As Monday night approached Seth felt more than excited to meet up with his recently reunited boyfriend, Dean. Since Seth's flight had landed earlier than Dean he'd already made his way over to Sprint center arena in Kansas City to anxiously wait for his man.
Seth was busy discussing about tonight's script for the raw show with Triple H and other officials when he noticed Dean enter the arena through the back door. He excitedly excused himself from everyone before he jumped and latched himself to his man pulling him in a tight embrace.
"Gosh, baby missed you so much." Seth placed a full open mouth kiss while pulling Dean closer to his body, but Dean didn't fully kiss him back yet he just allowed his man to engross him. "Aahh...this entire week was so goddamn boring without you."
"Uh...mine was even worse." Dean mentioned dryly.
Seth wrapped his arms around Dean's neck placing another soft peck on his lips. "Aww... baby, I knew you would feel lonely without me."
"Nah, you don't understand." Dean interrupted him, and Seth blankly stared at him. "I broke up with Roman."
"Yippee..." Seth voiced enthusiastically, but then he noticed Dean's sad face. "I mean, babe I'm sorry." He wasn't exactly but for his broken man's sake he pretended to be.
"Don't bother. It's over now." Dean stared into Seth's big, chocolate brown eyes that were just as same as when they were together simply beautiful seeping into his heart, but this time he felt that something was missing.
"Hey, you alright!" Seth whispered near his lips breaking the eye contact.
"Yeah." Dean nodded and Seth again locked their lips in a passionate kiss.
The boys were immersed in their sweet, loving kiss when Triple H's a bit loud voice forced them apart. "Seth, can you come over here for a minute?"
Seth instantly turned around to glance at Triple H, who looked a bit mad at the moment. "Oops, I left my script reading to come see you. I'm gonna have to go babe." Dean shook his head in approval. "I'll catch up with you later." He placed another soft peck on Dean's forehead, and then left to make his way over to the COO of the company.
Dean slowly made his way over to the men's locker room, and Seth adorably just watched his man walk away while throwing even a flying kiss his way to which Dean simply smiled back.
"Seth, babyboy!" Triple H tried to get Seth's attention. "What are you doing?"
"What do you mean?" Seth had a huge smile on his face.
"This may harm your success and your race up to the top of this business."
"What are you talking about?"
"Dean & you are back together or what?"
"Yes. Can you believe it? I mean I never thought that he would ditch Roman and come back to me."
"I thought Roman & Dean were just fucking around. So, they're serious huh?"
"They were! Dean's back with me now."
"And, you're happy bout it?" Triple H eyed him. "I mean you guys are feuding now and such public display will only spoil your storyline."
"But..." Seth tried to reason, but Triple H cut him off.
"No, buts." He placed his hand on the younger man's shoulder. "I forbid it. If he's back with you fine, but no more hugging & kissing in wwe arena, backstage or outside where the fans or your fellow wrestlers and officials can see you."
"This is stupid!" Seth complained.
"It isn't." Triple H answered in a matter of fact tone. "And, it's my opinion that both of you together are just simply bad for business. Seth if you want to go up faster then you'll have to listen to me."
After Triple H's warning Seth hide from Dean the entire night trying to avoid him, so that they don't get too intimate in front of wwe workers around. Dean could sense that Seth was ignoring him for some reason, but he didn't bother questioning him in public.
Finally the show got wrapped after Seth had curbstomped both Dean and Randy to climb and stand on top of the monstrous cell. It was a great statement night for Seth. He finished rounding his bags to quickly make his way over to the empty men's locker room.
Dean had finished dressing up and was busy packing his luggage. "Hey, babe! Let's leave, huh?" He asked Seth as soon as the younger man entered the room.
"We can't leave together." Seth spoke in a soft voice.
"Why?" Dean directly asked him in confusion.
"Triple H has mentioned that we can't be seen together since we're feuding..."
"Oh! Yeah I remember. Okay, I'll ride with Cesaro to Wichita then."
"Umm...there's one more thing."
"What?"
"He said that we have to avoid getting close around our workmates and officials. It's bad for business."
"Really?" Dean couldn't believe Triple H's nosy & uptight attitude. "Why? Don't our workmates know that our feud's just a storyline. What happened to wwe is like a family tagline?"
"Oh! Babe don't you get so upset." Seth came closer to Dean wrapping his arms tightly around his waist. "I think he's right."
"Damn! I can't believe you just said that." Dean pushed Seth's arms off of him, and he suddenly laughed while sticking his tongue out in a total maniacal manner.
"Why are you laughing?" Seth asked thinking that he's man had lost it.
"Oh! Boy! I remember Triple H going nuts over Roman & mine's relationship too." Dean moved to round up his bags. "And, asking us to tone it down a bit and hide it from the fans and shit..."
"Why are you telling me all this now?" Seth was confused. "What it has anything to do with our situation?"
"It has everything to do." Dean spat back harshly. "Roman refused Triple H and told him to shove his attitude down his ass. He didn't give into Triple H's wishes like a puppet."
