Roman couldn't sleep all night long. He kept getting intense and passionate dreams of his now former boyfriend, Dean Ambrose. He'd been this way ever since Dean had broken up with him last week.
It was really tough for Roman to erase Dean & his loving memories from his mind as even if he didn't want it but his mind always wandered back to the man that he'd loved for over two years now.
He missed Dean. His face, his touch, his dimpled smile, pale baby blue eyes, ridiculous jokes but above all Dean's charming presence that had pulled him like a magnet towards him.
Roman twisted and turned in his bed all alone and more than anything right now, he missed cuddling up to Dean. He instantly felt the coldness of the bed and he looked on the empty side of the bed next to him. It caused a sudden throbbing effect in his heart as he realized that Dean would never sleep next to him on the same bed.
He immediately shut his eyes to free himself of the terrible feeling, but then once again he started to have these vivid thoughts about Dean. He couldn't help but get lost in his sweet, old memories.
"Wake up my beautiful Samoan prince."
Dean's voice echoed in Roman's ear as he felt Dean's lips touch and press at his right ear. "Hmmm..." Roman groaned and slowly opened his eyes to stare at the most beautiful pale baby blue eyes that he'd ever seen. "Baby, Good morning!"
He greeted Dean and in response he got a sweet kiss from his man. "How come you're always up before me?" Roman questioned him while he softly ran his fingers over the fringes of Dean's hair that were falling over his face.
"I feel the need to get up early then you." Dean answered while Roman looked at him in confusion. "I mean how else I am going to watch your gorgeous face sleeping soundly with your luscious hair splattered all over the pillow. Gosh, you're so handsome!"
Dean's words made Roman blush and he hide his face sideways in the pillow. "Stop it! You're just too much."
"Oh! No babe, you're hauntingly handsome!" Dean pulled Roman's face out of the pillow to stare into his smoky grey eyes. "I'm so lucky to have you."
"No, I'm lucky to have you."
"Really?"
"Yes, because you're so adorable and really charming." Roman noticed Dean rolling his eyes, and he gripped his face in both of his hands to get his attention. "You're everything I've ever imagined. You always make me laugh, you always cheer me on and you're goddamn sexy and shit..."
"What?"
Dean asked, and Roman sheepishly smiled at him. "You're fucking amazing in bed." Dean laughed hard and Roman pinched at his nose to stop him. "Believe me Dean. I've never allowed anybody to fuck me in the ass before, but you...umm...with you I just feel like surrendering to you because you're so goddamn awesome."
"That I am." Dean boasted, and Roman playfully pulled on his hair. "Alright, I'll stop. But gosh, I need you right now."
Dean moved to lie directly on top of Roman's body. "Not now babe." Roman placed his hands on Dean's shoulder trying to stop him. "You fucked me three times last night and I'm kinda sore."
"Okay, then you fuck me." Dean replied nonchalantly as he shifted to lie on his back next to his man.
Roman plopped on his elbow to watch the Ohioan with wide eyes. "Didn't you get enough last night?"
"Never enough!"
With that Dean pulled Roman by his neck to lock their lips together in a heated passionate kiss while forcing Roman to move and lie on top of his body. Roman quickly hovered on top of him while moving his hips in a perfect motion creating a sweet friction between their naked crotches.
Soon Roman pulled out of the kiss to place hot, open mouth kisses all over Dean's neck & throat area and he simultaneously wrapped his hand around both of their hard dicks while stroking them to completion. Dean moaned in his classic raspy voice before he whispered in Roman's right ear.
"I love you Ro. Get inside me now, I want you baby..."
Roman woke up from his dream as he panted heavily. His forehead was sweaty while his dick was harder than ever. "Fuck!" He cursed loudly as he sat up in his bed.
Goddamnit! Forgetting Dean wasn't an easy job. Roman felt pathetic knowing that even though his body, mind and every goddamn part of his soul ached for Dean yet the man didn't want him.
Instantly Roman felt suffocating in his own bedroom, and he quickly pulled on his track pants and grey hoodie before making his way out of the room. He walked slowly trying not to wake up anyone in his parent's house as today his entire family and cousins were staying there to celebrate his parent's 35th marriage anniversary.
