***Hey are y'all out there...I know I have pissed off a couple of you lol...some of you don't like my Mercedes lol...anyway the song that inspired this chapter is Blackstreet Never Gonna Let You Go...go check it on youtube. let me give some shout outs:
KrazyKay-You've been reading girl...thanks for your reviews on each chapter lol I can see the emotional rollercoaster that you go thru as you read lol
Lamimi-Girl yes I so thru with canon Sue and Sue in this fanfic lol but I had fun writing 1/16th black Finn it was entertaining
Chordover- girl thanks for all your fangirling i love it
Dayja- It's Joan not Mary lol
Samcedes85-thanks for catching up. And at least someone doesn't hate mercedes. and yes I think it's time mercedes does the running.
MsLady- thanks for the historical lesson I really pulled the 1/16th black thing out my ass I really don't know it was something ppl actually did.
Triple-sorry :( hope I can make it up to you.
Song used at reception/wedding- Shania Twain-From this moment on
"Girl, what are you doing? Are you dressed or whatever?" Unique asked once Mercedes answered her phone. Mercedes looked at herself and then back to Finn as he walked over to a confessional.
"Yeah I'm dressed. You know the camera crew is here." She reminded her friend. "So I have to pretend that I chill around the house in a maxi dress when in reality I usually parade around in my jammies."
"Girl, who you telling?" Unique laughed. "Well I am almost in front of your house and I have a place to take you. I am going to rescue you from this craziness and get you back to where you want to be."
"What are you talking about, Unique? Where are you taking me?" Mercedes asked rolling her eyes as one of the cameramen came running her way.
"I will tell you on the way. Come outside." Unique replied before hanging up the phone. Mercedes went to her coat closet and grabbed her jacket and then turned to the cameraman.
"I am leaving so you can stop filming me now." She looked over to Finn and then back at the cameraman as he continued to film. "Um…did you not hear me?"
"Sorry, Dr. Jones but I have to follow you wherever you go." He whispered and continued to film her. She rolled her eyes and walked towards the door. She sauntered out and gave Unique a look that says "girl I know" as the cameraman followed closely behind.
"Oh so he's coming along for the ride?" Unique asked once Mercedes entered inside of her car. "This just got even more interesting then." Unique winked at the camera and blew a kiss before pulling out of the driveway.
"Okay, so can you tell me what's going on or do we need to talk in code?" Mercedes asked looking over at her friend.
"No Unique does not do code!" She said snapping her fingers. Mercedes giggled as Unique started talking. "Alright, now do you remember when I was transitioning a few years back?" she asked glancing over every once and a while to see if she was nodding. "Cool, now you remember how I was struggling with it all with my parents not accepting me and my choice and all?" she glanced again and smiled as Mercedes nodded remembering the crazy ordeal in high school. "Remember how there was that coach that helped me with all of that?"
"Yeah…what was her name again? Coach Beiste, right?"
"Yeah, well she later went through her own transition and goes by coach Sheldon now." She continued to explain. Mercedes wasn't sure where all this was going or how any of this was going to help her but Coach Beiste was always nice to her in high school so she wanted to hear more about it.
"Oh wow! How is she doing?"
"Well she goes by he now and I went to see him earlier today and I was looking through his things, like I always do, and stumbled upon that book there." She pointed to what looked like a yearbook that was on the passenger side floor. Mercedes grabbed the book and flipped through it still not sure where this was going. "Well as I was flipping it I saw a name that stood out and Sheldon explained it all to me." She looked over at Mercedes and winked again. "Look at the bookmarked page and tell me if anything stands out to you." Mercedes eyed her suspiciously and flipped through the pages until she found the bookmarked page and paused as her eyes fell on a dark haired man that looked slightly familiar and his picture was circled.
"Am I supposed to know this man?" she asked looking over at Unique.
"Listen, Sheldon told me that back when he was Shannon they used to date but broke up because he wanted to be a woman. So that picture says Sylvester Sims, right?" she looked over at Mercedes and then back at the road waiting for Mercedes to piece everything together.
