Sorry this took a little longer than usual, this week has been hectic and i couldn't write on Monday because i had to replace the alternator in my car. It's all good now though, so i didn't have beast boy go into his journal because i wanted some interaction between all the characters. This chapter will have him write in it again, and even though it seems a little out of place for Raven to accept a bet like that, I will explain it in this chapter. So Read On fellow Fanfictioners.

Chapter 3

"So raven about this concert...," I said to her sheepishly, while rubbing the back of my neck.

She didn't speak, as i expected her to reply in some form of sarcasm. She just looked at me intently like she was trying to stare into my soul. Then all of the sudden i was surrounded by darkness. For a moment i thought i passed out, but just a quickly it dissipated, barely leaving the evidence of tendrils. I found myself in Raven's room with her directly in front of me. I visibly shivered and muttered, "i'm still not used to that dark energy," but before i can can anything else she spoke.

"I know Garfield," she said neutral.

I start to panic and i question myself 'does she know that I love her?' 'Thats impossible, I've been very careful around her' 'Maybe she doesn't know' All these thoughts ran through my head like a sprinter in less than a second. On the outside i didn't move or change at all.

"Know what?" I say without revealing anything.

"I am an empath, I can read emotions and you are not exactly the quietest talker in the world," she smirked back.

What? I haven't been talking about my love for her, so it must be… unless i have been speaking my mind without realizing it when she was around. I can't believe it I'm such an idiot, she brought me to her room so she can reject me without commotion. I still have to be sure so I'll still play this game for now.

"I haven't been talking about anything that pertains to you," I retort.

She looks at me disappointed,"Garfield I know you agreed with Starfire that i would go to the concert with you before we even had our bet. I could sense your panic throughout the whole game,"

I mentally slap myself, of course she is talking about that. There is no way she can read my love for her, not with my primal side constantly confusing me about my feelings. I breath a sigh of relief, well this could have gone a lot worse.

"Yeah I didn't think you wanted to go thats why I made the bet," I confess to her.

"I know that, but you could have asked me if i wanted to go," she replied.

"Wait, you want to go? Then why accept the bet in the first place?" I ask her confused.

"Well if i told you that I wouldn't had the chance to win Waffles from you for a month, I couldn't let that opportunity pass up," She responded.

"oooh, that's why you weren't upset when you lost, I get it now," I say as I smile chessily.

"Yes Garfield, plus one of my favorite bands is in the same convention as Lecrae anyways," she added.

"K," I say stupidly.

There is an awkward moment between us, both of us just standing like idiots, not meeting each others gaze. I start to feel tingly and try to catch her eyes, but she looks away just as awkward. She finally breaks the silence.

"So, see you there," she says awkwardly.

"Yeah, I should go to, you know, get ready," I say just as awkward.

"Yeah, you should get out of my room anyways," she replies with some enthusiasm.

"Sure, sure," I say as i turn to leave.

Just as I'm about to head out the door she leaves me with some parting words.

"Oh by the way Beast Boy, I let you win," she says as the door closes.

As I walk down the hall, I can't stop thinking about her last words to me. Is she serious or is she just playing with me? She had to be going her hardest, she wanted those waffles from me even with the (shudder) milk and eggs. Unless she cared about me and wouldn't put me through that. Come on Beast Boy there is no way she could love you, you're awkward and clumsy and she is poised and graceful. There is no way it would work out. During these thoughts i make it to my room where i can really express all my feelings without restraint.

Day 18

I had way too close a call today with Rae, for a moment I thought she knew about my passionate love for her but after 18 days she still doesn't know even with her being an empath. When we were in her room my beast rose up again and i wanted to take her right then and there, thank goodness i was too panicked to notice until after I left her room. It is increasingly difficult to calm my beast inside me I'm afraid i can't suppress it much longer maybe a month at most. Wow I just checked my calendar, it looks like i'm going to lose control at the concert, That should be fun.

Just why does she have to be so perfect? People say she is dark but i only see the light she gives off and it burns bright. I see the light whenever she is sarcastic, whenever she eats waffles, when she drinks herbal tea, when she reads her favorite poem (the Raven). She radiates light, how can someone see darkness within her. People are afraid of her because of her heritage, power, and even skin color. But I'm not i'm afraid of her for more practical reasons, like how she can beat me up or send me to another dimension if she wanted too. But I am not afraid of who she is, she is beautiful and like i said before she deserves someone who is perfect. Not me I'm too childish, too awkward, too weird to ever receive her love. I am a genetic mutation of an experiment, I am not worthy of her. Part of me wishes she can reject me so that i can move on and know that I am not good enough for her. But most of me wants her so badly that i have to exercise the deepest self control whenever i am around her to prevent myself from doing something stupid. I can't keep living like this, I need her to accept my love for her or reject it, I'm tired of the in between stage, but i'm too afraid to reveal my feelings because i want her love.

I finish my thoughts leaning back on my chair trying to process what i'm going through and to try to get a grip on my feelings. My mind is a jumbled mess of emotions that i cannot even form a rational thought. I grunt and head to bed too tired to think about anything else. and fall instantly asleep.

However I forgot to put my journal away and it is sitting open on my desk with my door unlocked.