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4 days later.
Daya trying to ask abhijeet regarding joining bureau but everytime he tried to ask him this his voice automatically shuts. Today after 2 days he again wanted to try as after some days now acp sir would be returning and as per Doctor Gorden it was better if daya himself talked to abhijeet regarding joining bureau.
He had already settled the dining table and was waiting for abhijeet. After that day though abhijeet taking less time in getting ready but daya easily feeling the change as abhijeet became much more conscious about his surroundings and himself. He was mostly checking his hair, straightening his shirt, removing the creases from his coat. Sighing daya just jerked his head.
After few minutes abhijeet be there and now both taking breakfast. Daya was continuously trying to speak something and again and again looking towards abhijeet, finally he managed to say…
"abhijeet…"
Abhijeet looked towards him instantly. He was also noticing that daya wanted to talk to him or ask something but he deliberately avoiding it as he knew what daya wanted to know and he knew he wasn't ready yet or may e he will ever e…
Daya after taking a deep breath asked… "boss…bureau kabse join kar rahe ho yaar…"
Abhijeet simply looked down with… "hmm…woh daya…main soch raha tha ki…ek baar acp sir aajaye delhi se toh main phir hi…" he had no better reason to deny as he even after loads of efforts was not able to come up with anything sensible.
Here daya after hearing that excuse remembered a simple line…
"yaar daya kya hai yaar…itni bhi kharab tabiyet nahi hai meri…aur phir sir bhi nahi hai daya abhi…tum kaise pure bureau ka kaam akele sambhaloge, haan?acha dekho main bureau chalta hun magar site per nahi jaaunga theek?"
Daya got an idea from this so asked… 'acha abhijeet tum site per nahi jana…lekin bureau toh chal sakte hona? (abhijeet was silently taking his breakfast, daya continued) ghar per rehkar bhi toh tum bore hi ho gaye hoge…(while getting up and trying to enourage him as) chalo phir jaldi se tayyar ho jao main gaadi…"
An irritated tone stopped him as… "daya kaha na maine nahi jana hai mujhe bureau…tum please jaao…mai theke hun yahi.." he moved inside his room after that…
"daya please na…mai chalta hun aaj…itne din se ghar mei baithe baithe mai bore hogaya hun…(irritatingly) abh mera bas tandoor banne ki deri hai…chal na tu gaadi nikal main aata hun…"
Daya took a deep breath and after than enter inside abhijeet's room too after knocking as now abhijeet started locking his room door. He moved forward and said in firm tone after seeing abhijeet taking his medicines silently…
"main nikal raha hun…(teasingly) tum betho ghar per…halanki bureau mein kaafi jaroorat hai tumhari…lekin jabh tum (stress) ghar per hi ghutkar bethna chahte ho toh tumhari marzi...(daya silently kept the quallis keys on the side table and left the room with) take care…"
Abhijeet looked towards him and sighed. He silently sat down on bed tiredly as he himself was bored sitting idol at home but he could not muster enough courage or strenght or confidence to move to bureau…
Abhijeet looked towards the quallis keys which were lying over side table and wanted to pick them up when that sentence once again rang in his ears…
"tum bahot kamzor ho inspector…. batao joh banda apni izzat nahi bacha paya…woh desh ke liye kya karega…tch…tch…kamzor ho tum inspector…bahot kamzor…"
Abhijeet jerked his head and whispered…
"nahi main…main bureau nahi jaa sakta…(he closed his eyes in pain) sahi kaha tha uss aadmi ne…jabh main khud ki izzat nahi bacha paya toh kissi ki jaan kya bachaunga…"
Here daya moved out of the house and taking a cab left towards bureau.
He was thinking with hope I the way… "please abhijeet aaj mere bharose ko nahi tutne dena tum…mujhe yakeen hai tum apne aapko rok nahi paaoge…"
Here abhijeet was under a dilemma. His gaze was constantly turning towards the open key at his side but his heart and mind were denying his desire. He took a deep breath and got up with a harsh comment as…
"yeh main jaanta hun daya ne jaan bhujkar kiya hai…uhf..(he took a deep breath and again looked towards the keys and murmured) ek baar jaake dekh aata hun..(jerking his head) nahi mujhe…mujhe bureau se door rehna hoga…yeh sahi nahi hai…"
He was feeling confused and irritated, his thoughts were not clear. He looked towards the keys again and now picked them up with… "bas 10 minute..ander phir bahar…"
He took a deep breath and wanted to leave when he saw his own reflection over the door. He moved to washroom after that. Washed his face several times. Feeling his face contained dirt so now using face wash too. He looked at his reflection which was staring back at him with water dripping down his face as he had still not wiped it. He now stood taking support of wash basin and whispered after few minutes in painful tone… "tum bahot gande dikhne lage ho abhijeet…"
He backed up, his all energy already drained as he realized he was not "looking good". But the fact was that he was afraid to face anyone and everyone. He was afraid that they might know his secret through his face which was looking so dirty...through his body language which seemed changed…through his eyes which were now the mirror to those happenings. He sat down taking a long deep breath and silently placed back the keys from where he had picked them up.
Already 10 minutes had passed since daya had arrived at bureau. Only freddy and rajat were present at this moment and somewhere this is the reason he wanted abhijeet to be here at this time as later everyone coming in and may be it becomes easy for abhijeet to meet people one by one. But his wait boils up now as the new officers entering inside bureau. His enthusiasn and unknown smile died and he taking a deep breath now sat lazily over his chair.
