Chapter 7
I turned on the boom box I got from Kankuros room. ANGEL WITH A SHOTGUN blarred through the speakers.
"Get out your guns, battles begun. Are you a saint or a sinner?" I sang the lyrics as I started arranging things how I wanted. " If loves a fight then I shall die," Anger boiled inside of me as my feelings for bradly surfaced. " With my heart on the trigger. They say before you start a war you better know what you're fighting for! Well baby you are all that I adore!" I opened a can of red paint and dumped my brush in. " If love is what you need a soldier I will be, I'm an angel with a shotgun fighting till my wars won I don't care if heaven won't take me back!" I flung out my brush and threw the paint on the wall on the lyrics I'm an angel with a shotgun. This song reminded me of him so much it hurt. I was his soldier and he used me. "I'll throw away my faith babe just to keep you safe, don't you know your everything I have?" He was everything I had, until that whore took him from me. And then Taylor came and took me away completely, as if to say forget him. I threw the paint on the wall as the anger and pain grew. " And I wanna live not just survive tonight." I opened a can of neon pain and moved to the other side of the living room. " Sometimes to win, you've got to sin, don't mean I'm not a believer." I did many things in the past after me and bradly split up. Maybe me coming to Suna was a good thing, a new begging? " And Major Tom will sing along," I giggled as I drew Trapper Tom, a guy who had caught the squirrels living in our roof when I still lived with mom, " Ya they still say I'm a dreamer! They say before you start a war you better know what you're fighting for! Well baby you are all that I adore, if love is what you need a soldier I will be, I'm an angel with a shotgun fighting till the wars won I don't care if heaven won't take me back, I'll throw away my faith babe just to keep you safe, don't you know your everything I have! And I wanna live not just survive tonight." I got out some blue paint and started outlining my next drawing while angry hot tears spilled down my face. " I'm and angel with a shotgun fighting till the wars won I don't care if heaven won't take me back! I'M AN ANGEL WITH A SHOTGUN FIGHTING TILL THE WARS WON I DON'T CARE IF HEAVEN WON'T TAKE ME BACK!" I slapped the bang from the bullet on the wall as the dramatic line comes on. I had drawn a gun with a bullet. I smiled at my work. " I'll throw away my faith babe just to keep you safe, don't you know you're everything I have and I wanna live not just survive tonight! They say before you start a war you better know what you're fighting for, well baby you are all that I adore if love is what you need a soldier I will be…" I sunk to the ground as the last line faded out. I rubbed my eyes furiously to wipe away the tears. I got up and continued my work. Soon I was done with the living room so I moved to the kitchen. I always had a thing for peace signs so I drew a bunch or colorful ones at different angles. I laughed as I remembered my group and I doing something similar to a former member who had screwed us all over. I smirked as I recalled the horror stricken look on his face when he came home with his new girlfriend to see the entire group sitting in his living room drinking his beer. I smirked as the song that we sang that day came on the boom box. " Check it out, going out, on the late night, looking tight feeling nice it's an ass fight. I can tell I just know that its going down tonight. At the door we don't wait cause we know them. At the bar six shots just beginning, that's when dickhead put his hands on me but you see. " I laughed at loud as I remembered all the girls singing as Steven, the asshole, began to realize what was going on. " I'm not here for your entertainment! You don't really wanna mess with me tonight just stop and take a second, I was fine before you walked into my life!" it was true. We all were fine before we met him. But we all fell for his redneck charm. The thought still sickened me. " Cause you know it's over, before it's began, keep your drink just give me the money, it's just you and your hand tonight!" I laughed remembering how Amanda had made jacking off motions with her hands. "Midnight I'm drunk I don't give a fuck!" I drew a rather large and very wet middle finger in the hall. " Wanna dance by myself, guess your outta luck don't touch back up. I'm not the one buh bye! Listen up it's just not happening, you can say what you want to your boyfriends just let me have my fun tonight alright. Cause I'm not here for your entertainment! You don't really wanna mess with me tonight. Just stop and take a second I was fine before you walked into my life, cause you know it's over before it began, keep your drink just give me the money, it's just you and your hand tonight! Break, break, break it down in the corner with your boys you bet 'em five bucks you'd get the girl that just walked in but she thinks you suck. We didn't get all dressed up just for you to see so quit spilling your drinks on me yeah! You know who you are, high fivin and talking shit but you're going home alone arentcha? Cause I'm not here for your entertainment no you don't really wanna mess with me tonight! Just stop and take a second just stop and take a second I was fine before you walked into my life! Cause you know it's over before it's began! Keep your drink just give me the money, it's just you and your hand tonight it's just you and your hand! I'm not here for your entertainment no no no! You don't really wanna mess with me tonight! Just stop and take a second I was fine before you walked into my life cause you know it's over before it began keep your drink just give me the money it's just you and your hand tonight!" I finished with a picture of Steven fucking a beer bottle. I smiled at the probability that he actually does that. My ears perked up at the next song. I grinned as a certain cat eared mummy came to mind. I rolled around on the floor until I eventually reached his room. I opened the door and walked inside. " Why am I always hit on by the boys I never like? I can always see them coming from the left or from the right." I moved the furniture on both sides of the room to where they faced the middle. " I don't wanna be a priss I'm just tryna be polite but it always seems to bite me