A/N: Hey guys. Here I am with another chapter. So so sorry about the delay! It's been almost a month since I last updated. I couldn't figure out how to write Dirk and I had so much stuff going on so it was hard but I finally did it so here we are! Please enjoy.
He pushes his tongue against my lips asking for entrance and I grant it letting his tongue slip into my mouth. His tongue explores my entire mouth and I wrap my arms around his neck letting him take control. Our tongues wrap around each other and I moan. It gets swallowed up by his mouth and he pulls away biting my bottom lip before sitting back in his seat completely. I blush brightly and turn before sitting back in his seat completely. I blush brightly and turn away. Why did I do that? I'm such an idiot.
A few minutes later and he's turning my head to face him. I look up into his eyes and he smiles.
"Thanks"
"Um...for what?"
"Makin' me realize that you're not him. That I can't just replace him vwith his brother like I thought."
Now that was a shock I hadn't expected him to ever be so open about his feelings. I was glad that he finally understood I wasn't Kankri though because otherwise I'm not sure what would've happened. I smile at him.
"You're welcome I guess." He pulls me into a hug that I actually return for once since my brother's death. This is the first time in awhile that I feel like I can act how I used to around him. The first time I believe that everything might be okay.
We finally arrive at our destination after a 12 hour long bus trip accompanied by a 30 minute cab ride. I sigh and walk into the building getting into the elevator and going to the top floor. As the elevator dings and the doors slides open I think about leaving.
I'm dropping by unannounced and what if they don't remember me or even want to help. Sighing I make my way out of the elevator and to the door. The only way to know is to take a chance. I knock on the door in our secret pattern hoping they remember.
The door opens within 5 seconds and I'm enveloped in a hug.
"Hey Karkat long time no see" Dirk says as he pulls me into the house allowing Cronus to enter before shutting the door.
"Hi Dirk. Where's Dave?" I question because even though it's nice to see him I came here for Dave.
"He always was your favorite"
"Favorite? What do you mean? I liked both of you equally" I huff.
"Sure you did Kitkat." He says wiggling his eyebrows suggestively. "Now take a seat and I'll get you a drink." I do as told sitting on the couch while Cronus sits on the one across from me. Dirk comes back with two cups in his hands. He hands one to Cronus and the other to me.
As soon as I take a sip I spit it out much to Cronus's confusion as he still drinks his.
Dirk starts laughing.
"Shut the fuck up. I hate you"
"You shoulda checked before you drank it. I mean really how long have you known me? I wouldn't miss a chance."
"Vwhat's going on? It's just apple juice isn't it?"
"Yes but Karkat here doesn't like apple juice. He has something going wrong in his head"
"Fuck you"
"Oh you know you'd be happy to"
"Vwowv do you guys havwe some history there?" I turn and glare at him.
"Of course not" We both say simultaneously. I laugh.
"Just like old times right Karkat?"
"Yea" I smile at him and set my cup on the coffee table. Dirk takes a seat next to me on the couch putting his feet up on the table he turns to look at me.
"I know you're not here to just catch up so what's up?"
"A lot" I say looking down, playing with my shirt as I avoid his eyes. I know I'm going to have to tell him but I just don't want to.
"Karkat you okay?"
"Yea I'm fine just-I have a lot going on right now is all."
"You can talk to me. It's what friends are for right? Even if we haven't seen each other in awhile I'm still your friend and I'll always be here."
Not looking up I pull him to me and hug him tightly my eyes glistening with unshed tears.
"I'll tell you everything that's happened since I left..." I mumble into his shirt before pulling away and wiping away the tears that have fallen. I lay my head in his lap and curl up.
After a short minute I begin the story. I tell him everything that Gamzee had done, everything he'd done to me and to other people. I don't leave anything out and by the end I'm crying again. This time I just let the tears fall freely as I clench my eyes shut trying not to think about anything.
I feel Dirks hand in my hair as he combs his fingers through. He tells me it's going to be okay. He says nothing else bad will happen to me and it makes me feel better for the moment as I slowly fall asleep to his calming words and soft touch.
I'm met with nightmares of Gamzee hurting me more, torturing me, drawing out every cut he makes as he laughs maniacally. I try to break free of the ties he has me in but it only makes things worse. That's when I feel a searing pain arm. It's broken and there are large cuts all along the entire thing. They're deep and blood pours from them freely.
I'm not sure how long it's been but the next thing I know both my arm have been broken and my feet sliced into.
The only thing I think is please let this be over. Let me die but that's when Gamzee walks in with Eridan and he just laughs when he notices me trying once again to get free only to scream in agony at the pain that shoots through my entire body because of the small cuts he's made all over me.
I watch as he hurts Eridan the same way he hurt John and all I can do is thrash around trying and failing to hold back the screams of pain. Eventually I give up and just let the tears fall. I close my eyes and look away. I can't watch.
When Eridan finally stops screaming I turn and see Gamzee standing over his limp body, blood all over him.
I scream at him yelling "I hate you" and that's what makes his head snap my way a vicious glare on his face as he stomps his way over to me.
He grips my neck tight enough to where I can't breathe. I'm gasping for breath when he whispers in my ear.
"You hate me? I find that hard to believe Karbro. I can't wait to see your face when you find out what I have planned." He sniffs the air and loosens his grip a bit. "I can smell your fear. I want to have you all to myself so I have to do this." he growls and his voice sends shivers down my spine at the intensity of it.
He lets my neck go and I gasp in deep gulps of air. When I finally get my breathing under control I notice that he's brought in Cronus, Dave, Dirk, and Sollux. They all look pretty beaten up and I know it's only a matter of time until they're all dead. It's my fault. I never should have run away. I never should have left. I did this to them.
"Gamzee please! Don't do this!" I scream in vain.
"Shut the fuck up Karbro! This is your motherfuckin' punishment for trying to defy me! This is what you get when you don't up and listen! I'm going to do to them what I did to John. You remember that don't you Karkat? How he screamed and screamed for me to stop. You remember how he begged for me to let him go. I remember it. I remember you trying to save him saying anything to try and please me but you should know that it doesn't work that way. If anyone motherfuckin' touches my things well this is what fucking happens!" He yells stabbing Cronus in the leg.
"Now Cronus I would've thought that you knew not to touch him. I was specifically clear on that wasn't I? Yet you motherfuckin' disobey me! You're disloyal and you deserve to die." He stabs Cronus right in the heart and I watch as his eyes go lifeless.
Gamzee just grins evilly and I watch as he tortures the rest of them. I watch because I can't take my eyes off. I watch as he kills Dirk after torturing him for hours before only Sollux and Dave are left.
I watch as everything crumbles around me and the hours tick by as he continues hurting them. I want to cover my ears because I don't want to hear their cries of pain. I don't want to hear them begging to be let go. Finally when he goes for the final blow that will surely kill Sollux I scream and scream as loud as I can because there's no way I'm going to just let him kill him when I know Dave is next.
I can't just let them all be killed. I don't want this but I know it's all my fault. I scream and scream and scream just trying to deter him from doing it.
I continue screaming until I feel myself being engulfed by warmth. That's when I stop and I open my eyes to see Dave looking down at me with his arms wrapped around me.
I blink repeatedly trying to get the images from the nightmare out of my head. Squeezing my eyes shut I wrap my arms around him tightly as I bury my face in his chest sobbing.