YAY! CHAPTER 10, FINNNAALLLLYY!!! just doesnt seem like anyones reading anymore...:(

AYAKA POV

It was already 11:45 and Shuichi hasn't come home yet. He had run off after I told him. I really don't blame him, he probably hates me now.

I wanted to die, I don't deserve to ive! I hurt my poor SHuichi! Why didn't I just accept his proposal?

'Because you love Yuki', a tiny voice in my head purred.

"NO! NO!" I yelled, the second time more forceful.

"I CANT still love him! I love Shuichi! My lover! My SUPPOSED to be fiance!" I screamed, not caring who heard.

'Yes, you love Shuichi very much. And you also love Yuki, too!' The voice came back, from the far corners of my head. I almost slapped myself so it would go back.

But the voice was right. I loved them both.

Maybe I should just kill myself. (A/N yes, you should...) Or maybe leave Shuichi and Yuki forever, for Yuki doesn't love me, and I don't deserve Shuichi.

Yuki POV

"I loved Ayaka, I really did, but more of a sister, and not enough to marry her. But then I broke her heart, and now she probably hates me, or worse, she still loves me. Our marraige was arranged by our parents, but she still fell for me. I don't know why, I snapped at her for every little thing, frowned when she tried to cheer me up, and worse of all, she loved me and I didn't love her back. I slept with other girls, and even a couple guys, but she still loved me. Those were all little flingsg, but then I actualy got a girlfriend, and she snapped. I didn't even realize until then that I loved her, just not the same way she loved me. I CARED for her. She was nice to me, and her face lit up when I smile that ONE time we were together. I loved when she got mad, seeing that I wasn't the only one. She loved me, but I still broke her heart. I didn't want to hurt her, I didn;t even realize at the time that I gave a damn about her, but that day, when she slapped me, in that one second, I realized I cared, I loved, but I didn't deserve," I finished, tears flowing down my face freely, not caring anymore.

Shuichi was crying, too. I dont know why, but I pulled him into my arms, and we cryed together. here I was, crying after 6 years, and in the arms of a stranger.

But...it felt right.

A/N

SQEEEE!!!! I cant wait! lol R&R!!!!