in the ask me for my number yeah ya put me on the spot, you think that we should hook up but I think that we should not. You had me at hello then you opened up your mouth and that is when it started going south oh!" I giggled as I pictured konkuro being rejected. He always did strike me as the player type. I drew a woman and a number sign in the middle of the room with a big red line through the middle of it. " Get your hands off my hips, before I punch you in the lips, stop your staring at my hey! Take a hint take a hint! No you can't buy me a drink let me tell you what I think, I think you could use a mint take a hint take a hint! T-Take a hint Take a hint! I guess you still don't get it so let's take it from the top, you asked me what my sign is and I told you it was stop!" I drew a huge stop sign with a vagina in the middle above his bed. " And if I had a dime for every name that you just dropped, you'd be here and I'd be on a yacht oh! Get your hands off my hips before I punch you in the lips stop your staring at my hey! Take a hint take a hint! No you can't buy me a drink let me tell you what I think, I think you could use a mint take a hint, take a hint! T-Take a hint, take a hint! What about no don't you get so go and tell your friends I'm not really interested!" I did a pointer finger shake down with my lips perused. " It's about time that your leaving, I'm gonna count to three and open my eyes and you'll be gone! One, get your hands of my two, before I punch you in the three, stop your staring at my hey! Take a hint, take a hint! I am not your missing link let me tell you what I think, I think you could use a mint take a hint take a hint! T-Take a hint take a hint!" I was rolling on the floor from laughing so hard by the time I was done. I gave myself a pat on the back for my work before making my way over to Temari's room. I smirked at the song that was practically made for girls like me and her. " You got your keys, but where you going? The third degree just isn't working 'cuz ya walked out without asking me to go and if I followed you home would you be alone?" I drew a gun on the wall above her bed and a knife on her bedroom door. " I checked your phone cause it was beepin, are you alone? I know your creepin, cause you walked out without asking me to go but if I followed you home, I hope your alone. And I'm three steps from the edge woah, don't push me over it. Don't you know don't you know, every girl is capable of murder if ya hurt her! Watch out you don't push me any further, any further. You're not the only one walkin round with a loaded gun! This little girl is capable of murder cause ya hurt her!" I wrote the words every girl is capable of murder in big blood red letters in a font that made it look like blood was dripping from each letter. " My hands are clean not yet a killer," for the fun of it I decided to draw a picture of hands being washed with soap. " Ain't I your queen? And did ya tell her? Cause ya broke down all my shoulda known betters and I followed ya home throwing sticks and stones. And I'm two steps from the edge woah don't push me over it, don't ya know don't ya know! Every girl is capable of murder if ya hurt her, watch out you don't push me any further any further. You're not the only one walking round with a loaded gun! This little girl is capable of murder cause ya hurt her!" I danced around the room painting various violent pictures that fit the song. " Don't you know you should never treat a girl like that got a good alibi and my bags all packed! Don't you know you should never treat a girl like that cause the next ones gonna have the hammer pulled back!" I drew an angry girl holding a hammer." Every girl is capable of murder if you hurt her, watch out you don't push me any further, but you fucking hurt her. Every girl is capable of murder if ya hurt her watch out you don't push her any further any further, you're not the only one walking round with a loaded gun! This little girl is capable of murder if ya hurt her." I finished up Temari's room in satisfaction. Now for the last and more challenging victim. I tried to think of a song that best described him. I scrolled through the list of songs before finally finding the perfect one. I smiled a sinister smile as strolled into Gaara's room. " The secret side of me, I'll never let you see. I'll keep it caged but I can't control it. So stay away from me the beast is ugly," I drew a wall length picture of a pandcoon ( Mix between a panda and a raccoon) on his bed side wall. " I feel the rage and I just can't hold it. It's scratching on the walls, in the closet in the halls. It comes awake and I can't control it. Hiding under the bed in my body in my head. Why won't somebody come and save me from this? Make it end! I feel it deep within! It's just beneath the skin! I must confess that I feel like a monster! I hate what I've become, the nightmares just begun. I must confess that I feel like a monster! I, I feel like a monster! I, I feel like a monster!" I drew the monsters that kids would have nightmares about when they were young and Freddy Kruger who Amanda was deathly afraid of. " My secret side I keep, hid under lock and key," I drew a picture of half my face and the other half my demonic form." I keep it caged but I can't control it. Cause if I let it out, it'll tear me up and break me down. Why won't somebody come and save me from this make it end! I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin, I must confess that I feel like a monster! I hate what I've become, the nightmares just begun! I must confess that I feel like a monster. I,I feel like a monster! I,I feel like a monster! It's hiding in the dark, it's teeth are razor sharp, there's no escape from me it wants my soul it wants my heart. No one can hear me scream. Maybe it's just a just, maybe it's inside of me stop this monster! I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin! I must confess that I feel like a monster! I have what I've become, the nightmares just begun, I must confess that I feel like a monster!" I slid down to the floor in exhaustion. I looked at the digital clock on the bedside table. It was only 5 o'clock. I'd been at it for about three hours. I grinned before jumping up and grabbing my shoes. When they were laced up I ran out the door to spread the word. The Sabaku mansion was having a party.