Hello again! I found a few hours today for the next chapter! Hope you enjoy (I teared up writing this)
Disclaimer: once again don't own the good wife or any of the characters
What I had just done to mentally prepare myself would never prepare me enough for what I saw when I walked into that room. It looked as if he were really dead. He laid there motionless with tubes coming out of his nose to help him breath, out of his stomach for feeding him I suppose and all of the bruises and stitches. He looked as if he were not alive.
I walked to his bedside and a few tears rolled down my cheeks. I slowly reached my hand towards his hand, and when I finally met his skin it was warm. With what he looks like I would think he would be ice cold but in all honesty he was warmer than I was.
"Hey there" I say knowing that he can't hear me.
"You gave my quite the scare today. I thought that I had lost you and I couldn't live with myself knowing that I did not say how sorry I am. For everything that I have ever done to you. Even things back in college. Like never giving you the chance to tell me how you really felt, not inviting you my best friend to my own wedding, not giving you a chance yet again 20 years later when our paths finally met again, breaking it off when I knew that you loved me with all of your heart and would do anything for me even with all the baggage I have and still have, leaving you when we had just started to get close again, betraying you by telling you that I was not leaving even though I knew I already was, and lastly being a total bitch with everything I have said and done to you in these past couple of months. I am eternally sorry for what I have done. If you ever wake up, Will, I hope to tell these things to you to your face and hopefully we can give it another try. That is if you would still want me. Diane told me that you still are in love with me, but I find that truly hard to believe with everything that I have put you through. I know when you wake up I will explain this and you will try to take some blame for it, but I will not let you because it was all my fault. You were always there when I needed you but I was never there when you needed me. And I know that you may never forgive me or give me another chance because of all the bridges that I have burned. So when you wake and we talk it out and you tell me that you can't trust me again I will totally understand. I may be heartbroken but I guess I am just getting a dose of my own medicine."
I stare at him with tears rolling down my cheeks.
"I cannot live without you William Paul Gardner and I hope you feel the same. I am 110% in love with you and I have been since our first years in law school together. I have never had the courage to tell you that to your face but once you wake up I will tell you it every day of the rest of our lives it you take me back. I know I still have obstacles to jump but I know that if you still really do love me you will be there with me holding my hand every step of the way. You are my one and only true love."
With that I get a text from Peter saying we need to talk.
"Looks like I have to get back to my own life again. I will be here every night until you wake up Will. No one will keep me away from you, unless you wake up and tell me otherwise."
I stand up and wipe the few tears away and I place a soft kiss on his forehead.
As I walk out of the hospital I text peter and tell him I will be home in ten minutes.
-At Alicia's Apartment-
I start to unlock my door when I notice that it already is. When I walk into my own apartment I meet Zach and Grace in the foyer I give them both a long hug and tell them I love them.
"Hey I have to talk to your dad so could you all go to the store for me? I need a couple of things for the fridge."
They both look at me and shake their heads. They can tell I've been crying and they know this conversation with their father won't be pretty. I grab the list off the fridge and hand it to Grace and give her a kiss on the top of her head.
"I love you. Take your time, there is no need to hurry back home. Okay?"
"I love you too. And okay" Grace replies as they leave.
As I return to the kitchen Peter is sitting at the bar. He has two wine glasses out in front of him and is pouring some wine for me. He hands me a glass.
"Thank you." I say
"You okay?"
"I really wish everyone would stop asking me that. I'm fine."
"Well… You missed the Founders Dinner… I was just worried about you."
"Sorry."
"I don't often ask you to come to these political events-"
"I'll go to the next one" I cut him off
"Alicia… The way you're handling this Will thing..."
"I'm doing… my best" I cut him off again
"Oh well… If this is your best then I think we need to talk."
I glare up at him
"Look you might lose a friend… You didn't lose your child, you didn't lose your husband."
"I lost my husband a long time ago."
"Oh my… You cannot go back there." He says raising his voice
"I don't have to... I'm still living it every day."
"Oh my god. How many times do I have to tell you, WHEN I CHEATED IT DIDN'T MEAN ANYTHING." He is yelling now
"Well then that was a waste. BECAUSE WHEN I CHEATED IT DID!"
"Well I can't compete with a dead man. But if you think your life would've been better with Will you're kidding yourself."
"STOP IT PETER. And he is NOT dead."
"No I am not going to let you throw away this marriage because you have this some idealized notion of a man who you're not even sure cared about you."
"YOU'RE A BASTARD"
"AND YOURE A SELFISH BITCH"
And with that the kids walk back in. Grace stares at her father in disbelief as Zach stands there in shock. Grace starts crying while Zach is pulling her into his room.
"Look what you did Peter." I yell at him
"DO NOT blame all of this on me."
"You know what. I am done. We are done. Get out of my apartment. NOW. I will have the divorce papers sent to your office."
He stands there in shock
"GET OUT!" I yell
He stands there for a few more seconds before he drops his head and walks out. After he has I run to Zach's room to check on my children. Grace is clinging onto Zach while she is crying and Zach has tears in his eyes.
"Hey guys" I say softly
Grace looks up at me and runs to give me a hug. "Is he gone?" She asks
"Yes, baby, he left." I reply
"I am so sorry" Grace says
I stare at her in disbelief. "Wh… Why are you sorry?"
"Because you could've divorced him so much sooner but because of Zach and I you didnt and I am so sorry I made you have to live with that. I am so so sorry."
"Oh honey it is not your fault." I reply as Zach stands up and hugs us also.
"I'm sorry too mom."
"Guys it is okay… Hey look at me." They both look up at me. "I am sorry you all had to walk in on that. Okay, so don't be sorry."
"We just want you to be happy again mom. And if that is with Will we will support you 100%. I just don't want you to ever be sad again. And I know dad has done this to you and I'm sorry that he is such a bastard." Zach says
"Hey don't call your father that. He might have his flaws but he is your father and he will always love you. Okay?"
"Okay" they reply in unison
"We just want you to be happy Mom" Grace says
"I know honey. And I love you two very much."
"We love you too. With all of our hearts."
Okay I had fun writing this chapter! And what did you all think about last night episode?! #mindblown anyway review please! Much Love to you all!