Chapter 13 – The Letter
BPOV
I ripped the side of the envelope off and pulled the letter out. I was in Edwards, my, room. He was downstairs with Alice. I had asked for a little time alone. I didn't tell him why, though I'm sure he knows. I have been steering clear of his mind for his space purposes.
I sighed and looked down at the letter.
My dear, dear Bella,
I am so sorry to report that I cannot make it to your wedding. You know how much this hurts me, and the rest of the pack. But unlike them, I understand and respect your decision, to an extent. By telling you this I am not trying to make you feel guilty, I just feel like you may not know what you need to know.
Bella, when our Jake told you he loves you, he meant it with every fiber of his being. This is a sweet boy that is hurting. While I do understand that you love Edward, you have no idea what this did to poor Jake. He has left. The boys can contact him, but he has left. He said that being human hurts too much to stay in that form. So he has made the biggest decision of his life. He is choosing to stay a wolf. Forever. So that he won't hurt as much when he thinks of you. Now, I only know what Sam has told me, so I am sure there is more, but here is something Jacob said to Sam to tell me to tell you. Sorry that was kind of confusing there…
"Tell Bella, tell her that I do love her. That I just want her to be happy, no matter how much it hurts me. Tell her, that, as long as she is happy, the pain I feel doesn't matter. Just, tell her I will always love her."
Now I have relayed this message. I am so sorry that we cannot sit around my kitchen and be the Werewolf Girls anymore. You are the Vampire Girl, and I am the Werewolf Girl. This is how it is, and most likely always will be.
Enjoy the cookies dear.
With much love and happiest wishes
Emily
The letter drifted to the floor. A single tear fell from my eyes.
"What did I do?" I whispered. "I have destroyed my best friend. I have destroyed him. His heart is…" I stopped and choked on the lump in my throat. "What have I done?"
I curled up on the couch and cried till I could cry no more. I was hardly in a state of consciousness. Though I do not think vampires can faint. If I were human, I would have fallen asleep. Sometime during the next hour I was lying there, staring at the wall, Edward came in, silently, and squeezed between me and the back of the couch. I turned into him and began to cry again.
"What did I do?" I asked him in between sobs. "I broke his heart. I was selfish. I only cared about what I wanted. I didn't care if I hurt him. I didn't just hurt him Edward…I…I…" I stopped and kept crying. There was nothing I could do about it.