Roman entered the empty terrace and noticed the rising sun as it was only five in the morning with everyone sleeping soundly. He tried to not think about Dean, but sadly he again failed as his eyes got locked to the tree house that he & his dad had built when he was some nine or ten years old.
He remembered taking Dean up there last month when he'd come to visit his parent's house.
"Wow you built it yourself, huh?" Dean questioned as he entered the small yet well built tree house.
"Yeah, when I was young. But, my dad helped me a lot." Roman pulled Dean by his hand to show him some of his childhood toys and stuff.
Both of them sat on the floor next to a big carton box. Roman picked it up and took out various items that included a helicopter, Robocop, kid's eye wear, a superman cape and lots of tiny toys. Dean excitedly looked around at every part of the tree house before checking out every single toy since as a child he wasn't offered any such gifts by his careless and rude parents, so it was all very unreal to him.
He laughed coughing at the cape in his hand. "Babe, you love superman. He sucks!"
"Gosh, I was nine then."
"Still this would look good on you."
Roman wasn't even able to reply back and Dean had already pulled him by his shoulders to tie the cape around his neck. "You look perfect!"
"Shut up!" Roman fidgeted with the cape. "I'm gonna take it off."
"Nope. Just wear it for a while." Dean came closer to Roman while wrapping his arms around his neck. "You're my Samoan superman!" Roman grinned widely at him while he locked his arms around Dean's waist.
Dean placed a soft kiss to Roman's forehead before placing kisses on both of his eyes. "You've got really gorgeous grey eyes." Roman didn't say anything instead he just let Dean's every word sink in. "Perfectly chiseled jaw line." He traced it with his index finger and peppered soft kisses all over it. "And your lips. Aah..." He gasped. "They're divine my babe."
Roman blushed hard as Dean leaned into kiss him fully on his lips. Dean's soft lips smoothly glided over Roman's pouty ones and instantly moans escaped out of their mouths. Dean's mouth fully covered Roman's as his tongue found its way inside the Samoan man's warm mouth.
Their tongues entangled and intertwined while their lips moved harmoniously. Both of them were completely engrossed and lost in their passionate, body melting kiss when Roman's dad interrupted them.
"Umm...boys. If you guys are hungry then lunch's ready."
Roman was jolted out of his thoughts over remembering his dad's naughty smiling face, and he sighed hard. He just couldn't even stand a minute alone without thinking bout Dean. Damn, not having Dean in his life was now really getting to him.
It frustrated Roman that Dean had chosen Seth, and not him. For all he'd given to him in his troublesome months, but still the Ohioan chose someone who had thrown him in the first place.
Roman tried to hate Dean, but he couldn't.
Every single time he thought about Dean he felt nervous, hot and impatient. He truly loved his man, but there was nothing that he could do to get his man back. Roman cursed himself for not fighting with Dean for doing wrong to him, but he knew it was impossible.
Actually when it came to Dean then Roman always felt weak as he immensely cared about him and wanted to give him all the happiness in the world. Watching Dean smile made him smile, and he'd decided that if Dean had chosen to live with Seth then he wasn't gonna question him.
Yet, Roman still hoped that Dean would come back to him. It was sad but Roman's love was real for Dean.
It was a miracle that Seth & Dean's three year loving relationship had broken suddenly leaving Dean all heartbroken and shattered. And, it was only fate that was responsible for bringing Dean closer to him than he already was.
Roman had faith that if his love was true that Dean would come back to him one day. He silently thanked his lucky stars to give him three months of wonderful experience with a man whom he'd deeply desired for over two straight years.
Suddenly a weird thought crossed his mind. What if Dean totally forgets about him? What if he loves Seth more than ever and regrets spending time with him?
Roman banged his fist hard on the guarding rail and lowered his head down in disappointment.
"Hey, uce is everything okay!" Jey questioned patting Roman on his shoulder.
Roman didn't lift his head up instead he turned his face away from him. "What are you doing up here?" He asked Jey.
"I can ask you the same thing." Jey pulled Roman by his arm forcing him to face him. He noticed Roman's bloodshot red eyes. "Didn't sleep all night or what?"
