Chapter 9 – Still Changing, in More Ways Than One
EPOV
My phone rang. I thought about ignoring it, but picked it up on the last ring.
"Hello?" I breathed into the speaker.
"He's gone."
"Oh." I sighed.
Alice sounded worried. "How's Bella?"
"Give her a few days, right now she is not too good."
"Okay. Are you going to keep driving?"
"Yes."
"Where to?"
"No idea. Probably just around the states." I said, pulling over and pressing my fingers to my temples. "I don't know what else to do. Edwin is eventually going to find us, and I can't take him, defend Bella, and listen to her screaming."
"I understand." Alice said kindly. "I'm sorry."
"Thanks." I said. "I'll call you when we reach Arizona."
"Okay. Good luck out there."
"Thanks Alice."
She hung up and I sat there. Listening to the dial tone. Bella groaned. I held the phone to my ear. I was shaking. I was scared. Bella would have been shocked if I had admitted that when she was perfectly normal…ish. She thinks I'm impenetrable. Like the Great Wall of China is supposed to be. Tall, enormous, scary, and untouchable. I'm not. She thinks I'm perfect like the Mona Lisa is supposed to be. Unflawable, perfection in a body. I'm not. I don't know where she gets all this from, but I am not anything she thinks I am. Sometimes I make her think I am, just so she feels secure, but I'm not. I'm scared. Of losing her, of losing my family, of her being hurt. And her becoming one of my kind, that scares me more than anything aside from her death.
I closed the phone and set it in the cup holder, then put my hands at ten and two, speeding up to one-eighty.
I had no idea what I was going to do when the change was complete.