He's my son

Chapter six

Sam sighed, he was starting to get sleepy again but he needed to stay awake until the doctor came in to talk to them about treatment options. He glanced over at Dean, who was sleeping in the chair next to the bed. He had tried to get his brother to leave but Dean being stubborn refused to leave his side.

Sam was terrified about the news that had been given to him. he wondered how he would be able to get treatment when they lived on the road the majority of the time. Their dad had said he had found a small house close to the hospital, and a job working as a mechanic but Sam wasn't sure how long it would last. Eventually he knew John would want to pick up where they left off, and he wondered where that left him. Would John just dump him someplace and leave him to go through treatment alone? Sam wasn't sure and it made him afraid for the future. Then again if Dean had anything to say about it, Sam wouldn't be alone at all for the next however long it took to get him into remission.

As if sensing Sam's dark thoughts John looked up from his magazine. He hated seeing the doubt and fear in his youngest son's eyes. But he knew it was his fault that it was there to begin with.

"I will not leave you alone Sam" John said gently unsure about how to proceed with the situation. Dean had always been better at this then he was. "this is probably going to be one of the hardest things you have to do, I won't abandon you."

"I'm scared" Sam said "I already just want it over with. I'm already dreading whatever treatment option their working on. I'm already the weird person at school; cancer's just going to make it much worse for me."

"If they think you're weird it's because they haven't taken the time to get to know you" John said "if they had they would love you just as much as Dean and I do."

"Cancer is just another bump in the road" Dean said opening his eyes and looking over at Sam "It's going to slow you down but it's not going to stop you."

Sam gave a small smile, he was glad he had both John and Dean at his side. Even if John did tend to give him hell, Sam was glad he had his support.

Ten minutes later a small knock was heard on the door. A few seconds later Dr. Luttrell walked through the door. Sam swallowed hard. The moment he had been dreading was finally here.

"Hi Sam how are you feeling?" Dr. Luttrell asked

"Not too bad right now" Sam replied "My hip still hurts but it's not that bad."

"That's good. Dean and your father told you about your diagnosis?" she asked. Sam nodded.

"You understand it's not necessarily a death sentence. Many people have been diagnosed with Leukemia and have survived."

"Many have died from it too" Sam spoke quietly.

"That's true sometimes the treatment works for a while and then quits. We have no reason to believe that treatment won't work for you. We were able to catch it in the early stage which is always a good thing."

"When are we going to start?" Sam asked "I'm not looking forward to it, but as long as my families by my side I'm going to try my hardest to beat it."

"As soon as possible" Dr. Luttrell said "we don't want it to have too much of a head start."

"What if chemotherapy doesn't work?" Sam asked voicing his thoughts, he had heard about the drugs failing.

"We can try a bone marrow transplant" Dr. Luttrell said "we can take some bone marrow from a match preferably a sibling" she said looking over at Dean.

"Don't have to ask me twice" Dean said "I'll do whatever you need me too."

"We basically replace the cells that are destroyed by the cancer and the treatment." Andrea replied "but let's cross that bridge when we get to it."

"The chemotherapy will make me sick?" Sam asked though he already knew the answer.

"Yes, for the good it does against the cancer, it wreaks hell against the body and immune system." Dr. Luttrell replied. "it will cause vomiting, sores in your mouth, it'll be hard to eat, and to keep food down, but keep in mind you need to eat. Things like a normal cold can put you in the ICU, so really avoid people who are sick; it could kill you if you don't. Sam scowled the more symptoms she described the more he hated the disease.

"Will I lose my hair?" Sam asked.

"Most likely" Andrea said "most people do but a few get lucky and don't."
"I can't wait to start" Sam said "the side effects are worse then the actual disease."

"Just think you can get through the side effects but if you don't have treatment the disease will kill you." She said, hoping the young boy didn't refuse treatment.

"If I refused how long would I have?" Sam knowing full well he would face the treatment head on for his family. He couldn't just refuse to not get treatment and then force his family to watch him die, he wasn't heartless.

"Less than a year, depending on how fast the cancer spreads" she said.

"I'm not planning on refusing treatment just so you know" Sam said when he caught the look Dean was sending him. "I'm not stupid I do want to live."

"That's a relief" Dean muttered relaxing now that he knew his little brother was willing to fight. "Like I said earlier I am not willing to let you go."

John sighed this situation was growing harder by the moment. He wished that Sam didn't have to go through any of this, he didn't deserve it. Why was it the best of people tended to suffer the most? John figured he would probably never understand it. one thing was certain Sam wasn't going to suffer alone, John would do whatever he could to ease his son's pain.

"Will I have to stay in the hospital?" Sam asked suddenly afraid that he would have to be separated from John and Dean.

"For the first couple of weeks, but once we get you adjusted to chemo we will let you go home as long as you are aware of the things that can make you sick." Dr. Luttrell said. "Which we are going to start chemo tomorrow so we can hopefully get your home soon."

"Joy" was all Sam said.

This chapter kinda sucked I tried to find a specific drug to battle leukemia but I couldn't find anything. So just bare with me. Thanks for reading and reviewing. Liz