Last week was troublesome for Dean as he barely spoke with Roman on phone, and his mind kept wandering to Roman not trusting him anymore. If there was one thing that burnt Dean's heart more than any shade or dirt thrown at him, then it was mistrust.
Dean for his entire life had been betrayed, questioned, hated and downright thrown away just because of his trust issues. The trust issues that had occurred due to his disturbing childhood, dishonest friends, and lovers.
He'd never trusted anybody up until Seth came along, but then his abrupt betrayal had shattered his trust into million pieces. And, therefore Roman not trusting him gave him a sign that soon his boyfriend would be pushing him out of his life.
He couldn't stop from thinking that it was only a matter of time when Roman too would throw him away simply because the man didn't trust him anymore.
But why?
He questioned himself as to what caused Roman to doubt him. Did he somehow found about his unfortunate incidents with Seth? Or simply he just not loved him anymore?
Dean instantly felt horrified over both the conclusions. It was bad if Roman was to find out bout Dean's secret, but it was worse if he was just over him. He now felt guiltier than ever for hiding those incidents from Roman, and if he could then he would just explain it all to his lover, but it seemed as if time didn't favour him at all.
This week was busiest for him as directly after filming Raw & Smackdown he had almost the entire week of house shows in Canada with huge Hell in a Cell pay per view coming up on next Sunday. It was safe to say that Dean's personal life was put on hold due to his professional life.
On this Monday Dean had proven his worth by winning the contact match against John Cena, and on Tuesday on Smackdown he'd made an emphatic statement of ripping Seth's face off in their match at Hell in the cell pumping the entire wwe universe.
It felt as if Dean's professional life was riding on epic highs while his personal life was suffering a major downfall.
It was half past two in the middle of the night and Dean had finally landed at his apartment in Vegas. He was tired from filming Smackdown that night and since tomorrow was the only day that he'd gotten off this entire weekend, so he took a quick shower in order to sleep early.
Dean was only in his black track pants while he toweled the rest of his wet body and hair when he heard his door bell ring. He was surprised as nobody had ever visited him this late in night, but without much thoughts he made his way over to the living room in order to unlock the door.
As soon as he opened the door his eyes went as wide as it could go because none other than his former lover Seth was standing in his doorway. He eyed him with scrutiny while Seth simply smiled at him.
It didn't go unnoticed by Dean that Seth looked more draper than ever. Seth was sporting his favorite brand Glamour kills pink & black t-shirt paired up with fine, black skinny jeans and black sneakers. His hair was left open and perfectly brushed separating his blonde streak from the black.
It seemed as if Seth had dressed up to charm his ex lover. Seth noticed Dean checking him out as he returned the favor by checking the Ohioan out. His mouth watered watching Dean shirtless which showcased his perfectly shaped pecs and well trimmed abs. Moreover, Seth's eyes got stuck to that absolutely flawless waistline over which the black tracks hung criminally low exposing his hip dents.
"Ahem..." Dean coughed trying to get his former lover's attention. "Why are you here?" He asked sternly.
Seth looked unimpressed with Dean's not so welcome question as he slyly smiled at him. "Aren't you gonna let me in first? We can't have a conversation on your doorway. You're neighbors might get up from their deep slumber."
Dean sighed hard but moved to allow Seth to enter in his living room.
"Just like it was four months back." Seth commented on Dean's living room being the same as he'd left.
"What do you wanna talk about?" Dean asked right off the bat ignoring Seth's comment. "I can't believe that you're here."
Seth sat on the arm seat of the couch staring at his ex lover while Dean leaned on the closed door facing him. "We need to talk bout everything that's been going on between us."
Dean held his hand up to stop him in the middle. "What's going on, huh? I don't care..."
"Please Dean just listen. Let me speak." Seth interrupted him, and Dean folded his arms in annoyance. "See for the last few weeks I've been trying to make you understand that I want you back. We're meant to be together, but you're just stubborn."
"I'm stubborn! What da fuck Seth? You left me, you broke my heart." Dean yelled at him with his face quickly turning red. "You pushed me away every single time I came begging to you. And, now you want me back, fuck off."
Seth accepted that Dean's anger was justified so he didn't lash back at him. "Shout at me Dean. Hate me, curse me and if you want then you can even slap me as many times as you want, but just don't do the same mistake that I did."
"What the hell do you mean by that?"
"I mean I did a stupid mistake of breaking up with you for some fame, but then after that I kept repeating my mistake by never taking you back." Seth paused. "You're doing the same by pushing me away now."
Dean banged his fist hard on the wall and turned his back against Seth while plastering his head over his forearm. "Please Seth, stop fucking with my mind. I'm with Roman, and he loves me I guess, and I just can't accept you back."
