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Chapter 8- Magic Man
In high school I had a best friend who tried to commit suicide. She was sent to the mental institution in Lacombe, I went to visit her everyday. The first day that I went to see her I asked her how she could do such a thing, I will always remember her answer. She told me you get to a point where your mind breaks, and you can't handle the pressure of what's going on anymore.
I never understood what exactly she meant until now.
I was having dreams of Josef every night, and it was starting to break me. I don't know how much more I can handle. My mom told me to try and control it myself, control my dreams.
"They're your dreams. Change them if you need to."
She would tell me that every time she would find me awake in the middle of the night. She couldn't understand how hard it was for me. Josef had quickly become like some forbidden fruit. The more I saw him, the more I wanted him, and the more I knew that I couldn't have him.
I couldn't have him because I knew it wouldn't work.
He was immortal, and I didn't plan on giving up my life for anyone anytime soon. So I would have to live with this shit for the rest of my life.
Yea, it sucked.
I was laid out on the couch with Bonnie and Clyde curled up against my chest. As if my dreams weren't bad enough, every time I would see those two beautiful puppies it would remind me of him. I still loved them anyway.
I hadn't heard from my dad since I left. I knew I should call, talk to him, tell him how much he hurt me, tell him that I didn't give a shit that he was dead, all I cared about was that he was around. I should tell him that I loved him.
So why couldn't he tell me about it before this whole thing happened? Was I not an important enough to know about what goes on in his life? Or...should I say...death?
Bonnie crawled up to my face and licked my nose. I couldn't help but smile. This was another thing I couldn't give up.
My mom had told me that vampires can't have animals; they couldn't be trusted with them.
I knew I couldn't give up my animals. Besides, what would PETA say?
I laughed at that thought.
My phone started ringing; I picked up Bonnie and put her back next to her brother. I had to look for it a bit, but finally found it underneath some magazines on the table.
"Hello?"
"Hey."
Holy shit.
"Um...hi..."
"Your mom just called me."
"Really?"
"She told me she would tie me to a pole and set me on fire if I didn't reverse this connection."
I sat there for a moment. That defiantly sounded like something she would say.
"Okay..."
"Should I be afraid?"
"I would recommend you get some extra security."
"Don't cut me out Antoinette..."
"Why don't you just read my mind and make it easier on the both of us."
"Because, I don't like doing that to you."
"Bullshit."
"Look , I'm sorry for what I did, but it can't be reversed."
"Why'd you do it?"
He sighed; I knew he was trying to think of an answer.
"I don't know..."
"You don't know...you connected us, without a decent reason?"
"I feel like I can't control myself around you. You get to me and I can't understand why."
I sat back down on the couch and the puppies crawled into my lap.
"It's called lust Josef, I thought after 400 years you would understand what that is."
"No, this is different, I've lusted after girls before, but you...well, you're different."
"You're a real bastard you know that?"
"And you're a bitch. I think we've covered this before haven't we?"
"Don't be a dick."
"But it comes so easily."
"Fuck you."
"Yea, I think we covered that already too."
"Look Josef, just stay out of my dreams and we'll be okay."
"I don't know if I can promise that."
"Why not?"
I could hear the smirk in his voice when he answered. "Because, you're far too sexy at night."
"I really hate you."
"I'm not too fond of you either, but the truth is, I can't get you out of my head. You're like an addiction that I want to get rid of, but I know if I do, I'll loose a part of myself."
"You don't even know me, how can you say that?"
"That's the thing, the first time I saw you, you got to me. I can't even explain it. I know that you feel the same way too, so don't try denying it."
"I thought you said you didn't like to read my mind."
"Well sometimes it calls for it."
"You know, this whole 'connection' thing is good for you, but I get nothing out of it."
"Benefit of being the more powerful being."
"I could still kick your ass."
"I'd like to see that."
"Well if you keep being such an asshole you might."
"Is that a promise?"
I bit my lip. "Yes."
He laughed. "You realize you just gave me another reason to be an asshole right?"
"Yea, but truth is, I really wouldn't mind coming over there to kick your ass."
"What's with the sudden honesty?"
"Why try to lie, you'd know if I were."
He laughed again. "Smart girl."
"Does that shock you?"
"No, not at all."
I heard the door unlocking, I knew mom was home.
"Moms home, I better go before she decides to set you ablaze."
"See you tonight."
He hung up. I stood there, I was livid, and suddenly I wanted to invest in a flame thrower.