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His head rested on the edge of the bath tub, the antiseptic agents in the water stung the cuts on his skin, but relief would quickly follow. Jinora walked around the tub, she perched herself on one of the thick, stone edges. She looked at Kai, his head back and body mostly submerged in water, there were scattered bubbles everywhere. Jinora did not realise Kai was nude, until some separated. She blushed lightly as she took in his whole body, his stomach and his strong legs. She had never seen an erection before, she blushed, she felt an indescribable need to be close to him, have him touch her.
Kai tried to gather the courage to talk, they promised… They promised they would not take me over, so long as I didn't tell anyone anything. They would give us as much privacy as they could to say good-bye. They didn't know he was saying good-bye to her, he planned to take care of himself, and his spirit, exterminate both. The words came out carefully, slowly, he tried to lift his head, "I miss you."
She lifted her eyes from his immersed torso and stared at him, he was watching her, even with his head leaning on the bath. She bit into her lip, she didn't want to cry. His lips moved again, Kai didn't make a noise, but Jinora read the words as if they had been spoken.
Join me.
She thought about it for a moment, she had imagined their reunion from the minute she knew he was gone. It was all so clear to her, he would run to her and grab her, kiss her and they would work out whatever was going wrong together. She had a million different scenarios, but that was her most visited. When she had finally seen him, standing in her doorway, she was only angry, why would he leave me? Why would he leave without a word? But right now, watching him silently pleading for forgiveness, or comfort, or contact, Jinora felt a lot of the anger evaporate. It wasn't like it was stored within her for a later moment, it was gone, into the atmosphere. She internally joked that it may come down with the next storm, but she knew that was all too likely. She sighed, standing and removing her robe, her pyjamas.
It felt wonderful to be free of them, the steam soaking into every part of her body, Kai hadn't removed his eyes from her own. Yet, something told Jinora that he was dying to let them wander. She sunk slowly into the water, the antiseptic did nothing to her skin, she did not need it. Though, the heat in the water felt as though it would burn her, she knew better, the contrast to the cool night air making the water temperature feel greater. She moved slowly towards him, keeping her eyes on his, reaching for the cloth she was using to clean him. She made small circles up his legs, the dirt and dried blood dissolving into the water to be filtered out by the systems. Though the tops of his legs and pelvic area were visibly clean, she still skipped his middle out of bashfulness and moved straight for above his stomach, cleaning across his chest and shoulders. She made sure his arm was out of the water, moving across his shoulder, before she moved to do his back. He sat up from the wall, moving out so Jinora could fit behind him, she made small circles over the lines of his back. The muscles were tight and knotted, she moved the cloth around and around.
She didn't expect it, but Kai suddenly leant back, his head resting against her shoulder. He sniffed twice and then Jinora realised he had tears rolling freely down his cheeks, she dropped the cloth and wrapped her arms around his chest. There were stillness between them, the water still thundering in the background, she didn't know what was causing him to become so upset, this was not like him. She wanted to comfort him, she wanted to make him happy, like he had for her in times formerly. She press her lips tenderly to the inside on his neck, there was a moment of calm before Kai reacted.
It was quick, their heads bumped in the moment that Kai spun himself around, she gasped in surprise and pain. She brought her hand up to her temple, and Kai was mirrored. He dropped his bandaged hand from his forehead and gripped the edge of the bath behind her head, he pushed his lips against hers roughly. She moved her hand to his cheek, the other resting in a clenched fist against his chest. Their lips moved together, heat building within them both. His tongue was warm and strong, opening her mouth and pushing inside. He pulled back from the kiss and traced his fingers across her lips, trailing down her neck and outlining of her breasts, still hidden beneath the water.
Kai still keep his eyes on hers.
She watched as him as he took in her body with his hands, everything about her was petite, he thought she was incredible.
Powerful, he thought was a better word.
He didn't want to speak and risk saying something that may ruin this moment, their moment in time. He lifted his eyes to hers, the emerald and auburn clashing, the warmth and the cool. He moved back to her lips, kissing her softly to start again, his whole being was excited, not only by the closeness of their bodies, but for the warmth that surrounded him, how safe he felt here.
He hadn't initially realised the tears had begun to fall free down his cheek, slipping under his chin and dropping into the water.
He knew now.
Jinora wiped the tears with her thumb, she left a clean smudge beneath his eye, where she had yet to clean. She pulled back from him, holding his face in her hands, she smiled softly as she started to wash the dirt from his face. Dipping her hands into the water and wiping them gently across his face, he watched as her hands pulled away covered in dirt and returned clean. Each time her hands took less and less dirt, cleaning his skin.
