Hey Guys so thank you for your reviews,

since this is my first fanfic I have no Idea how long I´ll continue this story... so I´ll see and then go from there.

Anyways, I hope you enjoy it and I´m sorry if it´s to depressing ;)!

1 week later

Spencer sat on her bed, looking at the stars. She always knew that there were a lot of stars, since she was in AP astronomy but it never FELT so much, I mean you just look up at the sky and there are some stars, the quantity doesn't really matter, though. but a week ago she started to realize how many stars the freaking universe really had. Because since the day of her break up with Toby, all she did in the night was sitting on her bed, starring outside the window. She´d thought that it would be easier this time. The first time they broke up he´d basically thought that she cheated on him leaving her with a stone of guilt in her stomach and the next time she´d actually made her believe that he was just using her to seek revenge. But this time it was different. They broke up in peace, there was no A drama or anything it was actually a really adult decision. They both HAD to move on, HAD to let go. Wasn't this supposed to be easier? It wasn't supposed to hurt this much! The days were already almost unbearable but at least she had always her friends around her and could distract herself with internships and preparations for college. But the most terrible time was in the evening when she was alone in her dark room full of memories. She didn't dare to look at any direction because all she would see then was this rocking chair, made by HIS hand or the scrabble game board, THEY played with so many times. She thought about throwing all of it in the garbage, but somehow she never did. So she just kept sitting on her bed, counting the stars.

2 weeks later

"Okay, Toby I always knew you were athletic, but don't you think you´re pushing a little bit to hard? You are either in your loft or in the gym!" Emily sat on the couch of her best friend who just came back from his 8hour training day. Toby just shrug his shoulders and focused on throwing a mix of carrots, broccoli, cucumbers and paprika in the mixer. Emily frowned when she saw the different ingredients producing a shade of the most disgusting brown she´d ever seen. This situation was just so incorrect. "Seriously Toby, I get it, okay? You are heartbroken and you don't have any idea what to do with your life." She continued. "But you HAVE to do something. Anything." He didn't answer. The first days after the break up all he would do was keep staying in his bed mentally reliving every moment he ever shared with HER

"Then why´d you come here?"

"Because I missed you. Shutting you out is killing me"

He thought that it might feel him better but eventually the beautiful memories were the ones hurting the most as if every moment was a knife of agony piercing his heart. And when he´d let his window open in the night and he would feel the warm summer wind running through his room he´d keep pretending that it were HER warm hands lingering on his chest. Then he discovered the only thing that really helped him; sport. Whenever he was in the gym he could focus on nothing but the exercises he was doing and he realized that the more he concentrated on his body the less important became his thoughts and feelings. But still, he stored his truck and the motorbike in the garage, he terminated his Job as a cop and he could barely walk through Rosewood because even the freaking park reminded him on HER. So, no, there was nothing else he could do with his life right now.

3 weeks later

"You sure you are alright?" Aria asked. She and Aria were sitting on the grassland near the lake. It was hot and the sun just kept shining for weeks. "Sure!" Spencer replied trying to sound as convincing as possible. Although... actually felt alright. She was getting better, day by day, and now being with her best friend at one of the hottest days at the welcoming lake almost made her feel perfect. She laid back on her towel and closed her eyes, feeling the warm sun embracing every inch of her cold body. A was gone and she and her friends had made it out alive and were now capable of having an ordinary life. This was something she should definitely enjoy! And in a few weeks she´d be moving to London, and...

"next time you go to London you´re taking me with you and we´re never coming back."

"Well, hello Ladies." She suddenly heard a voice next to her. She and Aria both jumped up just

to find two actually pretty handsome guys standing in front of them. The taller one with the big green eyes and two adorable dimples at his cheek kept smiling at Spencer while the other one with the almost red hair clearly checked Aria out. "We had our eyes on you guys for a while now and we were just wondering if you´d like to come drink a coke with or something." "I´m sorry" Aria smiled. "But I´m not available! My friend here, though..." "Isn't available either. Would you excuse us now?" Spencer asked rather unfriendly, got up and headed for the lake, leaving the two guys totally perplex. She had no idea why she just did this. Every morning she´d made these plans about moving on and she´d almost thought that she was doing a pretty good job and now she ´d simply ditched this handsome guy "What the hell was that?" Aria asked, totally out of breath when she finally caught her friend again. "They were hot and totally into you!" "Its just.. I´m..." Spencer spluttered, looking for an excuse. "It´s just, that I haven´t seen you all summer and since I´ll be moving to the UK soon I just wanted us two to have this day together." she claimed. It wasn't the truth but not a complete lie either. "Well than." Aria smiled visibly touched. "Let´s see who´s faster at the buoy!" With those words she jumped in the ice cold water. Spencer following her.