"Are you calling me a puppet?" Seth angrily asked. "And, are you comparing me with Roman? Are you, huh?"
Dean just smirked while he swung his duffel bag on his shoulder. "Nah, I wouldn't imagine."
The sarcasm cut through Seth's bones, and he felt insulted. "You can't go back to Roman now. So stop talking bout him. You're mine and you're gonna do what I want."
"Aye, aye, captain!" Dean mock saluted Seth and stormed his way outta the men's locker room.
It was needless to say that Seth understood that Dean was angry and frustrated with Triple H interfering in their private relationship, so he'd decided to make it up to his boyfriend. As soon as they'd finished filming Smackdown on Tuesday night, Seth had surprised Dean with plane tickets to San Diego, California.
That city was special to both of them because it was the first place that the boys had gone on a vacation when first they'd gotten into a relationship bout three years ago. Seth wanted to remind Dean that how much in love they were, and that they actually belonged together.
Right now Seth had his one arm around Dean's waist and his head rested on Dean's shoulder while they walked around in a beautiful sunset setting of the San Diego beach. The place was crowded, so nobody actually noticed them. There were giant dipper rollercoaster ride, vertical plunge, flowrider, beach blaster, children's parks and many stalls with fun games for amusement.
"Baby, I remember you kissing me in that ocean bout three years ago." Seth lifted his head up to look at his man's face that wasn't quite thrilled like he was. "Babe, are you not happy coming here?"
Dean turned his head to look at Seth's innocent puppy dog eyes, and he lied. "Nah, it's beautiful." Seth smiled at him. "I'm just a bit burnt out with all wrestling and house shows."
"Me too baby." Seth placed a soft kiss on Dean's thin pink lips. "That's why I wanted that before our big hell in a cell match on this Sunday, we have some fun. We'll just roam all we want today, and then we'll just relax in out condo for the rest of three days."
"Yeah..."Dean replied halfheartedly.
His mind was preoccupied with thoughts of Roman. In reality Dean had never stopped thinking about the Samoan man since the morning he'd broken Roman's heart. He regretted and had cried every single night for the man that had loved him like his own flesh and bone.
It hurt him more than ever to realize that he chose Seth just because he felt guilty for him, but the love that he had for Roman was bound with no such emotion. Dean loved Roman because he was an awesome man at heart not because there was some condition involved.
It won't be wrong to say that maybe Dean felt that he owed Seth something because if it wasn't for Seth then Dean wouldn't have known what it felt like to be loved. But then again Seth's love always felt forced and more tamed while on the other hand Roman's love felt independent, generous and soul touching.
If Roman wouldn't have loved Dean then poor Dean would've never realized that what he & Seth had was not love. It was just a comfortable way for fulfilling one's demanding desire. Seth unlike Roman dictated Dean quite simply because Seth felt that he had more experience than Dean in love department.
"Hey, babe! Let's go to that ring toss stall." Seth exclaimed happily jolting Dean out of his thoughts.
Dean slowly made his way over to the stall with Seth eagerly dragging him by his hand. "Hello sir! Where's your hot boyfriend?" The old man behind the counter asked to Dean.
"I'm here." Seth answered proudly.
"I didn't ask you young lad. I asked my fellow Ohioan. Hi! Mr. Ambrose."
"Oh! Hello, Steve. How's work?"
"Fine! Where's the hot man? You came alone!"
Before Dean could answer back Seth had pulled him by his leather jacket to whisper in his ear. "Who's this old fuck asking bout?"
"I and Roman came here bout two months back." Dean mumbled to Seth. "He remembers me and him because both us won a lot of stuffed animals for each other."
"I thought that you hated stuffed animals. You usually handed me those."
"Yes, we didn't want them so we gave it to the homeless children center on our way out."
"Aren't you guys gonna try your luck tonight?" Steve interrupted their whispering session.
"No, I'm tired. I need to go to my condo back!" Seth answered that in an irritated tone and pulled Dean by his arm. Dean simply waved at Steve who nodded his head back at him. Seth felt uncomfortable over learning bout Dean & Roman's awesome time here on the beach, and now he just wanted to rid Dean's mind of that sweet memory.
As soon as they reached their bedroom Seth quickly started to discard Dean off of his clothing. He pulled his own t-shirt out and pushed Dean gently on the bed while straddling him. Both the men still had their jeans on and Seth swayed his hips to grinding at their clothed dicks.
It was a weird feeling for Dean as for the first time in his life he'd found himself in this position where a hot man like Seth was straddling him and rubbing at his crotch yet he felt nothing. He watched as Seth bent down to kiss at his neck, shoulder blades and nipples, but all Dean could think of was about Roman's gorgeous body on top of him showering him with soft, delicate kisses.
He closed his eyes shut and imagined about Roman, and he instantly felt his dick growing hard, but the moment he heard Seth moan he was pushed back into the harsh reality. He tried and tried to get turned on by the way Seth moved his hips, kissed his belly button or licked at his hip dents, but he couldn't.
