A/N: I updated! It's a miracle! Sorry it's been so long but I just couldn't figure out where to go with the story but I finally figured out how I'm going to end it so there will only be a few more chapters after this one. Enjoy.

***Sollux's POV***

I think about it over and over again. I think of how if all those years ago if I somehow found a way to stop him I would've been able to protect him from being hurt by Gamzee.

I watch terrified as Karkat continues babbling nonsense about Gamzee. It hurts to know that I can't do anything to help him and make him feel better when I know right now he needs it most. I can see how he's struggling to contain everything but it just doesn't work. The tears keep steadily flowing down his cheeks as he cries and cries. He screams, pleads, and begs us to all leave him to let Gamzee take him. He says he doesn't want us to get hurt but I'm scared that if we leave him alone we're basically setting him up for death.

I fear that when Gamzee finally gets his hands on him he won't just do what he's always done. I know that he's going to do far worse to him and if he doesn't kill him he's going to make him wish he was dead.

I'm dreading this. I don't want him to die. He doesn't deserve it. He's too good of a person to die. It's not fair that he should have to suffer from Gamzee's rage over everything that pisses him off. He shouldn't have to deal with someone so controlling, abusive, crazy, insane and even a little psychopathic. He shouldn't have to because he has no control over him. He doesn't even know what he did wrong.

All he wants is his friend, the guy he fell in love with when they were so young. He wants him back but he can't get him because he doesn't know how to fix him.

As I sit here watching him panic and cry and just all around break down my heart breaks and I wonder: What went wrong?

I wonder why this person-who has so many people that love him-is being hurt everyday by his boyfriend even when he's not around?

I want to help him. I want him to feel safe, secure and loved like he used to be before Gamzee's brain was basically fried.

I don't want him to be the broken mess in front of me. I just want him to be free.

Karkat is the guy I like, the one who's easy to fall for because you just can't help being drawn to him.

He's amazing when he doesn't look so down, so lost and lonely.

I want to help but as I watch him cling to Dave as if his life depends on it, I know that there's no way I could ever help him because I'm not the one he needs.

It hurts to think it because I've liked him for a while maybe I even love him but I know I can't comfort him the way he needs to be.

I haven't known him for very long but what I found is that he depends on his friends especially Dave….

I know I can't comfort him or even give him what he needs but when the time comes I know that if he's in danger I'd help him and take the bullet for him because there's no way I could let someone as special as Karkat die.

I just wish I would've met him sooner….

***Karkat's POV***

I want to leave so much but I just can't bring myself to let go of Dave. He gives me a sense of comfort I've never had before and it scares me because I don't want him hurt. I know that if Gamzee found out he'd have his head and I don't want that so I reluctantly pull away.

I give him a small smile that seems to brighten his mood and he gives one back.

"Thanks Dave"

"For what?" I shrug.

"Everything I guess. You've always been there for me even if I didn't want you there. So thanks I guess."

He laughed and hugged me. It startled me for a second but I hugged back.

"Sure"

I pulled away and smiled at him again giving him a small kiss on the cheek before standing and making my way to the door.

I pulled it open and turned around.

"Um...I'm going to go. I don't want to drag you guys into my mess because I care about you some more than others. Anyway I'm gonna go talk to him and I guess if that doesn't work out than this is goodbye." I said smiling sadly.

Everyone started rushing at me saying I couldn't do that that I'd die but I just brushed them off. If it came down to it I'd die for them all because the only reason he comes after them is because of me and as long as they were okay I would be fine.

They tried stopping me but I somehow managed to lose them and I caught a bus back to Cali. I was going back to the place I belonged. The place I never should've left to begin with.

A/N: I know this isn't that great but it'll get there. I've just been out of it for awhile but once I get back into it it should be better I hope. :)