Me: Hey Alice take me shopping?
Alice: No!
Me: Pouting Please???
Esme: Yelling Alice take the dear girl shopping!
Alice Yelling back Yes mom!... Under her breath to me But you still don't own me…
Me: Darn… I don't… But we still get to go shopping, Yay!!! Happy dance!
Sorry it took so long to update, I think my professors conspired against me these past few weeks… I would tell you that it won't happen again, but it unavoidably will…
I stood in the bathroom for a few more minutes trying to compose myself and then I walked out once again ready to take on the world.
Chapter 7
BPOV:
The rest of the premiere went by in a blur, mainly because I kept glancing around the theater hoping to catch a glance of my angel and also because I was giving Mike the cold shoulder so much that he didn't even try to talk to me for the majority of the night. Come to think of it the only words he spoke to me after I blew up at him were to tell me good-night when he delivered me to my front-door. I quickly unlocked the door, "Good-night Mike". I stepped inside my house and shut the door in his face.
I ran up to my room at top speed and threw myself on my bed, smashing my face into the pillow and then I screamed letting all of my emotions out. Deep sobs started to wrack my body, "Oh Edward, can't you see I love you? Can't you see that without you I'm truly dead?" I hugged my knees to my chest and rocked back and forth trying to calm myself, "Oh Edward where are you?"
By the time I was able to calm myself the sun was starting to shine through my bedroom window. I was started to feel the burning in the back of my throat but then I realized that it had been a whole month since I had drunken anything (one of Bella's gifts is that she doesn't need to rely on blood for all of her nutrition, she can eat people food also). I made the resolve to get ready for my day and then to feed. As I made this resolve I had to chuckle to myself, 'I don't think this is what humans meant when they invented the concept of breakfast.'
After I was dressed and ready for the day I walked quickly down the stairs into my gigantic kitchen, opened up the huge fridge, and took out a small container of animal blood and quickly gulped it down. I took the container over to the sink and washed it out, the only problem was that as I was doing so the smell of the blood over powered me and I fainted.
EPOV:
After Bella walked away I wanted to kick myself, 'how could my beautiful angel actually believe what I said?' I was utterly stunned and her scent still lingered around me not helping the problem at all.
After standing statue still for a few moments I looked up to see the bathroom door close and then a minute later Alice appeared in the hallway, "Edward! What happened?" I quickly re-told the story and then I begged Alice to go check on my angel. Of course she willingly agreed- she didn't like to see Bella in pain anymore then I did. As she turned down the hall she spoke again, "Oh Edward I'll keep my mind open if you want to know what is being said."
"Alice you're the best sister anyone could ever ask for!"
"I know" she turned and smirked at me and then sauntered off into the bathroom.
I sagged against the nearest wall waiting for the conversation to start and it didn't take but a second.
"Bella?"
"Oh Alice I let him leave again…"
"Alice, I've ruined everything! I need him so much but I just don't know where we fit anymore and next week we start auditioning for my new movie. Oh Alice what do I do?"
"Well Bella if you truly are meant to be together, as we all know you are- love will find a way. Come on Bella let's get you back, I expect your date is getting anxious."
I froze I wasn't sure I wanted to hear about her date but Alice's projection of their discussion broke through the barrier I had put up.
"Oh Alice don't worry about Mike…"
"Oh I'm not worried, I saw you hit him with your purse after he kissed you. I just wanted to see your reaction."
I chuckled to myself now that's more like my Bella hitting a guy with her purse.
"Alice? Could you do me a favor?"
"Of course Bella, you know I will do anything for you."
"Could you give this to Edward?"
I strained my mind willing Alice to say what she was giving her but no such luck.
"Oh Alice, it was so good to see you again!"
I froze when the bathroom door swung open praying that Bella wouldn't catch me eavesdropping on Alice's and her conversation, I let out a sigh of relief seeing that it was Alice exiting the bathroom but that relief was quickly squashed by Alice, "Edward hurry we need to go somewhere so Bella doesn't see us when she walks out!"
Alice pulled me towards the end of the hall and out a side door, "This should be good enough of a place."
Alice then took something out of her clutch, "Bella asked me to give this to you, and I won't explain the rest because you know what was said."
I opened the letter greedily and read:
My dear sweet Edward,
If you are reading this it means that you have found me and you know that Victoria changed me. She changed me because when she found me I was in the forest I was no more than a shell and when she discovered that you had left me she decided to change me instead of killing me. She said it would be much more fun than watching me die. I begged her to just kill me because I couldn't imagine spending even a moment without you. The three days it took for me to go through the change were agony, and now I understand you not wanting me to have to experience that.
After I changed I was completely alone and I knew that I couldn't go back to see Charlie so I started thinking about the perfect place to stage my death. I staged my death in our meadow covering the middle in a pool of animal blood and as I was there I discovered my first gift- that unlike other vampires I don't sparkle in the sunlight. I tore some fabric off of my clothes so it looked like I struggled and because I knew that Jacob and Sam would be part of the search party sent out to find me and they would smell me sent.
As I started running through the forest I came across a human and that's when I discovered that I find the smell of human blood repulsing.
My other gifts were discovered completely on accident: I can change my appearance so that I appear younger or older and I can give the impression that I have blood running through my veins. Both of these come in quite handy in the acting business.
Edward I know you think that I hate you now and that is why I am writing my feelings down in a letter but that is not the case- I could never hate you, part of me wishes I could but it isn't possible. I understand that I am not good enough for you so I am trying to move on with my life, Edward just know this I love you with every fiber left in my being, you will always be the only one for me. I love you Edward Masen Cullen always and forever.
Love and always yours,
Bella
After I finished reading the letter I let it fall to the floor and I clutched my head in my hands, "Oh Alice, how could I hurt her so much? I am truly a monster."
I felt a cool hand on my back, "No you're not. You may be too moral for your own good, but never a monster. Come on let's get you home."
I allowed Alice to pull me up and as we opened the door we saw the rest of the family starring back at us sheepishly.
Jasper spoke first, "I felt sadness coming from over here and after Bella came out and you and Alice didn't I decided that you might need us."
Carlisle put a hand on my shoulder, "Let's get you home son."
I turned into the little room and picked Bella's letter off of the floor before nodding to Carlisle.
When he arrived home I rushed up the stairs to my room and through myself on my couch, 'oh my dear sweet Bella, I wish you knew how much I need you!' I screamed into my pillow completely unaware as to who was doing that same thing in the house right next door.
Once I was able to let some of my emotions out I laid stretched out on the couch staring up at the ceiling only to be brought back to reality by a light tap on my door which could only mean one thing, "Alice what do you want?"
"I just had a vision and Bella was lying on the ground in her kitchen. I'm not sure what happened but she needs you. I wasn't going to tell you this for a few days but Bella is kind of our neighbor."
"Alice how could you not tell me this?!?!" Right then we heard a loud thud.
Alice and I looked at each other and then we took off out of the house.
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