Seth stood up from his position to make his way over to Dean as he stood right behind him. "Baby, it's not about Roman. I wasn't there, so it's understandable that you got some feelings for the man that supported you, but that's not love." He placed both of his hands on Dean's shoulder to turn him around and face him. "You may think that it's love, but believe me I'm the only one for you."
"No Seth! Please, I can't break Roman's trust." Dean was hurt and quite frankly he felt lost in the moment. Roman his current boyfriend wasn't talking to him like he used to, and here Seth his former lover was calling him back. His mind felt as if it would explode right then & there. "Go away Seth, I can't decide right now. I'm..." His lips quivered as tears started to form. "I feel defeated. You're an asshole. You left me, why come back now?"
Seth could see the hurt and pain in Dean's eyes, and his own eyes started to water watching his lover break down. "I'm a no good asshole, you're right. I was stupid, I deserve your hate. But, I love you baby with all my heart."
"Don't say that Seth, it hurts man."
"Why? I'm the evil one. I hurt my baby, my love, my sweetheart. I deserve your hate."
Dean wiped his tears as the fresh ones formed. "Seth, I'm lost man. I can't do this."
Seth placed both his hand cupping Dean's face and stepping closer to him. "I'm so sorry baby. Forgive me. I missed you so much." He closed the gap between them kissing Dean softly on his lips. "I love you. I hurt you so bad, but please Dean we belong together."
Seth leaned into kiss Dean again, but he just moved his face away while pushing him off of him, and then walking to stand in the middle of the room. "Go away." He screamed in a broken voice. "I don't wanna see you ever again."
Dean was hurt, very deeply hurt because Seth wasn't some guy that he'd dated for three years. He was his first real friend, partner and a person who taught him three magical words, but now all those emotions were just dead to him.
"But, Dean..."
"Just fuck off Seth. Get out of my place, I don't care, just go. Leave me the fuck alone."
Seth could hear the hate oozing out of Dean's harsh voice, and all of sudden he felt disgusted from himself. He hated knowing how badly he'd hurt his lover, and he felt hurt watching Dean tear away right in front of him. He even felt disappointed in himself for not being able to get his man back.
He unlocked the door and immediately stormed right out of Dean's apartment. Dean slowly sank down on his couch with a dull thud with his mind racing a million times per second. A loud noise of bike revving passed through his ears, and Dean instantly got tensed as he ran towards his balcony to look down.
Seth had started his bike and rushed it out of Dean's apartment's outskirts before he could stop him. Dean was nervous and worried because Seth and bikes didn't mix. He was aware that Seth although was great car driver but at the same time he was a terrible bike rider.
Why the fuck would Seth hire a bike to visit me at my place? He thought and then he heard a loud banging sound, and it sounded as if a bike had run into a wall or something.
Without any second thoughts Dean ran outta of his apartment without even locking his door. The moment he stepped on the road he noticed Seth's bike crashed against a street pole while Seth's body lay bruised with bloody forehead on the ground.
Dean panicked and quickly ran towards Seth who was still conscious despite the accident. "Fuck, Jesus Seth!" He grabbed Seth holding him in his arms while cradling his head. "I'm gonna take you to hospital. Shit you're head's bleeding."
Seth noticed Dean and smiled softly at him. "You hate me baby. Let me die here, that's what I deserve for hurting you."
"Shush! Seth. You don't say that." Dean hugged him as tightly as he could. "I don't hate you baby. I could never. I'm gonna take you to the hospital now."
"No, take me home." Seth uttered softly.
Dean quickly carried him bridal style with Seth's arms instantly latching onto Dean's neck while holding him tightly. He made his way to his apartment and shut the door behind with the back of his foot before making his way to his bedroom.
Dean made Seth sit upright on his bed as he moved to grab the first aid kit from his bathroom. Seth winced when Dean applied antiseptic to clean up the not very deep cut on the corner of his forehead.
"Sorry baby. Just a bit more and it'll be alright." Dean tended Seth while trying to calm the injured man down.
"I'm stupid aren't I Dean? You probably hate me more for banging up my head."
"I told you that I don't hate you."
"But then you don't even love me."
"That's not true."
"What?" Seth looked up to meet Dean's face while Dean was busy placing the plaster on his forehead. "Do you still love me?" Dean remained quite as he motioned to leave but Seth quickly grabbed his arm. "I love you Dean and I'm sorry and..."
Seth couldn't finish his sentence as he's started to sob harder than ever. He knew he was wrong for throwing Dean away and then wanting him back, but his heart couldn't deny the fact that he still loved Dean. He couldn't see as always that sometimes it didn't matter what he wanted but it also mattered what his lover wanted.
