I'd rather spend my life pretending, than have to forget you for one whole minute.

The past 7 weeks flew by in a uneventful blur. The day after Christmas, Lissa, Eddie and Mason had come over trying to get me to talk about what happened. When I finially broke down and told them (after them bugging me all day) Mase and Eddie thought I had over reacted.

What they failed to remember of course, was my past relationship. The ONLY other relationship I had ever been in, the last month of had been a lie. Adrian had lied to me about loving me, about being faithful, and about basically everything. And I was saving myself from getting hurt again. and regardless of the rules, (which I talked to Mrs. P about when we started school again. and she said that if he had figured out who I was he should have told me.) he should have told me.

I wasn't going to get myself in any deeper, when he was just going to turn around and hurt me. I couldn't risk it. Now here it was 2 days before Valentine's Day and SO did not want to be anywhere near the school. With all its hearts and flowers and happy couples.

In the weeks since we had broken up, things had gone back to how they were before. I would hang out and act likes the pretty popular chick with Lissa Mason Eddie and Andre. And Dimitri would sit in the corner reading the books that I had gotten 'Penn' for Christmas. The gift he had gotten me, while I loved it whole heartedly, (it was an iPhone case that looked like a Kit-Kat bar) sat in its package in my living room.

I had not answered any of his texts, calls, emails or IM's, and whenever he came up to me I was either a bitch, or just completely ignored him. Ya, I admit I was taking this all a little too far, but couldn't…wouldn't open myself up to him again. Hell, I should be at least civil to him, since it makes Lissa feel weird about being with Christian.

So all in all, things were normal, though mom had been coming home more, and staying for longer. Not that I minded even if it was my bitchy mother, I was nice to have company other than Lacey (who doesn't seem to like mom LOL). And over the last 2 weeks, whenever I would go somewhere, it seemed like I was being watched, but I never saw anyone. It was starting to get kind of weird, and I was on the verge of asking Eddie or Mase to come stay with me. Not that I couldn't defend myself if I had to, but still.

"OH MY GOD ROSE! Look! Look!" my best friend squealed from next to me and pointed to where some people where putting up posters. Looks like Prom was coming up. Wonderful, more chance for hearts and flowers, and happy couples. "It's going to be a Masquerade! Oh my god, we have to start shopping! You have to find a date. You HAVE to talk to Dimitri, you would look so good together in matching masks!" she gushed, after grabbing one of the flyers from one of the guys holding them.

"Liss! Shut up! I am not going to talk to anyone, and am probably not even going to go. I am not even coming to school Friday. You all can spend your valentine's day being all lovey dovey and shit, I am going to sit home with Ben & Jerry and my dog, watch reruns of Vampire Diaries and stay away from any couple." I told her, shaking my head. Than before she could start her complaining about me being all moppy and whatever I shook my head, and put my headphones in and got up to go to my locker.

When I hit SHUFFLE on my music, it's like the phone itself wanted to torcher me. Why you ask? The first song that started playing was SMILE, by uncle kracker. When I hit next, Hanging by the Moment started playing. Shaking my head I hit next again and put my phone in my pocket as the slow strings of Love Will Find A Way from Lion King 2 started playing. Lissa had put it on my phone a long time ago and I just never took it off.

Shaking my head again, and trying my best to act like the lyrics meant nothing to me, I turned the corner by my locker and ran head long into Dimitri. And sure enough, I ended up on my ass.

"Roza" he said offering me a hand to help me stand. But shaking my head I pushed myself and dusted my pants off and took out one of my head phones. Ok, I will be CIVIL to him. Nothing more. For Lissa's sake, not his.

"Dimitri, don't. I…I'm not ready to talk to you yet." I told him and started to walk past him, but gently he reached out and took my hand. When I went to pull it away, he let out a little growl and pulled me to him.

"Damn it Rose. You will listen to me. For the last month and a half you have done everything you can to stay away from me. The least you can do is listening." Looking around, he pulled me into an empty class room and closed the door. "Believe it or not, there is a reason I didn't tell you."

"Really? Do enlighten me as to what that reason was. You lied to me Dimitri! I trusted you, I fell in love with you, and you lied to me. I felt so damn guilty, and you knew, yet you did nothing." I snapped at him, feeling the sting of his betrayal all over again. I didn't want to be anywhere near him, because I knew that as soon as he started talking I would forgive him and I wasn't ready to.

Pushing my way past him I unlocked the door and rushed out. He had reached for my arm to pull me back by I was just out of his reach. Stopping just out of his reach I turned to look at him, a single tear in my eye. God I hate crying! Damn him for making me cry. Whipping the tear from my eye I turned around to walk away.

And walked right into Adrian. But before I could say anything he shook his head and took my arm, pulling me out of the building, toward the parking lot. "What the hell are you doing Adrian? Your girlfriend in labor or something?" I snapped at him. Ya, Sydney was pregnant, she had been bragging about it since Christmas. She was between 5 and 6 months, meaning that she got pregnant when he and I were still together.