Freddy who saw the enthusiasm and happiness boils up feels sad so decided to do something. Though he was not aware of the "true" reason regarding abhijeet's absence but he didn't need it because he knew today daya took a step to bring abhijeet sir but that was boiled up by the latter. He silently moved out of the bureau and called abhijeet on his landline…
Abhijeet who was sitting on his bed with closed eyes opened them after hearing the landline ringer so got up hurriedly to pick it up and after picking it up heard…
"good morning sir kaise hain aap?"
Abhijeet was shocked as he didn't see the number, but after composing himself answer in fresh tone…
"main theek hun freddy? Tum kaise ho…aur aaj aise subah subah kaise yaad kiya haan?"
Freddy(smilingly)- main bhi theek hun sir…arre sir yaad toh hum aapko roz karte hain..(abhijeet smiles sadly) magar aaj ek khaas baat ke liye yaad kiya hai…"
Abhijeet was feeling confused so ask… "matlab…"
Freddy(playing his card now)- sir aaj aap bureau nahi aa rahe?
Abhijeet felt shocked but managed with… "haan…hmm..i mean woh freddy…main…meri tabiyet thodhi theek nahi haina bas issliye…"
Freddy's voice turned sad… "acha sir..hum logone toh..(after few minutes to let his sadness sink inside the person's heart) chaliye chodiye sir…aap araam karein…health jyada important hoti hai…kaam toh chalta hi rehta hai…hum sambhal lenge yahan…take care sir…"
Abhijeet wanted to ask something further but freddy cut the call. Abhijeet's brain started working in high speed now as he can't get the reason behind that sadness…this call…daya's question today itself…he whispered to himself…
"mujhe jana hi hoga…aakhir ho kya raha hai…"
He moved to his room and this time after avoiding each and every thing else simply grabbed the quallis keys and turning off lights and closing windows left the house after locking the main door.
Freddy turned behind to look at daya staring at him angrily. Freddy felt afraid so said after putting his head down… "umm..i..i am sorry sir..mujhe laga abhijeet sir aise…mujhe aap dono ke maamle mein nahi…
He stopped with… "thank you freddy.."
Freddy looked up to find daya smiling towards him with tears in his eyes…freddy said further.. "sir aap please…"
Daya(softly)- nahi freddy…sach bahot jyada shukriya…shayad main kabhi usse aise bula hi nahi pata…(guilty tone) I am sorry freddy…main tumhe kuch bata bhi nahi.."
Freddy said softly… "nahi sir…mujhe kuch jaana bhi nahi hai…main bas yeh chahta hun ki abhijeet sir jald se jald wapas aajaye…aur kuch nahi sir..(innocently) aapko pata hai main unnki daant ko bhi miss karne laga hoon…"
Daya laughed softly and asked in teasing tone.. "main daant dun freddy?"
Freddy shaking his head in no with… "nahi sir…abhijeet sir wali daant alag hoti hai…(sadly) mujhe iss baat ka pata tabh chala tha sir jabh abhijeet sir coma mein..(he stopped with a lump in his throat, daya closed his eyes feeling that pain again) aur abh chala sir..kissi ne sach kaha hai sir…jabh humare paas koi cheez bahot jyada hona toh usski ehmiyet hum samajh hi nahi paate…aur jabh woh chali jaaye toh bahot der hojati hai.."
He moved inside after saying that while daya was still standing there. This time he was feeling that though everytime they coped up with every pain and difficulty with new lessons to learn but everytime they lost a part of themselves too which they would never find again. A fear came in his heart which took the form in words as… "kaheen abhijeet apne aapko na khode iss baar.."
He moved inside after that taking a deep breath as indeed they had quite a lot of work to do.
Here abhijeet within 15 minutes reached bureau. As he had preffered to not to go in bureau basement parking so he parked the car outside bureau and when came out his eyes stuck on the proudy logo of CID BUREAU.
He was staring at it dipped in complete guilt as he felt he didn't maintain it's dignity, it's pride. Turning his head down now, he stood there in complete silence.
Taking a deep breath he looked up again and wanted to leave the place but heard something from his side so turned to see sachin…
Sachin(coming forward with a smile on his face)- arre abhijeet sir…(abhijeet too smiled softly) sir aap theek hain? Kal daya sir keh rahe the ki bas aapki tabiyet theek nahi issliye aap bureau nahi aa rahein hain…
Abhijeet looked towards him and said… "main abh theek hun sachin…tum kaise ho?"
Sachin(smiling)- main bhi bilkul theek hun sir…(sadly) bas aapko sabh log bahot miss kar rahe hain…(smiling now) magar abh toh aap aagaye hain…chaliye sir upper chalte hain…
Abhijeet was still hesitant but he had no reason to deny sachin so moved with him upstairs with slow hesitant steps. Sachin feeling abhijeet's discomfort but reasoned it with his absence from bureau for a long time and also all of them were aware of the torture consequences so sachin trying to make him feel normal.
He tried to start a coversation as… "sir aap daya sir ke saath nahi aaye?"
Abhijeet looked at him feeling dizzy due to his harsh guiltful thoughts…
"tum iss jagah ke layak nahi ho abhijeet…"
"pehle apni izzat bachana seekho phir kissi ki jaan bachana tum…"
"you have put us all under shame MR. ABHIJEET…."
He jerked his head and was going to fall off the stair as disbalanced but sachin grabbed him with… "sir..sambhalke…"
Abhijeet looked at him and immediately straightened himself with… "hmmm…woh mai pata nahi kya…thank you sachin.."
Sachin(with soft smile)- koi baat nahi sir…chaliye hum upper chalke hi baatein karte hain…aapki tabiyet theek nahi lagrahi…
Abhijeet nodded without any argument as he was really not feeling good.
A/ N
Sorry for late update guys but as I told you all I had a test today so was busy with that only…sorry again
I know guys story moving at a slow pace but from next chapter it will surely gain speed. ;)
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