"Oh snap…wait a minute now…are you trying to tell me…"
"Girl yes I am! I didn't make the connection till she explained the story but the name is the only thing that made me double back and I really only seen one picture of that godforsaken woman named Sue."
"Unique, this is crazy!" Mercedes couldn't believe her eyes as she looked at a picture of a younger more masculine Sue Sylvester.
"Now, you know I am not one to throw someone out of the closet but she tried you girl so if she wants a fight we are about to give her one. And that's why I'm happy the cameraman is coming with us." Unique smiled.
"Girl she is going to flip!" Mercedes exclaimed. She turned back and looked at the camera and smiled. "Y'all won't be along much longer."
"We're here…let's go cause some damage!" Unique shouted gleefully as she parked in front of Sue Sylvester's firm. They all marched into the building and made their way through the security guards explaining they had an appointment with Sue about the show. The moment they found her office Mercedes couldn't hide the smile that stretched across her face.
"Dr. Badonkadonk! To what do I owe this honor? Not that it's an honor; to be honest I am already awaiting your departure." Sue smiled as she removed her glasses. "And who's this with you?"
"I am Unique and I am sure you are aware of the cameras that follows, right?" she gestured to the cameraman as he zoomed in on Sue.
"Back up there fella, I have a black belt in karate and a yellow belt in Ca-razy." Sue glared his way as he back up and placed the camera on Mercedes.
"Sue, I am here to negotiate the contract that I have with you concerning my need to be on the show with Finn Hudson. Effective immediately I will no longer be a part of the cast and all cameras shall be removed henceforth." She smiled as she watched Sue raise a brow at her and then laugh.
"And why in the world would I agree to something like that?"
"Well…tell me Sue…does the name Sylvester ring a bell?" Unique asked. Sue looked at her and shrugged then looked over at Mercedes.
"That's my last name."
"Well…what about Sims?" Mercedes asked as she dropped the yearbook on the desk and then crossed her arms. She smiled as the Sue's face turned pale and blue and then she glared at them.
"Where did you get that?"
"Does it matter Mr. Sims?" Mercedes asked smiling and batting her eyelashes at her. Sue looked over to the cameraman as he zoomed in on her. "Oh my apologies, its Ms. Sylvester now right?"
"Get that camera out of here right now!" Sue shouted getting up and grabbing the camera, crashing it to the ground. Her assistant Becky came running in as Sue began to throw random items around her room.
"So do we have a deal, Sylvester?" Mercedes asked as she watched Sue huff and puff. "Look Sue, your secret is safe with me. All I need you to do is call off the camera crew and cancel out my contract." Mercedes explained. Sue looked over at Becky and then at Unique as she smiled smugly and then she sighed and walked back over to her desk.
"Becky, bring me the Hudson file."
"Right away, sir! I mean ma'am…I'm sorry don't fire me." She pleads and ran out of the room leaving them alone again. The cameraman picked up his broken camera and left the room closing the door behind him.
"I guess you feel you've won, huh?" Sue asked looking at them as they smiled and nodded. "I have never allowed anyone to have a one up on me. You think I will just let you do this to me?" she asked looking at them.
"I don't care what you do after I leave here. I just want you to stay out of my life, my business and to leave Sam Evans alone or else this will be front page news." Mercedes threatened. She made sure to look Sue right in the eye to make her understand that she was not joking. Becky ran back in with the file as Sue began to prepare a new file.
"Effective immediately, Dr. Mercedes Jones is no longer a part of the cast." She spoke as she typed. Then she picked up her phone and called someone and stated the same to them. Mercedes could hear the person arguing and asking why but Sue repeated again and then hung up the phone. "Are you happy?"
"I will be." Mercedes replied as they walked out of her office.
They arrived back at her house to see the cameramen filing out of the house and a woman parking in her driveway in front of them. Mercedes was pretty sure the woman she saw was Sam's mother but she wasn't too sure. Unique parked the car and then they all got out and approached her. The woman turned around and smiled when she saw Mercedes.
