Mercedes POV

Mercedes Jones the beautiful, curvaceous, sassy black chick with no Valentine. How did I not see that coming honestly? Sure I went out with two people barely, because I wasn't that invested in it. I've tried moving on, but its not working: I'm too hung up on Sam to move on. Even though once again he dated one of my suppose to be friends that dropped him on his ass as soon as Jesse came back in town. Some girlfriend she is or was I should say. I would say he deserved it, but I can't because he didn't honestly he's too sweet and fragile. Wow I had that feeling that they wouldn't last long like seriously why did people point out the flaws in Sam and I relationship. What made Rachel so better?Get it together no need to worry about Rachel, but Karma is a bitch though. I wonder how Sam is feeling after all of this maybe I should check on him. Getting off the couch I head to my room to grab my phone. I pick up my phone instantly finding Sam's number, but I stop my fingers in mid air from pressing the call button. I start to think about our last Valentines day that did not go to well.

Flashback

After what Quinn said I literally took that to heart. I had to tell Shane there was no way around that. Allowing myself to hurt another human being was shameful and I could never forgive myself for that. Seeing Shane cry killed me and made me feel like a totally didn't person. He treated me with so much respect and made me see somethings more clearer than I ever thought I could. Not to mention he filled that void and loneliness when Sam left. I was starting to actually starting to fall in love with Shane or at least I thought I was. Everything was fine I was finally starting to be happy and accepting that Sam was gone and never coming back, but that took a turn for the worst. Every since he came back I knew I was going to be in a world of trouble. The flirty smiles, googly eyes, soft touches here and there, the wooing, and the worst of them all the kiss. The kiss that had me mentally beating myself up and wanting me to tear my hair out. I was standing at my locker getting ready for glee and I feel a tap on my shoulder and no one was there and I turn the other way and he was there smiling that smile that always makes me so weak in the knees; he extend his hand out to give me a gift. I open the box and give a small smile. I told him I told Shane about what happened between us, because i didn't want him to be blindsided if Shane decided to confront, but I knew he wouldn't. For a moment he thought that it was okay for us to be together but it wasn't not like this.

"Whoa." He said looking confused as I pushed him slightly on the chest. I shake my head.

"What we did what I did to shane was wrong. I lied I cheated, and it makes me feel awful, and I love you, but being with you just reminds me that that I'm not the person I thought I was." I wasn't that person.

"We would never do that to each other." Yeah, but we did to an innocent person Sam. I thought

"I thought I'd never do that to Shane. But I have to face the truth. When it comes to love, I don't know who I am, and until I find out, I can't be with anyone." I looked him directly in the eye's.

"I-I can't be with you." It broke me because it hurted saying that to him. And he just walk away glancing back briefly. I practically blamed him for my infidelity when I knew it was my choice. Later that night I could not stop crying for the life of me. I brought this on myself and I have to live with it.

End of Flashback

My mouth begins to tremble thinking of that dreaded day. I broke his heart and it kills me inside still till this day. Once again we aren't together on Valentines Day.I sit my phone down and walk over to my window placing my hand on the glass.

"Happy Valentines Day Sammy." I said softly as single tear escaped my eye.