Komand'r chapt. 10
A/N; VERY IMPORTANT! I have recently found a previously thought lost chapter I have written for this story! And I actually have a question for you readers out there. The chapter I've recovered is the "Starfire meets the Titans" I'm actually not sure how to upload it... The chapter will go in before chapter 7 and it isn't completely necessary to put up . Well anyways, I'm just curious to who all wants a couple extra chapters added to the story and if they want Starfire's origin story so to speak.
A/N. WEll with that out of the way please enjoy this chapter. And as always read, and tell me what you think!
Humans were strange creatures, Blackfire decided.
Watching Beast boy clumsily dance his way across the dance floor, the dark haired girl couldn't hide her amusement, laughing with actual glee. It had been so long since the dark skinned girl had this much fun.
Beast boy, or Garfield, as it turned out was wonderful company. Once getting over his naive since of intimidation, she found she didn't actually mind the odd boy. While she still found his jokes to be bland, often times annoying, he amused her. He had a carefree attitude that appealed to the former princess. Willing to indulge all her errant ideas of earth activities the green teen had no qualms of embarrassing himself and was seemingly up for anything.
Having watched the "Dirty Dancing" 17 times, Blackfire had been positively ecstatic at the prospect. The 'Dancing' was an odd earth custom. A precursor to sex or the far more desirable out come, a mate. The titans had all declined the outing with varying degrees of enthusiasm, some disliking it for more than others. The only teen willing to go in the end was Beast boy.
As the green teen swayed to and fro the assembled humans gave the hero a wide birth. If the annoyed glances were anything to go by then Blackfire had an inkling that Garfields form was subpar. That didn't seem to damper his spirits in the least. Either ignorant or willingly ignoring the looks the boy just continued to dance by her side laughing along with her.
Blackfire positively loved it.
Beast boy was a strange human, she repeated mentally. In stark contrast to the furious creatures he was known for the young teen was surprisingly kind. Openly asking to 'hangout' the young her had surprised her with his warmth. Unused to such a response she had innecially declined the offer. As she had come to realize one rejection hardly stifled the boy. At nearly ever opportunity Beast boy had invited her to participate. The gaming, Pizza, butt kicking of 'villains '.
His last offer had been rather difficult to deny. Being a warrior by nature, the dark princess enjoyed battle; honestly she was still surprised at the sheer number of gifted beings this little ball of water contained. It had been tempting to test her strength against Earth's villains, the thrill from her battle with the Hive still fresh in her mind. But alas, she had still said no.
With her usual indifference Blackfire had taken his enthused offer in stride, making a show of examining her nails, shooing him away. Even as the sullen boy had left the confines of her sisters quarters, Blackfire had refused to drop the act. She had felt a gut wrenching stirring at his expression; she couldn't even meet her sister's disapproving stare.
It was so easy to tell when her walls came up. Shielding her heart the dark girl did what came natural, she denied. Afraid of rejection, afraid to be open, afraid of vulnerability. She was always so afraid.
Her cold exterior, the snide remarks, even her aloof demeanor. It was nothing more than a carefully constructed ruse to protect herself. Years on a harsh unforgiving planet had forced her to become this. Because, how could you hurt someone that didn't care? But yet. . .
There was this nagging fleeting voice of hope that buzzed in her ear, telling her it didn't have to be this way. Starfire's constant reassurance 'This isn't Tamamrain,' still there, offering dangerous comfort and false hope. It showed how weak she had become when the ex-princess (her mind reminded) wanted so badly to believe. After all, if this world could accept her sister, the leader of their 'vile race', then perhaps they could accept her as well.
With a painful twist in her side, Blackfire had marched right up to the green teen proclaiming he was to ask her to 'hang out' again.
He responded with a meep of a 'sure.'
Starfire had mentioned a 'crush' as the cause but Beast boy remained firm in his exuberant denial. But according to the 'Television' the boy was lying. The flushed cheeks, awkward demeanor, attempts at attention, all her research pointed to a, crush.
Not that Blackfire minded. It was, flattering. Being desired, sought after, especially his attention for her. She had never received such things. Her sister had been quite firm when they had last discussed the topic. While wanting Blackfire to reach out, acquire the 'Friends' she had also instructed her to not mislead her teammate's feelings.
She sighed. Humans were so dramatic. Her kind handled it much better. If found desirable a suitor would began or as the humans called it, courting. They were open, upfront and honest with their intensions.
The changeling deserved honesty.
Exiting the club alongside Beast boy almost an hour later a brisk wind assaulted the two.
The air, while not cold to her iron hard skin was still uncomfortable as it licked across exposed parts. Unconsciously her arms went to her sides her mind flashing to the real cold of deep space. She shivered.
"Oh," Beast boy made a noise. Shuffling over her eyes turned to see him gently place his jacket around her shoulders. "Your cold?" He asked simply sensing the question.
The jacket was green unsurprisingly, a furry hood that had comically large ears appearing off the top. Being taller then the younger boy the jacket was a bit to small, the edges coming down just shy of her midriff. Her mind was a wonderful thing it seemed, always able to point out flaws.
"Are you not cold?"
"Me? Nahh. The winters here can get pretty cold but I've gotten used to it. Plus it helps when you can transform into all kinds of animals with fur coats."
She wanted to point out that being an alien species designed for combat and space travel, her body was far more capable at sustaining the cold then his. Nor was the boy in one of his animal forms, leaving such a comment, well, useless. A thought stopped her.
With keen vision her eyes easily detected the small bumps appearing across the exposed areas of his arm and neck. Even the slight shiver he tried to hide. He was lying. Her eyes narrowed but she remained silent.
He was giving up his jacket, his own warmth, because he believed her to be cold. Obviously expecting the cold he had brought his own jacket in preparation and yet he did this for her? Why?
"Beast boy," She began uneasily. "I wish to speak to you about your feelings. To me, I-"
"Don't." He interrupted. "Just don't."
He gave her a half smile. "I've heard it all before." Setting down on the curb she wordlessly followed setting beside.
"Your a good friend," He began sounding distant. "It just wouldn't be right. It gets old after awhile yeah?"
"I'm sorry. I did not wish to cause you pain."
"It's fine, really." He assured quickly hearing her tone. Even though his smile was there, the goofy attitude accompanied with theatric waving of arms, she could tell her rejection had cut him. That did not set well with her.
Racking her brain for several moments for something to say Beast boy was actually starting to rise to his feet when she reached out, rather forcible pulling him back down.
"Wait," She said quietly. "It's not that you are not a desirable companion. It's just that I-. . .well, I don't desire your gender."
"Wait, what?" He asked mouth agape.
Her eyes narrowed. Was she not sufficient in her explanation? "I do not find the male genital appealing." She tried again seeing his wide eyes. "The male penis is disgusting-"
"OKAY!" He yelled this time arms spraying about wildly. "I get it!"
"I do not understand. Then why did you ask for a more detailed description if you understood my words. Was this a joke to you?"
She could feel her hot temper rising. While normally Blackfire was well composed she still found herself upset by Earth customs. Perhaps an overreaction she tended to get offended quite easily when she opens herself up.
"Wait Wait!" Beast boy began hurriedly in a perfect imitation of their first encounter. "I wasn't joking I was just confused."
Her temper stilled if only just a moment. Having revealed a rather, personal side of herself she was very quick to use anger as a defense. Old habits die hard.
"So, you're a lesbian?"
Her brow hiked at the human term. Lesbian. On her planet there was no name for it. You liked what you liked, there people had far more to worry about then sexual preference. Earth's split on the subject was deemed unnecessary by the dark skinned girl.
"Yes, I suppose I am."
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