"Mrs. Evans? What are you doing here?" Mercedes asked as she ran up to her and gave her a big hug. She was happy to see her but she was wondering what was she doing that and if she was here where was Sam?
"I came by to see you and because Sam came up there without you. You know we can't do this reception without you gracing us with your voice." Joan stated smiling and then looking over at Unique.
"You came all this way just because you want me to sing for Stacy?" Mercedes asked suspiciously then noticed Unique standing by staring at them. "Oh excuse my rudeness; this is my best friend Unique. Unique this is Sam's mother, Joan."
"Nice to meet you Unique."
"Likewise. I have heard wonderful things about you." Unique stated as she hugged the woman. Joan looked over at Mercedes and smiled.
"All of it is true!" she beamed then frowned as Finn came walking out of the house. Mercedes rolled her eyes because she could tell he was upset.
"Mercedes, what the hell is going on?" Finn asked charging towards her.
"Finn, it's over! I quit and you can leave with the cameramen." She explained calmly. "Mrs. Evans, let's chat inside, okay?"
"Well we don't have much time. I really came to pick you up and take you back with me to Tennessee." Joan explained as they ignored Finn. "I know what happened with you and Sam…but I know things can be worked out if you both just see each other." Mercedes looked over at Unique and bit her bottom lip as she thought about this being her only chance to make things right with Sam and then looked at Joan and nodded. She knew Joan wasn't leaving unless Mercedes was going back with her.
"Wait a minute? You're leaving? What about our deal? Mercedes you know how much I need you." He whined as the cameramen continued to file out. "Wait, don't leave I can get her to change her mind. Woman get back over here, ya heard!"
"Shut that shit up, Finn! First off, you're not black so stop pretending to be! Bet you won't be black when a cop pulls you over! Bet you won't be black when it comes to our struggles! So stop trying to gain from it! Now if you don't excuse me…I'm on my way to Tennessee…" she looked over at Joan as she smiled. "…going to get my man back!" she walked past Finn and lead the way for the ladies to come in. "Give me a minute to get my dress and things."
"No problem." Joan smiled happily that her plan was working out so far. She silently prayed that Sam didn't get mad at her for going to get Mercedes.
"I will need to go with you all because Mercedes will need someone to get that hair right and that face beat." Unique announced. Mercedes laughed as she watched a painful expression cast on Joan's face. "Don't worry she will look beautiful for the reception."
Sam was exhausted when he and his father finally finished everything on the list. The reception was a few minutes from starting when he noticed his mother still hadn't return back from getting milk like his father said she was. Sam knew his father was lying but he really didn't have the energy to ask him more questions because deep down he felt his mother left because she was upset with him. He knew he disappointed her again but he knew he learned one thing (amongst multiple of things) that he learned dealing with Mercedes was that lying never solved anything. Letting his mother know the truth was sort of like a blessing in disguise. He didn't have to force love anymore. To be honest, he was completely done with love. At least those were his thoughts but deep down he was missing love. He was missing Mercedes and he hated that he wasn't over her yet.
"Penny for your thoughts?" he turned to find his brother and his pregnant girlfriend standing behind him smiling. Stevie had on his black and white tuxedo for the event and Dani was dressed in a maroon dress that Stacy had chosen for her bridesmaids to wear.
"You guys look great!" Sam exclaimed as he walked over and fixed Stevie's bowtie. "Where's dad?"
"Um…I think he's upstairs talking to Stacy." Stevie replied and then looked at his brother. "Are you going to be okay?"
"Yeah, of course, why not?" he lied and forced a smile as he looked at the two of them and then at Dani who was slightly showing. "Have you found out what you're having yet?"
"No…not yet but I will when I hit 20 weeks." She replied smiling and rubbing her tummy. Stevie smiled at his girlfriend and rubbed her belly as well then turned his gaze back to his brother. He could tell there was something still bothering Sam. He knew it had to do with his break up and Stevie hadn't seen Sam like this over a woman ever in his life.