He was like a bratty child that just wanted to fulfill his wishes, and so he was just pushing Dean to accept him back simply because his heart desired.
Dean felt bad, hurt and completely broken watching his innocent, childish definitely stupid lover cry. "You don't want me back. You hate me, I'm done." He even felt pity for the younger man. "My life's over!" Seth chanted dramatically trying to rope Dean into his words. "What am I gonna do? I love you...shit I'm trash for letting you go."
If Seth was stupid and cunning brat then Dean was foolish and sensitive man. Dean sat down on the bed caressing Seth's hair softly. "Stop crying Seth, please."
"Why? I don't feel well. What do you care?" Seth wiped his tears and breathed harder.
"I'll always care for you Seth."
"No, you don't."
"Yes, I do. And, yes I still love you."
Seth jumped in happiness and quickly straddled Dean's lap kissing him hard on his lips. But the kiss didn't last long as Dean quickly pulled out of it. "Listen to me first. I wasn't finished." Seth stared at him with wet eyes. "I still love you because you were everything to me once, but now the love that I feel for is just because of our sweet memories. And, I love Roman now. He's my man and he's given me happiness that I never knew about."
"No, you're wrong Dean." Seth kissed Dean softly. "You and I belong together. You're only with Roman because I left."
Dean shook his head in a clear no. "Now, you're just being stubborn."
"I'm not. You aren't understanding baby." Seth cupped Dean's face and placed soft kisses everywhere. "You feel our chemistry. This is everything. Come back to me baby. I'll love you more than Roman. I'll do whatever you'll say. I'm sorry. I beg you please baby. I can't live without you." Seth was just adamant with his non-stop words as he watched Dean still look unfazed by it. "Dean I can't breathe baby! Ohhh..."
Seth faked fainting as he wanted to try every tactic in his book to get the love of his life back. Dean the oblivious one just grabbed Seth's mouth performing CPR quickly blowing air in his mouth while still holding him in arms. "Come on Seth, please breathe."
After a few deep air blows when Dean's lips wrapped around Seth's mouth then Seth harshly grabbed at Dean's neck to indulge him into a very hot open mouth kiss. Dean got lost in the kiss as Seth maneuvered his tongue inside his mouth while deepening their kiss.
They kissed each other with all the emotions that they could muster and Seth moaned into the kiss while allowing Dean's tongue to dance with his own. Seth wanted to convey his love, trust and every bit of sentiment that he felt for Dean.
To say Seth's kiss did the trick won't be wrong as Dean's heart melted with him kissing Seth back with much fervor and meaning. Seth loved the sweet taste of Dean's mouth and that irresistible tongue gliding in & out of his mouth. He sure had missed it.
Dean still couldn't believe that Seth was here in his apartment kissing him and telling him how much he loved him, missed him and wanted him back. It was all a bit overwhelming to him.
Both of them finally broke their passionate yet breathtaking kiss while gasping hard for air. "You want me back baby?" Seth questioned while battling his eyelashes at him.
Dean sighed hard over watching the pretty boy in his arms. "Yes, I do." They again engaged in another searing kiss while falling down on the bed with Dean landing on top of Seth.
In that moment a strange feeling ran across Dean's mind. He felt that maybe he was meant to get back with Seth as Roman magically had started to avoid him and doubt him. He wasn't aware though of the wicked truth that the man in his arms was more than responsible for causing those doubts in Samoan man.
After a few hot moments Seth started to push Dean's tracks down, but Dean pushed it back up. "Nope, not now. You're hurt and you must rest."
"I'm fine. I want you inside me baby." Seth argued.
"I know, but there's one more thing."
"What?"
"I gotta tell Roman first."
Sure Dean hadn't forgotten bout his actual current boyfriend and their relationship. Even though it didn't matter much considering the situation, but Dean still wanted to break up with Roman before he slept with the man that he'd just accepted back in his life.
"Alright, I understand." Seth for once felt bad for Dean that he had to push Roman out of his life, and he knew it was really hard for him. Yet he still kinda felt happy that he got his lover back, he was selfish as always. "Baby, if you want then I'll be there when you tell Roman."
"No." Dean stated firmly. "I gotta do that myself."
"Okay, let's sleep baby." Seth pecked Dean's lips few more times before he shifted in bed to sleep on his side while forcing Dean to spoon him from behind. "I love you baby." He whispered.
"I..." Dean hesitated. "I love you too." Seth smiled and pushed his back against Dean's hot body.
So, Dean and Seth are finally back together! Is Seth the perfect man for Dean? Or is Dean's gonna realize something bout true love? Thank you for all the reviews and love ya :)