4 weeks later

Toby overslept so he left the Brew later than usually. He was just about to go downstairs when he suddenly heard a familiar voice. A voice he would always recognize again. A voice that made every single part of his body freeze. His first intuition was to just head for this voice and its owner.

How often had he dream t about this voice the last few weeks? How DESPERATE has he been? And now he finally heard it again. But what he´d never thought was, that hearing her voice again would cause so much pain. He closed eyes and clutched the handrail next to him feeling like he could pass out every second. "... So my mum actually bought me six umbrellas for London! SIX UMBRELLAS!" "Not true!" Aria, Emily and Hanna started laughing, their voices were sounding weak and powerless compared to the first ones. Suddenly Tobys heart dropped into his guts. This wasn't fair! Spencer sat down their having fun with her friends and making plans for oxford while he was hiding in his loft. She was moving on getting ready to move away from Rosewood... from him. And she was probably gonna be happy studying at this legendary university with all those British guys and their hot accents. She was about to have a LIFE, while he´d still be here staring into space. So Toby mustered all his courage, turned around and escaped the brew through the back door, walking to his once so beloved motorbike. It was time for a change!

5 weeks later

Toby stood outside the carpenter´s shop Smith´s carpenter´s workshop. It was only a half an hour from Rosewood away, so it was actually perfect since no one here would know him but he would still be able to keep his apartment over the brew. When he applied at this company a couple of days ago he never would have thought that it would go this fast. But although his new boss seemed to be a really strict person, he´d been very thrilled with Tobys application and had hired him immediately. So he got his old carpenter clothes from the attic and shaved his beard again. It felt so good to finally become a person again who had goals.

"Are you Mr. Cavenaugh?" Toby turned around and saw a young woman standing next to him. She was about 5,8 feet tall and didn't look older than 20. She had long curly hair and her big blue eyes had an almost intimidating charisma.

"Yes, that´s me" He answered. "But I´m actually supposed to wait for my new boss Mr. Smith, he..."

"I know! I´m Lola, his daughter. He has a really important appointment today, so he asked me to show you around!" She had a bright smile on her face and seemed generally like a totally hyper and cheery person. Maybe a little to cheery for Tobys taste. It was not like he didn't like cheery people he just felt uncomfortable talking with them because he had no idea how to act.

"Don´t get me wrong, but are you sure you´ll be able to help me with my questions?" he asked carefully. "Hey! Lola crossed her arms "Maybe my biceps isn't as half as big as yours, but I practically grew up here and I know each position of every damn knife in this building, so don´t mess me!"

She seemed extremely pissed and angry now. Toby was left in disbelief. Why did ha have to provoke his bosses daughter at the first day of his work? He tried to make the best of a bad job and tried to calm her down. "I´m really, really sorry Lola, I..."

"oh no don´t worry!" She said her eyes widening in shock. "I´m not upset or anything I get that you have your doubts! All cool!" "But what...?" "Oh you seemed so sad and tense so all I wanted to do, was to loosen up your mood."

So that was what everyone saw in him a tensed and sad little boy. Probably the same bay he was three years ago. Did he really not develop at all? When he was with HER he´d always felt different. Free and happy. Was this all gone again?

"Its just, I´m probably not that good at making jokes." Lola laughed now and you could see two little dimples around her nose and Toby couldn't help but smile. "Actually you were doing a pretty decent job. Its me, I´m a real fun killer sometimes."

Now it was Lolas turn to disagree. "I refuse to believe this! You just look a little bit shy. I´m sure once someone gets to know you..." She suddenly stopped and started to blush.

"What?" "Nothing, it´s just... maybe you could give me the chance to know you better. Maybe we could grab a coffee after the guidance."

"I´m not driving back to Rosewood with low blood sugar Spencer. That's worse than no caffeine Spencer!"

"Wow your girlfriend sounds awesome!"

Lola certainly noticed Tobys sudden change of mood and frowned.

"It´s just that I´m not sure if us going on a date is such a good idea." He carefully said.

"Oh it doesn't have to be a date we could just you know try to be friends." Lola added pretty nervous. Apparently this was really uncomfortable for the both of them.

"It´s nothing personal, but you should know that I´m really terrible when it comes to making friends. Lola laughed in relief. "Oh don't you worry about that. I´d say I´m yours."

Toby shock his head. "I don't see how this is humanly possible. I didn't have any friends during high school and everyone was just calling me the freak." Toby´d never talked with anyone but HER about his past before but there was something about Lola that made it really easy to tell her stuff.

"Well." She smiled. "I can top that. My would give me private lessons and I never even went school, so the only parties I would ever be invited to were the birthday parties of my nursemaid!" Toby laughed and suddenly he started to see this Lola girl in a totally different way. She was pretty, knew how to laugh and most of all, she really seemed to get what he´s been going through.

Maybe there was a chance for him to move on after all?