Roman didn't answer him back as he angrily ran his fingers in his long hair.
"So, what's wrong between you & Dean?" Jey noticed Roman's wide eyes, and he smirked. "Come on uce. I know that there's nothing that can hurt you bad until unless there's something wrong with your boyfriend."
"He's not my boyfriend anymore." Roman uttered softly feeling every ounce of pain while mentioning that out loud.
"What?" Jey pulled Roman's face up by his chin. "You gotta tell me uce. Right now."
Roman looked into the sincere eyes of his cousin and if there was anyone who knew him better in his family then it was this man. He spilled everything that happened with Seth showing up in their hotel room three weeks back to last week Dean choosing Seth over him.
"Uh, man." Jey groaned. "That sneaky, twinky, bastard Seth. He's the man at fault."
"But, Dean's the one that left me." Roman said in a heavy voice.
"I can't hate Dean man. He's my brother too ya know." Jey just like rest of Roman's family had considered Dean as his own. "Also, I'm gonna be clear here. Dean's confused, stupid and a man that's never been loved. Sure he thinks Seth's his true love because he came first in his life, but he deserves a second chance."
"I'm ready to give him million chances." Roman spoke from his heart that just loved Dean blindly. "But, I think he's made his choice and there's nothing that I can do."
"Man, you're a pussy!"
"What?"
"Your man's with a wrong guy thinking that he's gonna find love & shit" Jey yelled. "And you're here allowing him to fall in that shit hole. Do something!"
"Like what?"
"Call him now and talk some sense in that crazy man's brain."
Roman deeply thought bout his brother words before he pulled his cell phone out from his tracks pocket. He unlocked the screen on his phone, and Jey patted his back leaving him alone on the terrace.
Roman's eyes got stuck on his screen saver for a moment as it was picture of Dean kissing him after Roman had won his match at Summerslam against Randy Orton. It was such a big night for Roman, and Dean was very supportive and encouraging to him.
An instant smile appeared on Roman's face as he quickly made a call to Dean. As it was still early in the morning he didn't expect Dean to answer him as soon as he did.
"Hello, Ro."
Dean's heavy, raspy voice pulled at Roman's heart strings. He felt so emotional in that moment that his words got stuck in the back of his throat.
"I'm so sorry...I, uh..."
Roman could hear Dean stammering nervously, and he wanted to speak something or yell at him for being stupid to drop him, but nothing came out.
"I know you're mad at me. I'm mad at me. Uh...I'm really sorry."
Dean sniffled, and his broken voice could be clearly heard by Roman on the other end of the line.
"Dean, are you crying?"
Roman finally couldn't resist asking as he felt water forming in his own eyes.
"Umm..." Dean gasped hard, and sniffled again. "Sorry Ro, I hurt you bad. I don't deserve you."
"Dean, please don't say this."
"Nah, I betrayed you, your trust and everything. You're a special man, and you deserve so much better."
"Where's Seth?"
Dean remained silent as he sobbed softly. "I...uh..." He stammered again, and Roman gulped hard. "I broke up with him last night."
Roman didn't know what he felt exactly as various emotions started to float in his brain. "Why did you do that?"
"Because I don't love him." Dean mentioned sternly. "I finally know that my heart belongs to someone else."
Roman held his breath as he uttered softly. "Dean, I love you and..." But he was interrupted before he could even finish his sentence.
"Nah, Ro. I'm alone and I deserve it." Dean words made tears flow uncontrollably out of Roman's eyes. "Take care. You'll find someone better than me."
With that Dean hung up the phone and Roman slowly slid down sitting on the floor while crying hard. "I don't want anyone but you Dean." He mouthed to the empty terrace while he bought his knees close up to his chest and buried his head down.
Roman's heart ached for Dean and he wanted to call his man again to make him understand but he knew better that once Dean went in a self doubting phase it wasn't easier to pull him out.
Nonetheless, he tried again but Dean had switched off his phone leaving Roman sad and broken.
Roman loves Dean unconditionally. Dean passionately loves him too, and that's why he wants someone better for Roman than him. What do you guys think? Should Roman and Dean get back together? I love your reviews and it means a lot to me. Thank you so much my fabulous readers!