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thank you so much all the reviewers.
here is the next chapter as promised...it's sort of a filler...nothing much...but an important part of the story as from here you'll know what would be happening in next chapters and also because it provides the true theme and even the meaning of title.
Daya came out of the wash room and looked around and fiding no one still outside heaved a sigh of relief. Though after a few moments he was getting tensed as realized it has been quite some time since abhijeet was inside and at that exact moment ANUJ with ATUl came out of the room. Both looked at daya who was standing with eyes towards them asking some questions. Atul finally stated…
"woh theek hai daya…stiches abhi kamzor hai thode iss cheez ka khyaal rakho abh…jyada bleeding ki wajah se hi behosh hua tha…(atul came forward seeing daya silent and left from there after patting daya's shoulder with) don't worry…
Daya after that looked towards AnUJ who said after finding him as daya's focus… "Aao…kissi se milwana hai tumhe.."
Anuj moved forward while now daya asked him in tension… "doctor abhijeet…"
Auj(while walking)- he is fine daya…yeh bahot normal complications hain.. i mean joh aise cases mei visilbe hoti hain…(firmly) bas abhijeet ko iss baat ko abh accept karna hoga daya…ki…
Daya(painful toe)- ki usske saath yeh sabh kiya gaya aur woh chup chaap betha raha?
Anuj looked towards him but said nothing at this moment and both silently entered inside anuj's cabin where daya found an unknown face waiting for them. The unknown face came forward towards daya and moved his hand forward for a hand shake with…
"hello …I am Doctor GORDEN.."
Daya uneasily shook his hand with the well built man having a warm smile and looking of around 30-35 years of age.
Anuj finally spoke… " ek.…(daya looking at him) phsycologist hai daya…"
Daya looked towards him and said in angry tone to anuj… "doctor anuj maine aapse pehle bhi kaha tha ki abhijeet ko kissi phsycologist ki jaroorat nahi hai…(to ) I am sorry doctor…but my friend needs no phsycological attention…"
Daya wanted to leave feeling an unknown anger within him but was stopped short due to a firm tone…
"you sure ? because for what I have been hearing from ANUJ I am…"
Daya(harshly)- it's our personal matter doctor…
looked towards anuj and both after sharing a silent nod, anuj left the place and when daya wanted to leave too he was stopped short by doctor GORDEN…
"daya mujhe aapse bas kuch waqt ke liye baat karni hai..i will not take much of your time but yes I can assure you that our conversation is necessary for your friend.."
But daya was feeling a fear within him so just wanted to leave so said… "I am sorry doctor mai…"
Doctor Gorden- "abhijeet ke liye yeh bahot important hai daya…please…aapko apni fear ko kaabo mei karna hoga…"
Daya closed his eyes and composing himself turned back to face the doctor. Doctor gorden gave him a warm smile and asked him to take a seaat while he himself sat on anuj's chair…
Doctor Gorden started with a firm tone now… "first of all let me tell you this Daya that abhijeet needs this "phsycological attention" to put it in your own words…(seeing daya's expression) and daya aapko yeh baat samajhi hogi ki abhijeet ko koi mental problem nahi hai jisski wajah se aap yahan hai…you are here because YOU will need a helping hand with you to guide you in this situation...main ek consultant hun daya.."
Daya(silently)- I can handle my friend doctor…
Doctor Gorden(with a smile)- I am very well aware of that daya and that's really very good...abhijeet ke liye ek friend bahot important hai iss waqt…but all of us needs a guide right? (daya looks at him again) main bas wahi guide hun...
Daya was silent after that, he can't tell why he was angry and why he is so calm now but he was feeling something cold…
Doctor Gorden(again)- daya…tell me… aapko kya lagta haiki abhijeet ne voluntarily yeh harkat apne saath…
Daya(harshly)- Doctor aap…!
Doctor Gorden(questioning tone)- that's a no then…right…
Daya was feeling angry he wanted to leave but said… "jee bilkul….mujhe ussper pura bharosa hai…"
Doctor Gorden(deep tone while looking in daya's eyes)- lekin yeh bharosa abhijeet ko apne upar nahi hai daya…yeh joh sawaal maine aapse pucha haina…yeh abhijeet bhi apne aap se puchta hai…lekin usske paas iss sawal ka koi jawab nahi hai….kam se kam aap jitna confident nahi..because he has lost his trust from his own self…(giving some time to daya) male abuse ke sabse painful consequences ka ek hissa hai yeh daya…sirf ek hissa…aur abhijeet ke case mein shayad yeh ek woh consequence hai joh usse todh sakta hai…because jitna maine atul aur anuj se suna hai…abhijeet is an egoistic man..."
Daya was silently hearing all. He knew why his buddy contained so proud as he had built his whole life of 17 years around his strength, around this one thing that he is strong.
Doctor Gorden(continued)- daya…aapko woh bharosa usske ander wapas lana hoga…bahot se ways hote hain…aur abhijeet ke case mein yeh jitna painful hai utna hi easy to recover bhi kyunki aaplog cid officers hain…aap samajh rahe haina daya?
Daya nodded silently.
Doctor Gorden(once again)- daya…duniya ka manna haiki aap log…yaani cid officers…police officers…army..navy etc etc aap log bahot strong hote hain…aur shayad kahin na kahin abhijeet ke liye yeh cheez jyada painful bhi issliye hai kyunki usse lagta haiki woh ek cid officer hone ke kaabil nahi…usse lagta hai ki kyunki woh yeh attempt nahi rok paya (daya down his head in pain) aap log aur duniya usse week samjhegi…(taking a sigh) daya woh bureau aane se mana kar sakta hai..lekin aapko kissi bhi halat mein usse bureau wapas join karwana hoga…mujhe Anuj ne acp sir ka bataya hai…it's better agr woh usse yeh baat na Karen toh..kyunki phir woh iss conclusion per pahoch jaayega ki woh acp sir ki ummedon per khadha nahi ho saka…"
"aur daya try kariyega aap maximum times usske saath rahein…koshish karein ghar mein ya abhijeet kea as paas andhera na ho..usually yeh scenes andhere se trigger hote hain…abhijeet ke aas paas mirrors na ho…mirror ki observation bahot common hai..abhijeet abh tak apne room ka mirror todh chukka hoga, haina?"
