He's my son chapter 16
Sam drifted off to sleep slowly in John's arms, when he was completely asleep, John slid out from underneath him, laying him down gently and covering him up.
"He's going to have a hard time with chemo" Fayelynn commented as she crawled back into her own bed.
"He already does" Dean agreed though he wished it wasn't so. He hated seeing his brother suffering so much, it made him feel helpless and Dean Winchester did not do helpless in any way shape or form. It wasn't in his nature, which was to protect Sam at all cost not matter what the cost was to him.
Fayelynn sat quietly for a little while appearing to be lost in thought. She had sensed certain loneliness from Sam, even though he was surrounded by people that loved him. She wondered why that was, after he seemed like a nice kid who should have lots of friends. Unless he was shy and didn't make friends easy which couldn't have been because she felt like they were friends already, and they had been talking from his arrival in the room earlier. So he couldn't be too shy.
"Time to go run some tests" Jackie said as she entered the room again only this time she went to Fayelynn's side of the room.
"I guess we should try to find out how bad it is and see how treatable it is" she said "although I know I'm going to beat it. It just might take a little while." Her mother smiled. She couldn't love her brave little girl any more than she did now.
"Be back in a little while" Fayelynn said climbing out of her bed and sitting in the wheelchair that Jackie was pushing. Once Fayelynn was out of the room, Mark and his wife took Faith and went to get something to eat.
John was watching Sam sleep; for once his son looked like he was getting a peaceful rest. He couldn't remember the last time he had seen peace on his youngest son's face. Of course considering what John did for a living, it was only natural peace just didn't exist. Of course in light of what had been going on for the last few weeks John was determined he was going to do his best to change that. If Sam lost this fight, John didn't want him to go thinking about the hell that had been his childhood. And hell it must have been, since John had never really let Sam be the kid he was. That was all going to change; from now on his boys would know just how much they meant to him.
"Earth to John" A voice said and a hand waved in front of his eyes. John scowled as he finally looked up at Caleb.
"About time you woke your ass up" Caleb chuckled before asking if he wanted any coffee.
"No I do not, and do that again and see if I don't knock your ass out." Caleb laughed as he walked out the door.
"He's incorrigible" John muttered once Caleb was out of ear shot.
"Just like Dean" Jim commented moving out of the way of Dean's hands.
"Why don't you let Sam get some sleep while he can" Bobby pointed out from where he sat. "This last session was pretty rough on him and he's going to need his strength for the next one."
"The old buzzard has a point" Dean admitted ducking out of reach of Bobby's swatting hat. John rolled his eyes and turned back to Sam. the kid was still pale and what was left of his hair was matted in sweat. It didn't seem fair to him that someone so innocent should have to suffer so much.
"It rains on the just and unjust alike" Jim said as if sensing what John was thinking. "Nobody gets out of going through the storms but if you weather them, eventually you come out of them stronger than you were before."
That made sense to John even if he didn't always agree with Jim on certain matters. He turned to ask Jim something when Sam started talking.
"Don't leave me alone, Please I don't want to be alone….DAD!" Sam cried out the terror in his voice striking John right through the heart. He jumped to his feet and gently shook Sam awake.
"You're okay now kiddo" John said softly.
"Don't leave me alone okay?" Sam asked terrified that his father was going to leave him in the hospital and continue hunting.
"Never" John stated firmly "Not while you are in here, not while you have cancer" Sam nodded but the fear was still in his eyes. John frowned unsure of how to reassure Sam that he wasn't going anywhere.
"Scoot over" he told Sam who promptly done as he was asked. John lay down on the bed beside Sam and pulled him towards him.
"I'll be here all night you don't have to worry" John said softly. Sam nodded and closed his eyes again and slowly drifted off. John was watching Sam sleep until he heard a low chuckle coming from his oldest son.
"What the hell's your problem?" John demanded.
"You're cuddling with Sam that's what" Dean said. John shrugged.
"It's not like you don't do it, you're forever sneaking in hear when you're not supposed too."
"I'm his brother it's my job to protect him" Dean said, John shook his head. He really had placed too much responsibility on his eldest shoulders.
"No, it should have been my job from the start, I just lost track of it for a little while." John frowning "I won't be losing track of my priorities from now on." The talking went on for a few more minutes and the door opened and Fayelynn was rolled back into the room, her family followed behind, her mother's eyes were red as if from crying. John had the distinct feeling that they were given some very bad news.
Okay guys hope you like it, but don't blame you if you don't. thanks for reading and reviewing anyways and the I probably won't be updating as much do the fact that I am starting work on my first novel but hopefully I'll still be able to handle both without too much stress. Thanks for being patient. Liz