Author's Note: I apologize guys. I've had most of this chapter written for several days now, but I only just finished it. I am now working two jobs, and it's been hectic. Anyways, i hope you guys enjoy - let me know if there's anything that seems confusing or lacking in plot and i'll edit it as soon as possible - my brain has been fried the past few days from all my job training, so i don't know if this chapter will be that great - just let me know what you guys think - thanks :)

Kim screamed into her pillow angrily as her best friend looked at her in confusion.

"Ok, girl, I've only been here five seconds – you have to tell me why you're frustrated before you start the tantrum part," Monique said, folding her arms in front of her chest.

The redhead rolled onto her back and stared at the ceiling. Monique took a seat at her friend's desk and waited for the hero to start.

At long last, after a long sigh, the redhead began, "It's about Shego…"

The chocolate skinned woman rolled her eyes, "I gathered that much. Whenever you were frustrated these past two years it was always about her."

Kim glared, but Monique waved it off.

"Well she said she wished I didn't exist."

Her friend's eyes widened considerably. "She said what now?"

"That I didn't exist. I mean, I go to save her and that's what I get?"

"Wait, she said it to your face?"

Kim faltered, "Well… no."

"You sure you heard her right then?"

"Oh I KNOW I heard her right. Everyone kept looking at me afterwards, like they just knew it was plaguing me. So they obviously heard it too."

"Do you know the context of the situation?"

"Does context matter? It's really hard to misconstrue that."

The fashion designer thought for a while before saying, "Maybe she meant like she wished you didn't exist as her old enemy… like she thought that if you two hadn't fought way back when, things would've turned out differently or something."

Kim sat up, "That makes it sound like she just wished she never met me. Barely better than wishing I never existed in the first place."

"Look, Kim, I'm not trying to play devil's advocate, I'm not necessarily trying to find things to prove you wrong… but you like her right? So wouldn't it be best if you were WRONG?"

"I wish I was wrong, but let's be honest, there aren't enough possibilities for this to turn out good for me."

Monique frowned and moved over to the redhead, pulling her into a hug. "Don't worry, we'll figure out what's going on, and you know I'm always here."

Kim hugged her back tightly, "Thanks."

…. …..

Shego paced the redhead's doorstep for a good fifteen minutes before she started to walk back to her car when a voice stopped her.

"Shego?"

The ex-villain froze. That wasn't Kim's voice, but it came from the redhead's front door. She turned when she heard the soft click of the door closing. She found herself facing a somewhat familiar face, but she wasn't sure she could place it.

Monique could see the confusion on the woman's face. "I'm Monique, Kim's best friend. I met you on a mission before, was terrified of you."

Shego winced, "Sorry."

Monique waved it off. "What are you doing here?"

"Well, I was planning to talk to Kimmy, but I don't think I can right this second."

"Oh? Worried she might bite off your head after you said you wished she didn't exist? I wouldn't blame her for that."

The older woman's shoulders slumped and she let out a sigh, "Neither would I."

That threw off the younger girl. "Wait, what?"

"I would deserve it. I'm a bitch, remember?"

Monique straightened up a little, "Then you should go in there and take what you deserve for verbally ripping her to shreds."

Shego hesitated before slowly walked towards Kim's house, stopping when she was beside the redhead's best friend. "I don't know how this will go, if I fuck up, you might want to stay close by in case I make it worse. If she murders me, you might want to stick around to help her hide the body."

The chocolate skinned woman turned with a slightly shocked look on her face.

Shego tried to smile slightly, trying to show that she was trying to lighten the situation with a joke, but it wasn't working.

A moment later the older woman had pushed through the front door and clicked it shut. She trudged up the steps, her feet feeling like they were getting heavier and heavier the farther up she went, but somehow they still carried her to the top, and she somewhat hated them for it.

When she got to Kim's room door, she knocked lightly.

"Mo? Did you forget someth-" Kim froze midsentence as she opened the door.

"Can we… talk?"

The redhead was silent for a few seconds, and during that time, Shego's heart leapt into her throat. She could see the redness and slight puffiness of the girl's eyes. She could also make out the tears staining her cheeks. She reminded herself that this is why she didn't want to be in love or be loved. It gave her power to break someone else, and power for someone else to break her.

Kim nodded her head slowly and walked back to her bed, curling herself up in blankets.

Shego hesitantly entered and closed the door, taking a seat at the chair in front of Kim's desk.

"Talk," Kim muttered.

"I'm not going to take back what I said."

The redhead jolted slightly. She wanted to yell at the older woman to leave, but she was shocked. She expected the woman to apologize and act sorry, like any normal person would – maybe create an excuse or two.

Shego ran a hand through her hair. "You aren't a bad person, you're great. I don't hate you, don't ever think that. You're definitely someone I consider a friend."

Kim licked her lips. "Then why'd you say you wish I didn't exist?"

"I have…. Extreme emotional issues. Family fucked me over pretty good. I have issues getting attached to people. If I get attached, it means I'm giving someone else the ability to make me sad – kind of how I hurt you."

"That's not fair. You can't say you're not at least a little attached to me – I mean, you called me a friend just a second ago."

"Of course I'm attached to you. If I didn't give a shit about your feelings I wouldn't be here now, would I?"

"Well… I guess not. So what does that have to do with you wishing I don't exist."

"If I get attached to people, that could lead to me getting hurt, and I don't want to get hurt anymore. So those I get attached to… I end up wishing they didn't exist. That way I wouldn't have to deal with sadness and pain, and all the bullshit that comes along with it."

"You're attached to Dr. Director right? Do you wish she didn't exist?"

"No bu-"

"No? How is she any different? You've known her longer than me, so you obviously have some sort of attachment to her."

"Look, it's just different."

Kim sat up a little straighter in the bed, "How is it different? You can say you wish I don't exist, but you can't do the same for your best friend? That's fucked up, wouldn't you say?"

Shego gripped the armrest on her chair, "It's not the same, alright."

"Well why isn't it the same?" Kim pressed, getting angry that the woman wouldn't tell her."

"Just drop it," Shego said as she stood up abruptly.

"That's it? That's your way of 'apologizing' to me? You try to explain things but then you just up and leave when you don't feel like telling me everything?!"

"Princess, just leave it be!" Shego practically shouted. She stomped towards the door.

Kim jumped out of bed, "Tell me!"

Shego whipped around to face the girl, "Because I LIKE you alright! I could be falling for you and I damn well don't want to leave my heart in the hands of another person! So DROP it!" She turned and left the room, slamming the door behind her and stomping her way to her car.

Kim had frozen on the spot. How was she supposed to take a confession like that? She was starting to see where Shego was coming from, and what she'd just done wasn't exactly helping. By angering the older woman, it was proof that liking someone can bring about bad emotions, and if Shego's family had really messed her up, then Kim could only have just made it worse.

A/N: Alright my lovelies, what'd you guys think? Let me know your thoughts (and never fear, i do read every review I get - i don't always respond to them all anymore, but the ones that are more in depth or ask questions and stuff i'm likely to answer) Hope you guys enjoyed it, and I apologize if I become slow at updating again