"Sam…if you…"
"Oh hey, there's dad, let me go talk to him really quick before the ceremony starts." Sam said cutting him off and walking over to where his father was arranging seats for the guest that were coming. He was happy to see his dad because he was getting tired of Stevie looking at him as if he was a pitiful kid who lost their pup. "Dad, have you heard from mom yet?" Sam asked and noticed his father looking towards the door.
"She said she should be here any minute now…and to get started. Tell the guest they can come sit and we'll be starting in no time." Dwight replied looking once again at the door. "Oh and you should get over to the piano to play as she walks out. Sam sighed and went inside to advise the guest to come out and sit when he noticed his tablet. "You all can just go out there, we will be starting the ceremony shortly." He stated to them as he walked over to it and noticed it was dead and ran upstairs to charge it in his room. He was just about to turn it on when he heard his father calling his name to come out on the piano. He frowned and dropped the tablet allowing to charge and walked out of the room just as Ryder was walking down.
"Hey…" he smiled as they went down the steps. "I don't know why I'm nervous but my hands are sweating and I am starting to forget my vows and everything." Ryder confessed as he rubbed his hands together. Sam smiled and placed his hand on Ryder's shoulder.
"Look, it will all be over in a few minutes. Just chill and relax and remember you already married her." Sam laughed as they made their way down to where the wedding was supposed to take place outside.
"Wow, this looks really nice! My parents look like they like it too." Ryder stated smiling at the tent that covered the backyard and the decorations that Sam and his father both did. "Can't believe your mom let you both do this alone and you did it nicely."
"I can't either and can't wait to see the milk she brings back from this really long trip to the grocery store." Sam expressed. He left Ryder at the makeshift altar and walked over to the piano and began to play soft music for the guest. He smiled finally when he noticed his mother coming down the aisle with his father holding her hands. His father gave him a nod indicating for him to play the music that was placed before him. Sam switched to what was on the sheet music and then looked back at his mother. She looked beautiful in her light pink dress and her hair was up and away from her face. Sam wondered if that was what kept her busy and away from the preparations all day. Then Dani and Stevie walked out behind them and followed his parents before parting ways at the altar. Sam was so busy smiling at his mother that he didn't notice Unique walk out and take a seat and then Mercedes walked out holding a mic. He only noticed her because she opened her mouth and started to sing. He couldn't explain the feelings and emotions that went through him as he watched her walk down the aisle dressed in her maroon bridesmaid dress.
"From this moment life has begun…"she looked over at Sam and smiled as she walked down the aisle with the mic in hand. In her mind no one else was there but the two of them but she needed to focus because if she kept looking his way she wouldn't finish. "From this moment you are the one…right beside you is where I belong…from this moment on…" she looked over at Joan and smiled before standing on the opposite end of Sam and trying not to look his way as she sang for Stacy to walk out.
"From this moment, I have been blessed…I live only, for your happiness…" Stacy was already in tears as she walked out in her off white wedding dress approaching the altar where Ryder stood nervously smiling at his wife. "And for your love, I give my last breath…from this moment on…I give my hand to you with all my heart…I can't wait to live my life with you I can't wait to start…you and I will never be apart…my dreams came true because of you…" Mercedes stole a glance at Sam as he played the piano. He looked her way then back at his sister and smiled as she walked down the aisle. Sam couldn't understand what was going on but he didn't want to ruin his sister's moment. He looked to his mother and frowned. So that was what kept her away all day. His mother was relentless but he never thought she'd go this far.
"From this moment, as long as I live…I will love you, I promise you this…there is nothing, I wouldn't give from this moment on…you're the reason I believe in love…" Sam couldn't help but look her way as she sang. Her voice was penetrating his soul and he hated what it was doing to him. "And you're the answer to my prayers from up above…all we need is just the two of us…my dreams came true because of you…from this moment, as long as I live…I will…"
The rest of the ceremony was a blur for Sam as he kept trying to find anything to keep him from looking over at Mercedes. She was looking beautiful but he didn't want to acknowledge that. After Ryder and Stacy exchanged vows they allowed them to have their first dance where his mother sang for them. Sam sat on the opposite end just watching Mercedes as she talked to her friend Unique. She looked his way finally and it seemed as if she was heading his way. He was not ready to have that conversation with her. Not there. Not now, while his sister had her first dance. He got up and left his drinks and went up to his room leaving the party behind.
