Hey guys! Here's chapter 14! In response to review, your answer is no, I do not actually have a real life crush named Jared, however, that would be really funny. #foreveralone. But, if any of you have read "The Host," I am totally obsessed with that Jared. Mostly though, I really like the name Jared and assosiate the name with hot guys. Just like I would have, before reading Divergent, associated 'Tobias' with a pastey white nerd with broken glasses and an unhealthy obsession with Star Trek or something. Now whenever I hear Tobias, I expect to have to go and look for a pretty white dress. Doesn't it suck when your long awaited love is a fictional character?

Also, I suggest listening to "I am not a Robot," by Marina and the Diamonds during this chapter, or really anything in the, "The Family Jewels," album. But mostly "I am not a Robot." It perfectly describes this chapter, in my mind. (Well, most of it anyways.)

And one more thing, I want to warn you about the swearing in this chapter. This is rated T, so just so you guys know, Tris and Four swear a bit terribley in this chapter, and they are really intimate. You've all been warned. It really wouldn't actually matter much if you skipped this chapter anyway. It's mostly fourtris fluff.

And also again, (sorry for the LONG a/n...) I am SOOOO sorry that this chapter took such a long time tomturn up for you guys! It was finals week, and I had a lot of stuff going on. I AM SO SORRY! It won't happen again hopefully, especially with summer coming! :)

Disclaimer: I do not own Divergent. All rights belong to Veronica Roth.

After some talking with Evelyn and instructions on how to take care of the girls, they are ready, each with a small ragged duffle bag filled with their belongings. They both give Evelyn a hug, and a few scilent tears roll down their rosy cheeks. I have no idea how to comfort a child. I've never even been an older sibling to a child, much less been a responsible guardian of not only one, but two of them. "Don't worry." I say. "We'll visit. And besides, you'll like Dauntless. It's fun." Reagan looks up at me, and smiles through some tears. Christina picks up a crying Alice, and offers her hand to Reagan. Reagan just presses her lips into a line, stops, or at least slows her crying, and lifts her chin. Then she answers Christina with a small shake of her head left to right. She is strong.

As we approach the trains, Four explains how to get on. "I'll help you, but it still might be hard. Keep away from the tracks and wheels, and find the metal bar that runs along the bottom of the cart. You will eventually learn how to put a foot on it, grab the handle of the side, and pull yourself in."

"I think I can do it." Reagan responds. "I've done it at least five times before. Sometimes the factionless travel by train." Four nods as the train approaches.

"Ready? I ask. The two girls nod. We start running along side the trains and get ready to pull ourselves in. I wait longer than I should as I watch Four help the girls in, and one of their legs slips. Tobias catches it before it gets caught in the stong iron wheels, and hoists her up.

Then it hits me. What if that innocent little girl died because of me. Because I couldn't take her back to the compound a different way. I could've shot will in the hand. I could've held Mar from the edge. I could've sacrificed myself instead of letting my parents do so. I am selfish. I can't run any longer and begin to cry. I stop, and lean over my knees as the car that I should be boarding drifts past me. This is a long train. I can wait. I see Four peek out from the car I should be in. He looks confused.

'What's wrong?' He mouths to me over the wind. I shake my head and wave him back into the train. He doesn't listen, and keeps staring at me, so I turn my head away trying to keep him from noticing the tears on my face. I shouldn't be crying. My feet are uncomfortable, so I pull my shoes off. Why is my life so incredibly and impossibly messed up? I throw my boots as far as I can away from me, and squat, facing away still from Tobias, and cry into my hands.

That's when something hard hits me in the back. I turn around to see what it was, and squint as my hair whips my face in the wind of the train passing me. It is Four's shoe. A small chuckle cut through my tears. The old Van's shoe smells like it died and was buried in a hot meat locker for a few decades. His arms wrap around me from behind, and pick me up. I stay in a ball, looking down. He sets me down on my feet, and a new wave of tears hits me when I realize that I could've lost him too. He could have died in the war. He could die any day in Dauntless. Anywhere, anytime. What then? What comes after all of the light has left both of our worlds? I press my hands to his face firmly and kiss him hard. A wave of thunder hits and lightning illuminates the gray sky. He squeezes my waist between his thumb and fingers, and rain pours endlessly from the sky, as if to wash away the tear stains smeared across my face.

"I love you." I say against his lips. He kisses me harder, and he carries me under a crumbling highway overpass by my hips. I feel so little. He presses me against a wall, and kisses my ravens, as scilent tears stream steadily down my face.

"Fuck them all." He says over the crashing of the rain. "Fuck anyone who hurt you. They don't matter. You have us. Fuck everything else. Fuck the world because it's not fair. It's not right that this all happened to you, to us." I Try to smile at him past my tears. I remember the day he had said something similar to me in Amity.

"Then fuck me." I say, smiling for real now at my dumb and awkward pun. "I've hurt myself enough."

"I would, but... Not here." He says, laughing and playing along with the dumb joke. I love his smile. It lights up my world. I laugh and roll my eyes at him.

"But really Tris. Are you okay? I am ridiculously worried about you. It's not right, I know, but I can't help it. You're my everything."

"I'll be fine." I respond. My heart melts a little bit when he tells me i'm his everything. Our conversation pauses for a moment.

"You're wet." He says, stating the obvious.

"Soaked." I respond. He slides off my wet shirt, exposing my bra. I take a breath. This doesn't really make me nervous anymore. I know Tobias too well. He slides off his wet jacket, then pulls his mostly dry tee shirt off, and tries to slip it over my head. I push it away, and turn him around, pushing him against the wall.

A smug smirk spreads across my face, and a smiley disapproving one across his. Then I kiss him. I kiss him slowly, bite his lip a bit, and press myself against him because I know it really turns him on. He grabs a belt loop on my shorts, and pulls me closer, if at all possible, settling his hand into my back pocket. Now his kisses are not only pouring out love, but lust too. I slide him to the ground, straddle his lap, and kiss him more. His arms run up my back and play with the clasp of my bra.

"Not here." I agree with his joke statement from a few minutes ago. He kisses my neck.

"Pleaseee..." He whines.

I smile, and shake my head. I run my fingers through his wet hair, give him one more firm kiss, and stand up. He follows, and slips his tee shirt over me. Then he tries to put his jacket on me.

"No, you need to wear that." I say, frowning.

"You'll get sick." He says, frowning too.

"You'll get sick!" I say to him, laughing.

"I'm not leaving here until you wear it. Then, i'll get sick. Standing shirtless outside during the rain isn't the best idea for someone who you don't want to get sick, Beatrice." He argues. I reluctantly let him slide the jacket over my shoulders. Then I remember the kids. I really suck at this. "Christina's taking care of them." He says, noticing my expression. He can just tell by my eyes. How does he see right through me? I am like a sheet of thin transparent glass, or more of a well memorized maze? I nod at him in response.

We step out from under the overpass, and jog alongside another train. Four and I pull ourselves in, and I gently push him down so that he is laying, and lay down next to him, my head on his chest, and I don't ever want that moment to end.

Hey guys! I hope you liked the chapter! To make it up to you, I will be posting two to three chapter by Sunday at midnight! (Hopefully...) Please Please Please review! It really helps me compensate for the time I spend typing up, revising, and editing these chapters! I really appreciate all of my readers AND reviewers! Thanks guys! See ya this weekend for a mini-marathon! Bye! :D