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Abhijeet stode out of the hospital, his eyes filled with tears, pain, guilt, anger and hate. His stomach wound was not much severe but it was bleeding still. His shirt turned red but his dark coat protected him from the eyes of the outside world. His right hand was bleeding too due to glass while his leg also injured.
But right now this man felt no pain in his body, as the pain in his heart was so severe that it outlayed other materialistic pains.
He just came out of the hospital, walking in speed, his mind just thinking on that plane where he needed to get away from the eyes of the world and right now only one place he could think of which was his home. He found his car in parking and with shivering senses sat inside. His tears made it difficult for him to visualize anything but right now his determined heart which wanted to run provided him some aid for putting in the key and accelerating the car.
He drove extremely fast with his thoughts getting even messier with passing time. But finally he managed to reach home and coming out of the vehicle wanted to move in the house immediately but had to stop to open the door. Even he didn't knew how many times he cursed that door for keeping him vulnerable for all those 5 minutes as right now, all his focus was from hiding from the world.
He moved inside the house and closing the door just fell over his knees in front of the door itself. He was feeling tired now…extremely tired. His body demanding sleep which he was not able to get from the last 30 days and he knew that still that sleep was far away from him. Sitting with his back supported by the door he closed his eyes silently.
Here daya moved out of the hospital and came in parking first. But abhijeet had already left the place as he even found some blood drops from parking which he assumed were of abhijeet only. He was very worried for abhijeet as he may not know what actual pain his buddy suffering from but he knew the intensity of that pain in his buddy's heart after that comment.
Daya closed his eyes for a moment and whispered in painful tone while again opening them and running outside to get a taxi… "please ABHI koi galat kadam nahi uthana tum yaar…please…main aaraha hun…"
Abhijeet opened his eyes with jerk. He felt someone was coming and he was afraid. Afraid to face that someone as he knew he would never be able to answer those questions rather meeting those pitty filled eyes too. Yes he could not see pitty for himself in anyone's eyes which he saw there in hospital. So many eyes were focused on him…just him…filled with that emotion of pitty.
His body jerked back a little. He wanted to leave as now thinking…
"main daya ke aane se pehle chala jaaunga…humesha humesha ke liye…usse sabh kuch pata chal gaya hai…(he got up with the help of the door) main usse face nahi kar paaunga…kabhi nahi.."
He wanted to move to his room but in that way his eyes fell on the kitchen counter as his ears started ringing with some words from his conversation with HARSHIL from the previous night…
"kya kar rahe ho inspector, jee rahe ho ya marr rahe ho…"
"kya karna aise jeeke bhi nahi? Sirf dard…takleef…guilt…gussa aur..*whisper* beizzati…woh aankhein joh kabhi tumhe garv se dekhti hongi aaj…*teasing tone* pitty se dekhti hain…"
"chale jaao inspector sach…phir toh main tumhara video bhi leak kar dunga toh kissi ko kya fark padhta hai, haina? Tum toh marr gaye..toh badnaami kiski hogi…sara jhanjhat hi khatam nahi?"
"bechara DAYA bhi tumhare chakkar mein badnaam hoga kitna…log kya kahenge tum dono ke *stressing* rishte ke baare mein jabh unhe pata chalega ki Senior inspector abhijeet toh bhai…*with lust* kitne mast bande hain.."
He was too thinking on same plane now, while his eyes were focused on that knife which right now was inviting him to use it to put an end over all this pain, guilt, pitty etc.
Abhijeet whispered while moving forward towards knife now… "yeh sahi hai…main…main khatam hojaunga toh kissi ko koi takleef nahi hogi…mujhe bhi aur dard..takleef aur woh nafrat bhi nahi sehni padegi…daya ko bhi koi galat nahi samjhega…haan yeh sahi hai…main hi khatam hojata hun..saari kahani bhi humesha ke liye dafn hojayegi phir…(thinking with stress and pain) daya meri chita ko aag dega na…ya sabh mujhe ganda samajh kar chodh denge…Sir bhi nahi denge…(his vision turned blurry but he jerked his head with) ko..koi baat nahi…mujhe saza bhi toh milni haina.."