When he got up to his room he finally found the time to check his emails and see how everything was working out for him with Sig2. He was pretty sure that email he received had to have been from Brody and Artie. He turned on the tablet and accessed his email noticing one from Mercedes. He placed his finger on it ready to delete it. There was nothing that she had to say that he wanted to read. He was about to click delete when there was a knock on the door which caused him to look up. Instead of the email being deleted it opened up and he saw the first words.
"Sam….it's me, Mercedes." He heard her say from behind the door. He ignored her as he sat down and read the email. "I know you're in there, Sam. I can smell your cologne." Mercedes stated. It was a scent she could smell from a mile away. She jiggled the doorknob and then leaned on the door when she realized that he locked it. "I came all this way because I feel we needed to talk." She sighed and jiggled the doorknob again. "Sam, can you please open…" she paused when she heard it unlock. She took a deep breath and turned the knob before entering the room and noticed he was standing near the window looking out to where his family was dancing up a storm.
"You wanted to talk?" he asked without turning his back to her. She was a bit shocked to see that he wasn't happy to see her. She was thinking that they would run to each other in and everything would be great.
"Um…yeah I just wanted to apologize for the way I handled things. I'm not sure if you read the email…"
"Yeah I read it, so?" he shocked as he turned and glared at her. She was confused because the letter was heartfelt and explained the sacrifice she made for the both of them.
"Well, thought maybe you'd be a tad bit grateful for what I did for you."
"I never asked you to do that for me. What I did ask you to do is the one thing you didn't." he shook his head. "All you had to do was tell me and I would have handled all of it."
"Sam, you worked really hard on Sig2 and I didn't want to be the reason you lost everything you worked hard for..."
"Mercedes, do you understand what you did to me? You made me love you and then broke my heart."
"Not intentionally…"
"You made me question love again…"
"I'm sorry." She stated. This wasn't at all how she envisioned all of this to go down at all. She wanted to turn and run out of there but she knew that Sam was definitely too hurt at this point. She had to fight for him. She was going to have to do whatever it took to get them back where they were.
"Whatever…it doesn't matter…even if you did love me…how can I even trust you?" he asked.
"I do love you, Sam! And I know you still love me…I can see it in your eyes. Even though you're upset with me I know you still love me."
"I am not capable of loving anyone." Sam replied looking at her. She almost believed him for a second but then she saw it again in his eyes. Love was still there. She walked over to him and decided to do what he did to her the last time they were upset with each other. She stared into his eyes and leaned up kissing him. He didn't kiss her back but he didn't move away either. After a couple pecks he kissed her back then stopped. "Mercedes...don't..." He stepped back and looked at her as she stepped closer to him again and kissed him.
"I'm sorry for whatever I did to you." She said softly in between kisses. Almost as if a bell rang in Sam's head he pushed her away lightly. He just couldn't take the chance of being hurt again. If she could let something so simple get between them how can he trust that it won't happen again. "I really thought I was helping you, Sam." She said as her eyes filled with tears. She bit her bottom lip and nodded before turning away and walking to the door. Sam looked up to the ceiling as if begging God for strength to stop him from letting her walk out that door. He knew if she left he would never get her back again.
"Red light!" he shouted and watched as she froze. "Red light." He repeated again. She turned and looked up at him smiling before walking back towards him. He met her half way pulling her in and kissing her tenderly as he wiped the tears that cascaded down her cheeks, and then placed his forehead on hers. She held onto his hands and licked her lips as tears continued to fall from her eyes.
"I'm never going to let you go again." She whispered softly before they kissed once more.