EPOV

It took a while for me to re-emerge from my room after that. Id fallen back into isolation far worse than id ever experienced. Pain was all i felt anymore pain and longing for what id lost, i always thought she would move on and fall in love again. That she would forget about me, get married and grow old with her children around her. It wasnt supposed to end like this. Words from her favorite book rang through my head: "If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the unicerse would turn to a mighty stranger."

I just got angerier and angerier. How could i leave her! She promised to be careful-to not do anything reckless, only to die in a car crash three days later! My room was in shambles! My clothes spoiled from wear. The only noises that echoed through the house was my growls and screams in their varying levels of intensity.

"May she wake in torment!" He cried with frightful vehmence, stamping his foot, and groaning in a sudden paroxysm of ungovernable passion. "Why she's a liar to the end! Where is she? Not there-not in heaven-not perished-where? Oh! You said you cared nothing for my sufferings! And in one prayer-i repeat it till my tongue stiffens-Bella Swan, may you not rest as long as i am living; you said i killed you-haunt me then! The murdered do haunt their murderers, i believe. I know that ghosts have wandered on earth. Be with me always-take any form-drive me mad! Only do not leave me in this abyss, where i cannot find you! Oh, God! It is unutterable! I cannot live without my life! I cannot live without my soul!" (Wuthering Heights, ch 16)

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It has been weeks since my family has even attempted to have a conversation with me. Yet at the same time everyday my dear adoptive mother crept into my room and whispered sweet memories to me in an attempt to bring me solice. It was in these few minutes everyday that i allowed myselfbto remember every painstaking detail about my love. The exact shade of her eyes, the natural wave of her mahogany hair, the color of her blush and how she would bite her lip. The shade of blue that matched perfectly with her pale skin tone. Oh, how i missed her! What wouldnt i do to see her face just one more time? I could think of nothing i wouldnt do to make her hapoy just one more time. If i had known what would become of her, i would never have left.

"I'm so sorry Edward. We should never have left Forks."

"Its all my fault," i whispered to the room.

"Your siblings miss you. I miss you. Your father has lost his spark since finding out. We all blame ourselves dear, but do you honestly think that she would want us to wallow in guilt? To never find happiness again? You once were comforted by thinking about how happy she might have been. I think it would be a shame to her memory if i allowed you to continue to sit in you room, alone, everyday."

"I cant live without her, mom," I sobbed out.

"It'll be hard, i know, but i think she would want you to try. For her. So, you'll be going back to school with your siblings come monday right?"

I nodded my assent. I would do anything for my Bella, even if it is much too late.

**AN: SORRY THIS IS LATE GUYS, I WAS ON VACATION LAST WEEK AND THEN LAPTOP TROUBLES...SO, THIS WAS TYPED ON MY NOOK CAUSE YOU DESERVED ANOTHER UPDATE! (HENSE ALL THE ERRORS) THANKS SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR CONTINUED SUPPORT, I LOOK FORWARD TO HEARING ALL COMMENTS, AND QUESTIONS! PLEASE REVIEW!**