He picked up the knife as now reached near it. His hands were shivering due to fear or pain even he was not aware. His sweaty fingers and palm gripped the knife and he placed the sharp edge of that lethal weapon over his wrist, he closed his eyes tightly as he applied a little pressure over the soft skin and some blood drops spilled over wodden floor while some faces appeared in front of abhijeet's closed eyes…
Daya was in a taxi while he was continuously trying to call abhijeet. But he never picked his call up. Daya was getting much worried regarding his buddy and was just praying while begging the driver to drive fast but the road seemed too busy to provide daya the path to move to safe his buddy. He even tried to call his neighbors but today being a working day all were out still though it was almost night by now.
Daya again urged the driver to drive fast as his heart now started pounding more badly giving him chills in his spine as he whispered silently… "please ABHI…yaar mujhe nafrat kyun hogi tumse…"
Abhijeet suddenly released the pressure from his wrist and looked towards his room, still grabbing the knife tightly in his right hand he moved to his room and closed the door behind. A single big photoframe of his with his deary bhai caught his eyes and he grabbed it with his free hand and as silently sat down on cold floor with the almirah supporting his back.
He sat with the frame over his lap, his one hand still gripped around knife while other caressing the smiling face of that person whom abhijeet loved more than his life…
"Yaar daya teri smile na sach badhi awesome hai…"
"kya boss…tum bhi"
A teary guilty smile coming over his face as he remembered that shy smile which coming over his buddy face. He just whispered to his soul…
"daya tu mujhse naraaz nahi hona yaar...main bas bahot thak gaya hun…bahot jyada…tu samjhega na…haina?"
Abhijeet brought his left hand wrist forward, took a last look at his buddy's face and placed the knife once again in same position…
Daya literally jumped out of the taxi and while hurriedly handing the driver his money banged the door which opened instantly. But daya finding no one inside shouted to call his buddy…
"ABHIJEET…ABHI…"
But he got no reply. His was looking around in tense state when his eyes caught the site of his buddy's closed room and he moved forward with fast steps and entered inside with…
"ABHIJEET…
His eyes stuck while he feft he really missed a heart beat when he saw his buddy in that state with a knife over his wrist. Daya said again while moving forward in hurry…
"Abhijeet…kya kar rahe ho, haan? Chodho usse…"
Abhijeet with a jerk looked towards him and trying to back up while he already removed the knife from his wrist in fear. He said to daya in anger…
"Nahi daya…nahi…(he pointed the knife towards him, daya stopped as he already saw a light cut over abhijeet wrist)..tum aage nahi aana…bilkul nahi…"
Daya calmed down a bit and said softly while trying to move forward… "Abhijeet…dekho woh chaku mujhe dedo yaar…tum yeh kya…"
Abhijeet harshly… "marne jaa rahan hun main…haan marne..(rash tone) kyun koi problem hai tumhe.."
Chura ke khud se aankhein main har pal jiya…
Daya in same soft tone… "abhijeet..meri baat suno yaar meri aankhon mein dekho please…yaar woh chaku…"
Abhijeet looked in daya's eyes and said… "kya dekhun haan…NAFRAT…ya sympathy…ya mujh jaise bechare ke liye pitty…haan…aur kuch nahi dikh raha hai mujhe daya…siwai innke.."
Zeher jo usne ghola maine woh piya…
Daya felt shocked but trying to manage abhijeet as he was moving forward slowly… "ABHI…yaar dekho…main kyun tumse nafrat karunga haan…main toh…"
Abhijeet (angrily teasing as feeling fear from daya and guilty too)- toh aur kya karoge tum haan…abh toh main itna ganda hogaya hun…toh tum nafrat hi karoge na…waise bhi meri wajah se kab tak badnaam hoge tum daya…chale jaao…dekho mujhe marna…
Daya already came enough close to him and snatched away the knife from abhijeet's hands while abhijeet shouted angrily… "MUJHE WOH DO DAYA…MUJHE NAHI JEENA ISS NAFRAT KE SAATH…MARNA HAI MUJHE…PL…"
Daya slapped him harshly with rash tone… "Kisski nafrat ke saath haan…humari ka khudki?" (daya grabbed his arms tightly now as feeling extreme pain, hurt and anger over his buddy whom he always regarded as strong, he said harshly again while jerking him from his arms) meri aankhon mein dekho abhijeet…kya sachme dikhti hai nafrat…(abhijeet was still looking down towards knife which daya threw on floor, his eyes blood red, daya jerked him again more harshly this time) meri taraf dekho abhijeet…"
Abhijeet looked towards daya in his eyes and what daya saw in those eyes completely left him lifeless for few moments as his buddy's eyes contained nothing but pain.