He thought back to their first kiss, when he wanted to keep her, to when he left the dark smudge on pure skin. Her fingers washing away what made him feel so shadowy and untrustworthy, he wanted to come our as pure as she was on the other side of this moment, still their moment.
His mind tried to block out possibility of possession, the singular candle, near the door flickered at the base of the wick. He had managed to keep his eyes away from her body, if I don't see anything, they can't, he closed his eyes. He needed this moment, and took as many precautions as he could. He was in darkness, but she was there, holding him to everything, keeping him safe.
The sound of the tap was still roaring, that would be enough cover for exchanging of signs or whispers. He just wanted his alone time with her, before he was made to leave, he needed to have her, she needed to have him. Their bodies were slick and hot from the scorching water, his uninjured hand explored her body beneath the sweltering surface. Her breasts were small and round, his thumb glided over her areola before trailing down to her hips.
Jinora knew what was going to happen between them, she knew that she should stop it. The look of defeat she had witnessed, the pain he was going through, how he had never looked so overthrown in all the time she had known him, she should stop it.
But she couldn't bring herself to let him leave her, she craved his touch to the point where she ached. She never knew of this part of a physical romance, the literal aching to be held and loved. She could tell he had the essence of anxiety, like he needed to do something, a schedule to keep. His lips crushed down on hers, there was pain in the kiss and Jinora fought against his fear for this time to end. She wanted him to know that she would fight with him, for him, against whatever was causing him grief.
Their legs were tangled under the water, Jinora managed to free hers, she lifted one, hooking it over his hip. He responded by moving his body to hers, his pelvis pushed against hers, their lips never breaking apart. She could feel his erection against her lower abdomen, her stomach growled with a strange emotion she couldn't place. There was a mixture of desperation, anticipation and arousal, it excited her, she could tell it had the same effect on him. He groaned against her lips as she reached between them, she was acting on instinct, she held his width in her hand. She tried not to think about the size, there was no room for nerves at a time like this. She knew where everything went, she had learnt from a talk with her mother, aunt and grandmother, she knew what to do. She held him firmly, careful not to hurt him too much, she had to admit, she did not feel like being gentle. She rested the head of his erection against herself, she knew what to do, but not exactly where to go. It felt right, she lifted her hand and gripped his hair, she waited.
He broke their kiss, both panting loudly, he was aware how their bodies were. He was definitely aware where his erection was placed, he wanted to be careful, and to not hurt her, but he knew that it was a hopeless desire. His eyes were squeezed closed, the fingers of his bandaged hand digging into the bath's walls. His free hand wrapped under her waist, holding her to him.
He moved his head and kissed the dimple between her lips and her chin, and Jinora's heart flared into a string of hammering beats, his own mimicking, their chests together, her eyes fluttered closed.
He pushed his hips to hers, her body seemed to reject any intrusion. She breathed deeply, feeling her body beginning to accept. There was a moment of resistance before her body gave into his, she cried out in pain, gasping in surprise. Kai kissed her lips, her chin, her cheeks, her neck. Her hand tightened in his hair as he still pushed into her, he prayed that she would feel relief, he slowly began to withdraw from her, he groaned against her neck. He paused, resting his forehead against hers, he slowly opened his eyes, trying to see what she wanted him to do. He only saw her, her large eyes, still managing to hold love and kindness for him that he didn't deserve. The dimness around them was thick with exhilaration, he could see her smile timidly. One of her hands caressed his cheek, she could feel the fresh tears there, she leaned her body up slightly. She wanted him to continue, she moved her hands to his hips, she guided him. He closed his eyes again, she mirrored.
He didn't want to let himself become a selfish lover, he listened to her sighs as they arose, if they were sighs of pleasure, he would try and repeat what he did. He didn't want to think of the pleasure that was raking over his body in droves, he didn't want to be the only one feeling this way. Jinora's body twitched sightly, still experiencing discomfort, she bit into his shoulder. He gasped, tightening his arm around her waist, still thrusting into her gently. Kai almost called out in happiness when she seemed to let her body relax, finally able to unwind in the hot water. Feeling her move her body with his, he let the pleasure seep over him.
