Sam POV

Well today sucks ass. As soon as Jesse appeared Rachel dropped me like it was nothing. Its not like I loved her or anything, but we were in a relationship or whatever you want to call it. Although it wasn't a relationship just more like friends kissing each other. Honestly it felt like kissing my sister; with Mercedes it was more than that. When we kissed sparks flew and we created this strong electricity. I wonder what she's doing for valentines day; maybe she's spending it with that christian rocker guy whatever he is. Well let's just see shall we I thought as i picked up my phone and scrolled through to find her in my contacts, before I could press the call button I stopped. Images flashed through my mind.

Flashback

"Sam what are you doing? Honey its 3 in the morning." Ms. Hudson-hummel said. I put down the brush and turned slightly to face her.

"I'm working on a gift for someone." I said smiling shyly turning back around to finish. She sits next to me and watches me for a minute.

"Let me guess Mercedes." I nod and smiled.

"Yes, she is very special and well-worth it." I said proudly painting the last crease. I sit the now painted Saint Valentine down gently.

"Well she's going to love it. I would love it too if a guy stayed up all night painting a statue for me I wouldn't let him go."

"Yeah I hope so." I said standing cracking the window and placing the statue on the windowsill so that it can finish drying.

"I'm rooting for you sweetie. Goodnight make sure you get some rest." Carole said kissing my forehead before heading upstairs. After I finished putting everything away I headed to my room for some rest, but I couldn't sleep because I was so excited to give her this gift. It's not much, but its the thought that counts and she loves this type of stuff I believe.

I didn't sleep at all I just stared at the ceiling until the alarm clock went off, but its no biggie. I'm actually pretty nervous even though I shouldn't be. This is Mercedes the girl you love so just do it. I see her standing at her locker exchanging things in and out. I smile and tap her on the opposite shoulder to throw her off. She turns to look and see no one there then she turns my way. Of course I shine my big pearly whites. I hand her the box and she opens it giving a small smile that didn't quite reach her lips. I told her that it was a wiseman, but I painted to make it look like St. Valentine. Then thats when everything just went south completely; she told Shane about us and I thought that was a good thing because we could be together now. I guess that wasn't the case.

""What we did what I did to shane was wrong. I lied, I cheated, and it makes me feel awful, and I love, but being with just reminds me of that; that I'm not the person that I trout I was." She said. What that's not true I thought.

"We would never do that to each other." I replied a little hurt that she would assume that.

"I thought that I'd never do that to Shane. But I have to face the truth. When it comes to love, I don't know who I am, and until I find out, I can't be with anyone." Mercedes why.

"I-I can't be with you." She said trying to hand me the gift back. I walked away I couldn't stand there for another minute . What makes matters even worse she sung a song telling me goodbye, but she stills love me. That hurt me so much and I had to get out of there. I walked home and saw Carole's car there. Walking in the house she see's me and hurries over to me.

"Sam are you okay. What happened?" She asked embracing me.

"I want to ha-ate her so much, but I-I.. can't." I choked out and continued to cry into Mrs. Carole shoulder.

End of Flashback.

My vision blurs at the memory. I place my phone back on the table. Another Valentines day without her. Standing up I go to the window and stare out at the night sky placing my hand on the glass.

"Happy Valentines Cedes." I said softly allowing the tears to flow.