Daya composed himself and said… "kya dikh raha hai abhijeet…haan? Nafrat? Pitty? Bas? (daya left his arms and said in teary tone) humara pyaar…tumhare liye izzat, garv, woh zindagi ke 17 saal nahi dikh rahe tumhe abhijeet? Woh darr…woh dard nahi dikh raha joh tabh tha humari aankhon mein jabh tum…tum hume sadak per ghayal mile the?
Daya's voice turned such teary and painful that abhijeet looked towards him again. He wanted to grab his bhai for a moment but another voice called as…
"kya aap log GAY relation share karte hain?"
Abhijeet jerked his head back and when noticed that daya was not looking he again picked up that knife and whispered in hate for himself which made daya shiver… "main bahot ganda hogaya hun daya…bahot ganda…main tum logon ki zindagi bhi gandi nahi karna chahta hun…please yaar…issi mein sabka bhala hai mere marne mein hi sabka bhala…"
Daya turned towards him looking composed with strong eyes, he simply moved a step closer to him while abhijeet said in pain… "nahi daya tum bhi gande hojayo…
Daya whispered to abhijeet in a tone which abhijeet had never heard from his buddy… "ganda toh main bhi huna abhijeet…(abhijeet looked in daya's eyes but daya didn't) tabhi toh mujhe mere maa baap ne phaink diya hoga…ya shayad maine hi apni maa ki jaan…(this time daya looked in abhijeet's eyes whose eyes contained hurt and anger despite just pain and hate) haina?"
Abhijeet tried to say something…his grip over knife becoming loose while daya who had already grabbed the sharp edge of knife to prevent any blunder gripped it stronger. Abhijeet said… "nahi daya…tu yeh…
Daya still maintained his tone and this time he said to abhijeet… "tum bhi gande hogaye ho abhijeet haina? (abhijeet nodded feeling more pain now as daya used that word for him, daya continued though feeling that pain too) kyunki tumne jaan ker un logon se apne saath yeh sabh karwaya…haina? Tumhe bahot maza aa raha tha na? issiliye tumne roka bhi nahi…
Abhijeet said in extreme painful tone while looking towards daya while his eyes turned tired now… "nahi daya…maine maine…bahot roka tha yaar…bahot koshish ki thi….bahot jyada…lekin unlogon ne mujhe woh drug…main hil bhi nahi paa raha tha yaar….na aankhein band kar paya…(abhijeet looked in daya's eyes) maine sabh kuch dekha yaar…apni aankhon se sabh kuch…lekin uss drug ke karan main kuch bhi nahi…(a tear fell from abhijeet's eyes while daya after seeing that tear immediately took his pained soul in his arms with tears while abhijeet continued in same painful and tired tone) main bahot cheenkha bhi tha yaar…koi aaya hi nahi…tum bhi nahi aaye yaar...(daya tightened his grip over his buddy in pain while roughling his hair softly now) main kya…phir toh bas bahot dard hua yaar…(abhijeet's voice stopped completely so daya wanted to see whether he became unconsciousness but abhijeet whispered in extreme pain again) bahot tez dard…
Chuppi ke aad mein chhipkar usne jurm kiya
Daya came back in same position as hugging his buddy tightly to let him know that now he is with him and he will not be leaving his side ever.
Bikhre toote tukde saare jud rahe hain dheere dheere
Haule hauley ...
Betuke se sur woh saare mill rahe hai dheere dheere
Haule Haule...
A/N
Hope you all had taken my advice seriously in the beginning of the chapter.
Kyunki it's first time with me that I actually cried a little (just a single tear), otherwise I am usually strong while writing but this time during last dialogue I felt pain too.
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