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They ate at the diner and then went back to the Cohen's of course Seth joined them for the evening it still being chrismukkah and all. So they talked play games listened to music pretty much everything they used to. It was getting pretty late.
"So I'm going to just grab my stuff in the pool house and then I'm gonna have to call it a night" She said getting up. "Party pooper" Seth said.
"Grow up Cohen" Marissa said walking towards the pool house. Marissa was gone for quite a few minutes.
"Man maybe you better go see if this is her way of wanting to talk to you because she hasn't come out yet" Seth said.
"Alright" He said going to see what was up.
He saw Marissa looking around for something. "Hey you lose something?" Ryan asked. "Yeah my cell phone apparently it must have dropped from my bag when Seth clumsily knocked it over before. "Well it's got to be here" He said looking around.
"Yeah I guess" She said continuing to look she however failed to notice Ryan flipping his cell open. "So I'll just call it" He said. All of sudden she remembered something and she knew she had to stop him.
"You know what I probably left it in the car or something. So don't bother" She said. "It'll only take a second" He said. "No really it's not necessary It's not important even if I can't find it. I could always replace it I have insurance" She said rambling.
"Are you okay?" He said looking at her weirdly. And before she could answer she heard forever young playing in the back ground and she bent down under the chair and found her cell phone. She looked up at him as he closed his cell. "So I guess I found it" Marissa said not really knowing what else to say.
He walked over to her grabbed her cell from her. She looked at him confused. "Ryan what are you doing?" She said and with that heard the same familiar song playing and it all became clear. She laughed.
"Well I'm glad this isn't only embarrassing for me anymore" She said with a laugh. "Well I thought it was only a matter of time before I got caught so" He said with a smile handing her cell back.
"Right So thanks" She said feeling awkward again. "Yeah sure you know what ever" He said feeling the same thing.
She looked up at him and knew she had to get out of there. "So I'll see ya" She said leaving so fast he didn't have a chance to respond and left him standing there feeling something he thought he'd never feel again not with Marissa Cooper.
The next morning he woke up and went to go to the kitchen when something was blocking the door to the pool house. He reached down grabbed it unwrapped it from the wrapping.
He smiled knowing it was Marissa. He noticed the back. "It's to remember yesterday and of course the first thing you ever put your heart and soul into Love Marissa.
Well she was right about that He did put everything he had into loving Marissa but he wondered if that was enough to try again?
Or would she even want it? Was that awkwardness last night just that? or did Marissa still feel it?
He didn't know but he knew he had to eventually find out. He called her but it went to straight to voice mail so he hung up.
Meanwhile At Summers. "Okay Coop so what's with the early wake up call?" She said. "Ryan knows about the ring tone" She said. "So you should listen to his you'd be surprised" She said sarcastically.
"I heard it last night" She said. "So what's the problem?" Summer said. "He also knows about the house" she said. "Did he get all Atwood and freak out on you?" She said.
"No he was cool about it actually" Marissa said remembering it. "So I don't understand your freak out here" She said. Marissa looked at her. Summer waited for her to talk. "It was totally awkward yesterday" she said throwing herself back on Summer's bed.
"Well that's to be expected I mean you guys did just throw yourself into this again" she said. "It was more than weird. There was tension" She said. "What do you mean?" Summer said.
"What I mean is if I didn't get out of there last night it's possible I might of made a fool of myself and try to kiss him or something" She said loudly jumping up. Summer laughed. "Summer that's not funny" Marissa said. "I'm sorry Coop I just don't see the problem" She said.
"Come on Summer this is Ryan here" She said. "Yeah the one love of your life Ryan" She said. "It's different now" She said. "You so sure about that Coop?" Summer said. Marissa didn't answer.
"Okay ask yourself this if things are as you say different now then why are you freaking out so much?" She said.
Marissa looked at her and nodded knowing that she had to figure out exactly what she felt about Ryan and about them.
That morning Summer was in the store having just opened. She didn't look up to see the potential customer. "So I heard this was a great place to shop" He said. She looked up and smiled.
"Unfortunately the designer only has a line out for women" She said with a smile. "Well just my luck" He said sarcastically. "Hey Seth" She said with a smile.
"So I'm here this time in the day and I just want you to know that it's awesome. It has a very Summer look to it" he said. "Well it should I am the designer" She said joking with a smile.
"So you free for lunch?" He said. "Yeah I mean Coop already had her freak out so I'm free" She said grabbing her purse.
"Freak out?" He said. She followed him out. "Long story" She said. "Isn't that how it goes in New Port" He said joking.
He pulled up in the range rover he figured this was the best place if there was any to figure out just what was going on. He didn't expect to find her capturing pictures of the lifeguard station.
Their lifeguard station.
Well if this wasn't fate kicking him in the ass. He walked to meet her. She thought about how this was the one place she could always feel like she could think about things and then she got to thinking that as much as it had been apart of her life she had never photographed it.
She started clicking away. He watched for a little while before coming over. "You really need a photo of it I've been here so many times I can picture it in my mind" He said. She didn't need to look up she knew who it was.
"No, but it helps me think so I figured it couldn't hurt" She said. "Thinking seems to be pretty popular today" he said. She listened. "Thanks for the picture" She turned to look at him. "I'm sorry about leaving so quickly last night it's just she didn't know how to finish the sentence.
She wanted to be honest she just didn't know if he was ready to hear it. "Was getting pretty tense" He said not looking at her. "And it felt like again she couldn't finish her thoughts what was with her today? "Like we are about too Now he couldn't finish.
"Kiss yeah" She said. He nodded. "Well I mean would that be such a horrible thing if we did?" He said waiting for an answer. "Are you saying it wouldn't be horrible?" She said.
"That's not an answer" Ryan pointed out. "Well I didn't get one from you either" She said. "Marissa this friend's thing isn't working" He said. She looked at him assuming the worst. "Well it couldn't last forever right" She said sadly.
"It's just that for me it's never been possible to be just friends with you" He said honestly. She looked at him. "Even now" He said. "I know" She said.
"So either we figure out what we want She interrupted "Or we say goodbye forever" Marissa said looking at him. He looked at her sadly. "It's what it comes down too" he said. She nodded.
He went to walk away he needed to know how she felt but he had to give her some time. "And what if I said what I wanted was you?" She said turning to watch him walk away. He stopped and turned back walking over to her.
"Well then I would have to say you were right about it being the first thing I ever put my heart and soul into" He said. She looked at him confused.
"The back of the picture" He said. "I know what it said" She said. "However the subject in front of the lens wasn't the first thing. The person behind the lens was" he said.
Marisas smiled sadly and he took his chance and leaned in to kiss her only to find her kissing him back just as much.
He jumped being jolted from his dream. Ryan looked around and noticed he was in the pool house alone.
He wiped his face with his hands and fell back against the bed and threw a pillow over is face.
"Get a grip Atwood" He said to himself. He jumped out of bed he was done sleeping for the day.