What Is Darkness

Chapter 1

PendragonU A/N: Hello again. This is my chapter, so to the misfortune of the reader, Oni-Gil will not be making her true appearance until the second chapter. cries But be of good cheer, her chapter will be long (hopefully) and much better than any of mine. So, with love I gift you all with chapter one. Enjoy, review and WORSHIP THE SAIX!!!!!!!! SAIX IS THE MASTER OF ALL!!!!!! IF YOU DO NOT WORSHIP THE SAIX AND REVIEW, HE WILL EAT YOUR UNDERWEAR. ROSES ARE RED VIOLETS ARE BLUE, ME NO OWN SO YOU NO SUE!!!

Saix: O.O…please review…I don't like underwear…they taste ewww.

Xemnas: You don't seem to mind mine Number VII, you shred them on a regular basis.

Saix: Yes.grins evilly Because that means you aren't wearing them and then I can molest you easier.

Xemnas: blushes

PendragonU: O.O falls over with a nosebleed kawaii! Xemnas looking like a proper uke bishie! grabs both and runs off to make them have hot mansex so she can write about it.

Saix quietly slipped through the halls of Never Was. He was headed towards his quarters with a certain slow pace that belied his inner desire to rush to his rooms. He knew that it was dangerous to have the items that Vexen left for him, and he did not want to encounter any of the others in the halls. The Luna Diviner turned down the hall that housed his rooms hoping to make it into his sanctuary without encountering another nobody.

"Saix." Luck was not with him this night. Saix turned and acknowledged the other standing behind him.

"Number II. What is it that you need?" Xigbar looked at Saix with a sort of sadness. It was the same sort of sadness that any member of the Organization wore when any of their number ceased to have some sort of existence. His eye rested on the two books settled in Saix's arms. The sadness grew a little deeper.

"It's true then. Vexen's gone." The sharpshooter's mouth twisted and his demeanor changed. He was usually one of those nobodies that could easily give the appearance of having a heart, because he always seemed to be laughing. That disappeared as soon as he observed the books. "I suppose you were the one to go get his affects then." Saix nodded. He wanted to run. He was terrified that the other would ask about the books.

"If that is all…I must be going. I have things that that I must be doing." Xigbar nodded and turned away. Saix hesitated before turning back to the other.

"If it is any consolation, he didn't suffer. He also made one of the biggest scientific breakthroughs known to history. He had our equivalent of happiness. For a time at least." Xigabr paused and took a deep breath.

"Thanks. I'll pass that on to Xaldin…he, Xemnas and myself are all that is left of the original six. Most of Ansem's apprentices are dead…" The gun wielding nobody opened a portal and disappeared in the darkness. Saix sighed. He knew that he should feel remorse or pity for the other man but all he could "feel" was relief that he hadn't been caught. Saix quietly finished his walk to his quarters and he opened the doors. Once inside he heaved a sigh of relief.

He carefully locked his doors and put up a warning barrier. This way he would have at least a few seconds warning before anyone opened a portal into his room. He then moved to sit and placed the books on the desk that was located next to his bed... Saix sighed and pulled the letter from his coat pocket. He opened the letter and sat on the edge of his bed.

Saix,

If this letter is in your hands, what appears to be my death has occurred. Take heart (pun intended) and do not feel what we call grief. I am not dead. I have discovered a way to escape the trap of the Organization. I have escaped and found a way for others to do so as well. I am in a safe haven with three others who have chosen freedom. Lexeus, Zexion and Marluxia are alive and well; they chose to live and stay in this place with me. I have created a loophole for those who are killed in battle, the card that bears my image and the essence of my power has the ability to restore life to those who have fallen. It well may be that I will not see you again because I do not know how much in thrall you are to Xemnas and if you will choose life and freedom when the time comes. I want you to know that I have hope that you will.

I know that my existence will be less enriched if I lack your presence and friendship in my life. I also want you to know something that it a secret from even the ones who live with me now. I have regained my heart. I do not yet know how. All that I know is that when I realized that I might never see you again, I cried genuine tears without having to think of emotion. I felt saddened by the thought that the others that I called my friends might also choose to stay a part of the Organization.

I pray you; do not become blinded by Xemnas's promise of a new heart. There are other ways to gain a heart that do not require the slaughter of innocents…that do not require the use of cursed darkness. I have a heart once more and as soon as I figure out how I obtained it I will share my knowledge with all of the rest of the nobodies in the Organization; I will tell you how to feel again. If you believe in my words, I would ask a boon of you.

Give my research to Sora and all of those who fight on the side of light. The knowledge in my book may be crucial for them to win against darkness. I know that this seems a completely asinine request, because it bears great danger for you and I am safe. I would do it myself but I must not let Xemnas know that I still live and he must not know where I am. I cannot compromise the other three, or the haven that we all share. I must also say that you do not have to do it. If you are unwilling to do this, share my words with Xaldin and Xigbar. One of them may take up the task. Please my friend, protect this knowledge and only share it with them. Tell no one else that I am alive. I beg of you.

I know that what I ask of you brings danger into your existence. I am sorry to give such a burden to you but you were the only one that I believed could reach. Saix, please, don't follow Xemnas and don't give into the dark ways that he shows you. I want to see you live my friend; I want to see you regain your heart.

Vexen, The Chilly Academic

Saix stared at the letter in his hands. The words seemed to ring in his ears as he recalled the sound of Vexens' voice. He could almost hear his friend saying 'I have regained my heart.' It was strangely enough not a surprise to Saix that Vexen was the first to get a heart. Saix let out the breath he had been subconsciously holding. Vexen was alive.

Saix wished that he could truly feel the joyful remnant that seemed to warm his entire body. His friend had not died at Castle Oblivion; he had not fallen to Axels' chakrams. The momentary relief left Saix the moment he considered the task Vexen had asked him to do. The Luna Diviner frowned and wondered how in the hell he was going to be able to get Vexens' research to Sora. Saix honestly had no idea.

"Well, I bet Xaldin and Xigbar might have an idea…" Saix smiled and realized that he was going to need their help if he was going to get the book into the right hands. "So, I have an appointment with a sharpshooter and a dragoon. Wonderful." Saix sighed. Now he was talking to himself. "When I see you Vexen, you had better thank me. I'll get your book to Sora, and to the Mouse King. I will get this task done."

Heehee! I have a little interesting fact for all of you. The letters M-A-X-N-E-S are found in two words with linked meaning. MANSEX and XEMNAS. GET IT? XEMNAS HAS MANSEX! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! (note to self and all others who would care to remind me, NO drinking vault when writing fan fiction.) Yeah I know the ending was kinda crappy. Sorry folks. Please review.