Daya looked towards him and said in low tone… "jee…lekin (Doctor Gorden looked towards him)"
Doctor Gorden- daya please…don't hide anything from me…
Daya(tensed tone)- abhijeet mirror se dar raha hai…ussne apne room ke mirror ke tukre tukre kar diye hain…woh aaj subah mirror mein dekhkar chilla raha tha ki who week nahi hai…woh kamzor nahi hai.."
Doctor Gorden was hearing all carefully, he was looking tensed, after daya had finished, he looked towards daya and said in calm tone… "yeh bhi hota hai daya…don't worry…mirrors se dar lagna laazmi hai…"
Daya nodded understandingly. Doctor Gorden further stated… "daya yeh kuch cheezein jo maine aapko batayi hain bahot common hai…woh bahot kam soyega…khana peena bhi kam hoga..try karein ki diet sahi rahe..halanki yeh bahot mushkil hai..raat ko sote sote uthna..darna..chillana…ek dum se kho jana..concentration problems..yeh sabh cheezein hongi hi daya…woh apne kapdo pe..apne aas paas ke logon per bahot dhyaan dene lagega…physical touch completely avoid karega..."
Doctor Gorden was looking at daya and when found a tear slipped down his eyes he stopped completely. He knew it's painful for victim but it's also painful for victim's family and friends. He now stated in soothing tone.. "daya..please..aap sambhale apne aap ko…(he got up from his chair and dragged a chair near daya and grabbing his hand said..) you are his strenght, his trust, his friend daya…please…abhijeet bilkul theek hai…aap yeh baat samajhle…bas usse usski himmat wapas chahiye joh aap usse dein sakte hai…usse apna confidence wapas mehsoos karna hai joh aap karwa sakte hai…please daya…you need to be strong….for Abhijeet.."
Daya who was still looking down just closed his eyes took a deep breath and opening his eyes once again looked up. Doctor gorden said now in smiley tone… "that's like a good boy..oops oops…I am sorry..man….toh zara aajeyein wapas?"
Daya nodded in silence.
Doctor gorden asked him again… "mujhe bas ek aakhri sawal puchna hai aapse daya…kya abhijeet aapko usse dur rehne ke liye kehta hai daya?"
Daya looked at him and nodded as now much composed because something else was their in his heart now… "doctor anuj ke kehne per main abhijeet ke saath usske ghar per ruka hua hun….lekin abhijeet bahot irritated hai iss baat se…usse bahot takleef hoti hai..(in painful tone) kehta haiki usse lagta hai ki hum usska mazaak bana rahein hain…"
Doctor Gorden(calmly)- kyunki usse dar haiki aapko pata chal jaayega ki usske saath kya hua hai aur phir aap log usse kamzor, bekaar aur ganda samjhenge…(firmly) leave him daya…
Daya looked at him shocked and said.. "lekin doctor…main usse aise…"
Doctor Gorden(in same firm tone)- aaj abhijeet ko ghar per drop karne ke baad aap chale jaayega apne ghar…(looking at daya who was trying to protest) daya…abhijeet iss waqt khud akele rehne ki condition mein nahi hai…haan who chahta haiki usse akela chodh diya jaaye..magar woh khud akela nahi reh paayega…panic hojayega…har cheez se dar lagne lagega usse…(stressing) woh aapko khud wapas bulayega believe me…"
Daya looked towards the doctor and nodded in same silence. Doctor Gorden lastly said to daya….
"daya...ek baat humesha yaad rakhiyega iss situation ko leke aapki thinking abhijeet ke upar bahot jyada effect daale ge..halanki iss samaye abhijeet iss cheez se waakif nahi haiki aap iss baare mein jaante hain..magar aapki ki hui ek ek baat ussper effect karegi…yahan tak ki har kissi ki baat…(firmly) koi bhi agar iss samaye abhijeet se yeh kehdeta haina daya ki ussne zaroor jaan bhuj kar aisa kiya tha toh…abhijeet humesha humesha ke liye kho jaayega daya…abhijeet ka brain iss samaye har negative cheez ke baare mein sochne ke liye capable hai…aur har positive cheez ko ignore karne mein bhi..(daya was listening to him silently) just remember…usse bahot positive environment mein rakhe..hansi mazak Karen..lekin bas aisi kisi bhi cheez ke baare mein na baat kare joh usse effect kar sakti hai…waise hum logo ke liye patiet se direct aat kara jyada jaroori hota hai…leki patiet hurt hi feel kare lagta hai issliye ehtar hai aap abhijeet ko samhallei..."
He got up and daya followed him. Doctor Gorden gave him his card with… "daya aap mujhe call kar sakte hai jabh hi aapko jaroorat ho…"
Daya was silent but nodded and after once again shaking his hand with Doctor Gorden both moved out.
Daya's mind and heart were however working on a different plane now, he moved towards abhijeet's room and peeping inside saw abhijeet still sleeping so moved in and sitting beside his buddy held his hand with a strong grip and whispered to him… "main unn logon ko saza zaroor dunga abhijeet jinki wajah se aaj tum iss dard se guzar rahe ho…yeh wada hai mera tumse…" daya's eyes had a fire in them which was enough to swallow the people who had done this to his buddy.
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