A/N: Here's the next chapter. Plz enjoy. R&R
I have no idea why I'm doing this. I don't know why I followed him into his apartment. He told me to sit on the couch so I did and now I'm waiting for him to come back into the living room. My bag is by the door. When I first saw him he just sort of gave me this feeling of comfort like I was safe and so before I knew it the words were coming out of my mouth and the next thing I knew I was sitting in his living room.
'God I'm so stupid...what am I even doing?' I scolded myself. I really was stupid but before I could yell at myself morehe comes back in the living room with two cups of water.
"Here you go" he says handing me one of them.
"Um thanks" I take a sip and set the cup on the coffee table.
"You're welcome" he replies taking a seat on the other side of the couch. I watch him warily not sure what to say or if I should even be telling him anything. I don't know what would happen if Gamzee found out...actually I do but just thinking about it sends chills down my spine and sets my heart racing and not for good reasons. I close my eyes and breathe in deep before exhaling I need to calm down. I look up at him and I speak.
"So um what do you wanna know?" I'm aware that this question basically leaves him open to asking whatever he wants but it's already out of my mouth so I can't take it back. He looks down for a moment probably thinking about what he should ask me. A few minutes later he looks up and meets my gaze.
"Why were.." he hesitates for a moment. "Why were you running?" he seems like he has genuine concern but I'm not sure if I should tell him because once it's out I can't take it back. I've never told anyone about my problems with him except for one person and it cost him his life. So ever since him...ever since John I try to stay away from people or at least from this particular topic of conversation. Gamzee helps with that because he doesn't let anyone near me so it works out. Now once again here I am with this person I just met and I'm about to tell him my world, about how I've been living, all the secrets I've kept from everyone since John. He was the last person I told and I still haven't forgiven myself for that. I can't help the tears that start to fall they just come. It happens every time I think of him because I loved him but now he's gone and it's all my fault. 'Damn crying in front of a stranger what the fuck is wrong with me?' That's the question that goes through my mind but I know I can't help it.
I cry silently to myself for about 5 minutes before wiping away my tears. I'm glad Sollux didn't try to comfort me because there's no way he could. I also don't know if I want to tell him about John just yet so instead I suck it up and I reply to his question.
"Sorry about that. Well I was running because I'm...I'm running away."
"It's fine. But if you don't mind telling me that is...um why are you running away exactly?" he asks questioningly and I know that I'll have to tell him everything so he'll understand. I actually don't have to but I just feel like I can trust him he makes me feel safe even though we just met.
"If I tell you I need you to promise me that you won't tell anyone I need to know that I can trust you. I need to make sure you're safe. Can you promise me that?" I ask him this looking him dead in the eye so he knows that I'm being serious. He looks at me and I can tell he's being serious when he says
"I promise Karkat"
My name is Karkat Vantas and I'm about to Spill all my Secrets.