"No, don't be stupid. It's your car." He snapped as he pushed open the door and I got a view of my car. And let me tell you, if Adrian hadn't been standing there to catch me, I would have ended up on the floor. My beautiful black car was trashed. The windows broken, the doors, and hood dented as if it had been hit by a bat. And what I think shocked me the most was the words that were sprayed in bright red paint across the door. Sana Kucuk Cicek bulundu with a little rose next to it.

"No. no this is not happening!" I said shaking my head, pushing my way away from Adrian I started to make my way to the car, but was held back by a set of strong arms that I would know anywhere.

"Roza, you need to call the police." Dimitri said, pulling his phone out to hand it to me, when I took it, I was a little shocked by the back ground. It was me. Looking at him, I closed my eyes and handed it back to him and pulled out my own phone and called the cops, just as the bell rang. None of us went to class.

When the cops showed up, they talked to each of us and took tons of pictures. It took the rest of the afternoon, and by the time they were done it was nearly time for school to let out. My insurance agent had gotten there and was preparing to get someone to take my car to a shop to get fixed.

Just before the cops left, Detective Bowmen looked at me. "Does that mean anything to you? Those words?" taking a deep breath I looked back at the words.

"It's Turkish. It means 'I found you, Little Flower.'" I told him, and felt Dimitri stiffen beside me. Like it meant more to him than to me. Though why I have no idea.

When they all left and Adrian went back into the school, I turned to look at Dimitri. "What? What's that mean? I know it means something to you. Tell me." I demanded, just as Keith, the rep for my insurance came over to tell me that they were taking my Altma to the shop and that they would have someone bring a replacement over sometime today.

When he walked away, Dimitri had his phone out, and handed it to me. It was one of my emails to 'Penn'. It was from the day before I found out.

My Dearest Penn,

I had to send you an email, I don't know who else to talk to about this. But I had another dream. This one worse than the others. The man… I still can't see his face… was in it. He wanted to take me somewhere, so he made me take a bath. And he sat there watching me. When I turned my back to him and ask him to wait outside, he just laughed and told me that he liked to watch me. To make sure I was safe. And he kept calling me Little Flower, like it was my name. Only whenever he said it, it was weird.

I don't know what the hell these dreams mean, and you're the only one I can talk to about them. They are starting to REALLY scare me. I don't even want to go to sleep. My boyfriend thinks they are memories, memories that I repressed due to some trauma or something. It makes no sense. Why wouldn't I remember something like that?

Kit

After I read that, I was so shocked that I nearly dropped the phone. "No." I said my voice so low it was nearly inaudible. This couldn't be happening. The worst part is, I didn't even know who the man in the dreams was. If I knew who he was, I would know who to watch for.

"Roza, I do not want you to be alone. Let me come over and stay with you until we figure this out." My ex-boyfriend told me, reaching out to touch me, but I stepped back and shook my head.

"No, ill talk to Mase or Eddie. Plus I have Lacey. I will be fine." I told him before walking into the school again to go and wait by Andre's locker to ask for a ride home, since my car was now undrivable.

When I got home that afternoon, I had my own little entourage. When I had told my friends about what happened, and ask Eddie or Mason to stay with me, they had all said they were coming to stay. That's one of the things I loved about my friends. Even Christian was with us. It just showed me that they really were my family, rather than JUST my friends.

Thanks to Andre and his awesome 7 seater SUV we all fit in it, after they all stopped by their house's to get their stuff. When we pulled up to the house, Christian made his way past us all and to the kitchen. He really was a little Suzy home maker, but damn his food was good.

Sitting on the couch, with Lacey's head on my lap I looked at my friends. "Liss, you and Christian can take the spare room, Eddie and Mase you can have moms. And Andre you can sleep down here. Unless you think Viktoria would be ok with you sleeping in my room." I told them and they all nodded. After the New Year, we had found out that Viktoria, Dimitri's sister, was Andre's pen pal and they were madly in love.

"I think I'll take the couch, you are a bed hog Rose." He told me laughing as he leaned over and patted Laceys back to get her to come over to him. I was just about to reply to him with some snappy comment when the doorbell rang. Shaking my head, thinking it was Dimitri, I got up to answer it. When I pulled it open I froze in shock. Every thought vanished from my head, and it felt like all the blood had drained from my whole body.

"What? No welcome for your father Kiz?" Abe Muzar stood at my door.

AN: ahhh! So Abe is there! What do you think that means? And who do you think trashed her car? And it seems like things between Rose and Dimitri ready to get better. Think they should get better sooner or later?

Oh and I hope that Rose's explanation she over reacted is understandable.

I may have another chapter out tonight, but idk. Lol oh and Jordan (Jordy) I will get to your walk in soon, promise. Lol I realize that I don't always get to the walk INS in the chapter after the quote but the ALWAYS get in. when prom comes around I may even do some others too. Cuz its prom ha-ha. XD

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