Jinora let the pain run its course, she knew that no two experiences were the same, the hot water soothing and numbing her exterior body. When the worst of the pain seemed to leach away she began to move her body with his, the water swirled around them. He moved his hips faster into her, she tilted her head back, resting it on the wall of the bath. Kai kissed down her neck, his body felt as though it was pulsating with pleasure. She was breathing deeply, her body reacting to his motions, his sighs. She wasn't sure what caused it to begin, but as he thrust carefully into her again, her body kick-started. Suddenly each movement was overly sensitive, each shift of his body made her sigh loudly. His own self responded to her, whispering her name as he struggled to keep at a consistent pace. Her back arched as she felt herself quiver, still held firmly against his body, she felt herself become light. She couldn't describe it, she didn't want too. It coursed through her body, she started to moan louder, Kai's lips silenced hers. Her fingers clawed at his shoulder blades, he was breathing raggedly.
He held her tighter as he felt her body convulse against him, her orgasm rolled over her.
She had never experienced this before, it was nothing like the character in her book had described. Kai's touch was everything, she couldn't imagine herself without it, he felt the same about her. He slowed his pace as his own climax took over him, she moaned his name gently, the way she felt around him, against him, he groaned against her lips as he released himself inside her. He didn't want to leave, he didn't want to die, he had all but forgotten the spirit within him.
They were still, Kai opened his eyes as he settled next to Jinora, she gasped, "Your arm!" the stitches must have torn, he didn't notice. He looked at her, watching her eyes as she moved to tend to his arm, she was talking to him softly, asking him about pain he assumed. He smiled lightly at her, the candlelight was dimmer than before, she stopped talking and watched his lips, the smile was genuine, it was Kai.
The smile was all Kai.
"I love you." He whispered.
They had said it before, usually prior to a mission, or when they would be apart for a long period of time. This time, the words settled over the moment in such a way that Jinora felt her eyes begin to tear slightly, she reached forward and cupped his cheek, Kai held her hand there. "I love you too," she murmured, "And I don't think anything will change that." She returned to tending to his arm, she needed more supplies from the cupboard. She stepped out of the bath, trying to cover herself, not wanting Kai to see her from a possibly bad angle. He wasn't looking at her, but he was still smiling lightly, Jinora assumed he was trying to be polite by not staring directly at her. She quickly collected her outer robe and wrapped it around her shoulders, she couldn't put her finger on it, but she felt different. She felt more empowered with the gained knowledge that her body could do something like that, something that was usually so taboo, felt so natural. She felt a slight throbbing within herself, but other than that, she felt a hundred feet tall.
She rummaged through the small cupboard, secretly thanking Kya for practically forcing Tenzin to put one in every bathing room. She reached for a new bandage, as she lifted it, a small bag fell forwards spilling sand-like grains over the cupboards shelf. She hurried to clean it up, she read the bag quickly, sedative. She blinked twice at the writing, as if someone had ignited a candle, all the feelings of doubt crashed over her. Where did he go? What is happening to him? Jinora was no idiot, she knew something was effecting Kai, and that the bruises and scratches she saw were too well placed.
The way he acted in the days leading to his disappearance, how he didn't want me to talk about personal stuff… Running away during our moment by the fire…
She understood in a moment, someone is using him… The energy, it is him! He is possessed! The glow… The glow when we were at the mountain! It was a spirit taking over him!
It didn't make sense, possession by a spirit resulted in serious injury or death. Kai seemed physically fine apart from the scratches and Suyin's cut, but she couldn't believe how everything else fell into place. Her cheeks felt hot, scorching, her hands shook slightly. She couldn't believe it had taken this long, some spiritual master, a part of her mind cussed herself. The rest of her mind came to the conclusion that he would be taken again, she needed to keep him here, away from harm. She looked at the small bag again, the instructions on it were clear, add to water, drink approx. half a cup. Effects last four hours minimum. She looked towards the basin, there was a decorative cup with a picture of a bison on it. She moved to get it, catching a small amount of cool water in it from the fountain of cool water balancing the hot in the bath. Kai still had his eyes closed, she poured a decent amount of the grains in, constantly checking over her shoulder. She mixed it quickly, the grains disappeared in the water, she fought against the feelings of guilt.
She turned back towards him, trying to keep an expressionless face. He opened his eyes as she sat near him, while still outside the bath, she held the cup to him, the medical supplies in her other hand, "Here," she smiled, "This is for the heat… Dehydration can make you sicker." Kai took the cup and tried to smile, the pain from his arm was back with limited distraction. He grimaced as Jinora began to unravel the bandage again, he drank deeply, the cool water washing through his mouth and down his throat.
It didn't take long before Kai's body started to become heavy, the last thing he felt was Jinora's warm lips, press softly to his.
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This chapter is for Bluedog270, I hope your weeks get better and whatever it is that is bothering you can be worked out. I look forward to your review every week, you rock.