family with open arms, and even his family had given Dean every inch of love and care that the poor guy rightfully deserved.

Dean always trusted Roman, and although they bickered like crazies yet by the end of the night somehow they found a way back to each other by hugging it out. Their friendship and bond was strong during the shield days, but after the group had imploded their bond only became stronger than ever.

Roman had not only supported Dean throughout the hard times, but he had even loved him like his own. Whenever Dean screamed in fear and pain in middle of the night from his horrible nightmares, then Roman without any second thoughts would get up from his bed to hug & comfort the other man.

Roman would even sleep in the same bed for just comforting the Ohioan all night long whispering sweet, caring and loving words. Dean had become habituated to fall asleep in Samoan man's strong arms, and slowly week after week feelings had started to rejuvenate in Dean's heart for his best friend.

How could he resist Roman? A man that cared about him more than anyone else had ever done in his life. His affection so pure with no bad intentions whatsoever had caused Dean to fall for him in a just a short amount of time.

Roman on the other hand had already mentioned Dean on more than one occasion that he loved him. After Dean's break up whenever Roman cradled Dean's head in his lap or held him tightly to make the Ohioan feel better he whispered, "I love you" to him.

Dean although at that time considered Roman's proclamation as an act of sweet gesture, and nothing else.

It wasn't until one night when Roman was helping Dean by applying an ointment to his banged up shoulder that Dean actually gave into his feelings.

"What are ya looking at?" Roman asked Dean while rubbing at his injured left shoulder.

"You." Dean blurted out.

Roman's eyes instantly roamed from his shoulder to lock with Dean's eyes now. They kept staring at each other, and in that moment their silence conveyed their feelings for each other.

"Uh, I hate when they force you to wear those shoulder tapes." Roman uttered trying to break his eye contact with Dean.

Dean just stared at him again with a small smile on his face. "Yeah me too." He got up from his lying position on his bed to now sit upright and move closer to Roman's face. "Umm, Roman can I ask you something?"

"Yeah, sure." Roman answered without looking at him.

"Do you really mean it when you say that you love me?"

Dean's question made Roman's heart beat to increase at a dangerous level. He was at a loss of words as so many emotions had started to creep inside his heart.

Dean noticed the silence and that deep thoughtful look on Roman's face. Right away a nasty thought crossed in his mind. What a stupid man you're Dean? Of course the man was just trying to be courteous and caring. He actually doesn't love you, he only feels sad for a pathetic, miserable scumbag like you.

"I love you Dean."

"Huh?"

Dean was caught off guard by Roman's statement and Roman just held Dean's hands in his own repeating his words. "I love you Dean, and I mean it with all my heart."

Dean's heart was glowing from Roman's words and without a second thought he pulled the bigger man by his neck to lock their lips together. Roman was surprised by the sudden kiss, but he quickly reciprocated it with just as much love and passion that he could muster.

The kiss didn't last too long but the message was conveyed that even though Dean was struggling in is life right now, but he couldn't help but to fall for the guy who literally saved his life.

Dean slowly opened his eyes to stare at those enticing grey eyes of his friend. "I'm still hurt Roman."

"I understand Dean." Roman interrupted him. "You don't have to say anything that makes you uncomfortable."

"Shush." Dean quickly placed his index finger on top of his lips to shut him up. "I'm not uncomfortable. I wasn't sure that you really loved me or was just being a darling and taking care of me."

"I mean it Dean. I care bout you a lot which is the truth but so is this that I love you."

"Really? Am I dreaming?"

"No, you're not."

"Roman."

"Yes."

Dean took a deep breath inside as he still couldn't believe it to be true that someone as beautiful and as precious as Roman loved him. "I..." Dean watched as Roman's brow rose with shock and his eyes wildly focused on him. "I love you Roman."

Roman blinked at Dean with wide eyes as if he couldn't believe his ears. "Say it again."

It wasn't a commanding tone of Roman but a pleading one. "I love you Roman. You make me feel happy bout myself. You actually bought me back to life." A single tear rolled down Dean's cheek and Roman instantly brushed it off with his thumb.

"You can trust me Dean, I'll never hurt you. I promise babyboy."

Dean clutched at Roman's hand tightly. "Even I promise to never hurt you."

Dean groaned hard at the memory, and he felt as if the room had shrunken or something. He started to feel really uncomfortable and his heart beat sped up as he moved to the night stand to grab the bottle of water. He quickly opened it up while drinking half out it and then pouring the rest it on top of his head in order to calm a bit down.

His eyes instantly met with the large mirror on the opposite wall, and Dean felt nothing but ashamed of his own reflection. He angrily threw the flower pot from night stand at the mirror roughly breaking it down. A loud sound of shattered glass echoed in the empty room, and Dean cried with pain and hate for himself.

Why was this happening to him? How could he break Roman's promise? What about Seth's feelings?

He was losing his mind as he felt like calling his man, his boyfriend Roman to help him out, but he couldn't. How could he? After now he almost cheated on him. He blamed himself for everything happening in his life, and mumbled to himself in pure disgust.

"I'm a scumbag and that's why shit always happens to me. I don't deserve anybody."

He started to walk but felt wobbly so he fell down on the ground sobbing incoherently. And, accidentally the palm of his left hand met with a shattered glass piece.

Dean didn't even felt the pain up until he realized that he was bleeding profusely. He neglected the pain, blood and everything as his mind was still preoccupied with Seth & Roman's thoughts. Nobody could ever understand how difficult it was for Dean to reject Seth who once gave him life. And, how goddamn impossible it was for him to ignore Roman that saved his life.

His past was calling him back while his present was just slipping away from him.

He was in a very complicated dilemma.