Me: OMFG! IM SO SORRY ITS BEEN SO LONG! I couldnt help it, my damn computer, well, actually, fanfiction, wouldnt let me upload any files!!! Gomen gomen gomen, please keep reading! and, also, i suggest you check out my R/P! If you want to be a character, just tell me!

R/P is: http:// community. 1gravitation1/ 610. html

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to read the next entry, click the green arrow to the right, and read that one. 2 of the pages have so much writing, that you wont be able to see the last dozen, so you have to click on the link on the top. EX: "RE:"-RyuichiSparkly. If you click on the "RE:", the FIRST one, in blue, you can veiw the reast of it. That happens on 2 pages. If you have any questions, EMAIL me, at Dont be a poo gmail. com(take out spaces) or PM me on fanfiction! NOW, LONG AT LAST, THE STORY!

AYAKA POV

I was ready to call the police. It was nearly 1:37! IN THE MORNING! What if something hapened to my poor baby?!

(A/N HES NOT FUCKING YOURS!)

IT WOULD BE ALL MY FAULT, I WOULDNT DESERVE TO LIVE!

((A/N got that right!))

Quickly, I grabbed the knife from the kitchen and brought it to my wrist. Shaking, I lightly put pressure on the knife, and slowly dragged it accross my wrist, eating up the agnozing pain happily.

After three deep cuts, I felt lightheaded, and stared at my wrist. Three large gashes stared back at me, blood everywhere. I dont know where all the red liquid had fit in my body.

Suddenly, I came to a realization to what I had just done. I will rot in hell for cutting myself!((A.N good!)) But, it's for the best, for shuichi, for Yuki.

Flashback

"Oh, Yuki! I LOVE YOU!" I cooed, meaning every word. ((A.N back off hoe!))

"Shut the fuck up," he said simply, not even flinching. It caused me pain, his harsh words, but I still love him the same. He meant so much to me, nothing could stop me, even his harsh words and actions. Even if he didn't love me back.

Flash Forward

I fell to my kneew, sobbing, and suddenly, everything went black.

A/N hmm, pretty short for my returning chappie...gomen for that, but I have to go by what is written in my journal, even though im already on ch.23, but I have to go by those chapters, or ill get messed up! GOMEN!