It seemed as if the moment Dean looked at Seth he felt disappointed and hurt because it kept piercing him in brain that he was cheating on Roman. Like how? Dean had broken up with Roman yet he still felt guilty allowing another man to touch his body.
The funny thing was that the other man was none other than the man for whom he'd pushed Roman away.
Dean realized in that moment that he truly loved Roman and not only his heart but even his body belonged to him. Here he was laid down with Seth, one of the prettiest wwe superstars but he couldn't feel the arousal for him.
Dean's sexy boyfriend was making love to him, but all Dean could think of or desire about was of his now former boyfriend, Roman.
Maybe his heart couldn't give him an eye opener, but his body sure did. Dean's body not reacting to Seth was a proof that deep inside he loved Roman, and the Samoan man owned his heart, mind, soul and body.
Seth unzipped Dean's jeans and pushed his underwear down to expose his cock, and suddenly his face fell. He was disappointed noticing Dean's soft dick, and it hurt him. Never had Dean been so turned off in their sex session, and it spoke volumes of what Dean felt for him.
Yet, the stubborn man that Seth was he groped Dean's dick while stroking it roughly and talking dirty to him. "Baby, come on tell me how you feel bout my hands rubbing your thick dick?"
Dean looked down and noticed Seth's hurt face, and it matched his own. "I'm sorry I can't get it up for you."
"You will in a second when I'll wrap my warm mouth around this long, fat cock."
"It won't work. Just stop!"
"No, I won't!"
"Stop it, please."
"Na...no.." Seth whined and flicked his tongue over Dean's cockhead.
"Fuck, Seth I told you to stop!" Dean yelled and harshly pushed Seth off of his body. He quickly zipped his jeans, and got off the bed to pace in their big bedroom.
Seth had tears in his eyes as he watched Dean. "I don't understand! What wrong I did?"
"You didn't do anything wrong. I'm wrong!" Dean answered through his gritted teeth. "I pushed Roman without even realizing that he's my true love. How stupid I'm?"
"No, Dean I'm your true love!" Seth argued.
"Ah...no." Dean groaned in frustration and moved to sit in front of Seth. "Listen Seth. It will hurt you but I don't love you anymore. What we had is over! It's just gone!"
"No, Dean..." Seth cried hard. "I'm sorry for hurting you and pushing you away. I love you Dean."
"Oh! Seth please don't cry!" Dean caressed Seth's hair. "You love me because of who I was four months back, but I'm not that guy anymore."
"What do you mean?"
"The moment I fell in love with Roman, I changed. I'm not erratic or careless anymore and don't need anyone's orders. I may be crazy at times, but I'm more responsible and independent now."
"But you can't go back to Roman. You just broke up with him last week."
"I know. But that doesn't mean that I should be in relationship with you with no real love."
Seth finally understood that even though Roman wasn't here Dean still loved him, and even though he was here but there was nothing. "I'm sorry I caused you two to part ways. I feel horrible." Seth sobbed harder.
"Oh! Come on Seth." Dean lifted Seth's face by his chin to wipe the tears off. "Tomorrow is Roman's parent's anniversary I'll go there and beg him for forgiveness. If he loves me then he'll forgive me."
"Yes!" Seth heartily exclaimed. "Get your love Dean! You deserve it after all the painful stuff that happened in your life, I wish nothing but happiness for you."
"And, you'll always be my friend right?"
"You can bet on it."
Dean hugged Seth and they stayed in each other arms for some time. Soon Seth called the flight agent and booked his ticket on a late night flight back to his home state of Davenport Iowa. He'd decided to spend rest of his off days with his family.
Before Seth had left Dean had promised him to take an early morning flight to Pensacola to meet up with Roman, but now he'd changed his plans. He simply sat in his condo's bedroom thinking bout Roman, and he felt a bit heavy in his heart.
Dean felt guilty, embarrassed and ashamed all at the same time. He felt that it was so easy for him to decide to go back to Roman, but very hard to accomplish it. He'd hurt his man bad and betrayed him in more than one ways, and he felt that it was nothing but selfish of him to now ask Roman to take him back.
Roman's hurtful face still encircled his brain, and Dean felt nothing but disgusted from himself. He kept on having conflicting thoughts. What if Roman never accepted me back? How would Roman react? Will he push me away this time? Will he hate me?
Over the mention of hate Dean's mind got struck with Roman's words. "I can never hate you nor will I ever hate you."
What if Roman wants me back? He thought. Won't it be wrong to deny my man of his happiness?
Dean was confused and at last he couldn't decide. He then chose not to hurt his man anymore by showing him his pathetic face. So, instead of booking a flight to Roman's place he took a flight to Vegas back.
He just accepted in his heart that he didn't deserve Roman anymore.
Roman was better off without him.
I'm really sorry from the bottom of my heart to make my fabulous readers cry, but you're not alone since I cried too. Anyways Seth has realized that Dean isn't his anymore. And, now Dean wants to go back to Roman but he still feels guilty. What do you guys think? Should Dean go back to Roman? Or will Roman accept Dean back? Thanks for your encouraging reviews! Love ya :)