Chapter one -
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Monday - 2 days since the the dubbed 'I'm done incident'
Oliver had been steeling himself for the whole weekend, His nerves having been restless since he heard the sounds of her heels echoing away from him last Friday night, The whole conversation was playing through his mind on a constant loop , Over and over, Until he was sure they would be forever burned into his heart.
He had tried speaking to her, Tried a few calls and text, All of them ignored, He had even went to go to her apartment, Sneaking up her fire escape and letting himself in, Only to find her asleep in a ball in the corner of the sofa, Tear tracks stained her cheeks, The sight hit Oliver hard, She looked so small that it stole his breath and mad his mind go fuzzy, After that he quietly slipped out and thought to give her the weekend, With that and an idea of how to rebuild or fix things already forming he allowed her and him the weekend.
He carried two hot coffee's in his hands and tried for his ball of nerves not to show as he exited the elevator on their floor, A small smile of trepidation on his lips as he turned the corner to see her, He got to see her back first her hair up in its usual ponytail, Swung side to side against her neck, The tips brushing along the top of her bright cardigan, She was dressed like she normally does, A tight but professional work dress was bright, The hem reaching the tops of her slender knees, Before a creamy expanse of calf filled the gap before her black shoes met the floor.
Coming through the office with the push of his elbow he watched her turn a breath held in her chest, Their eyes met but it wasn't the same, Her normally blue azures are filled with lots of emotions, It being always easy for him to read how she was or what she was thinking, But now the blue orbs are empty, The hurt hit him as he realizes that she has put a wall up to keep him out, It took a seconder then it should to realize her bright pink lips were moving.
"Good morning Mr Queen, I'd like to introduce Pipa Wick your new Executive Assistants, She will be taken over for me from the start of this afternoon, I'm only here to show her the ropes" She says, Her tone short and to the point, No emotion whatsoever.
"Feli-" "Can I help you Mr Queen with something before I show Pipa here how to find your schedule before we brief you with today's events" "No, I uh Need to talk to you, For a moment please" He says his eyes pleading with her.
"If its not Business related or important, I would prefer it to wait, I really must show Pipa the ropes, Mr Queen" Its the shock in his system that has him retreating mumbling about later.
The later never came, As promised Felicity help Pipa till noon before taking her exit while Oliver was on a call, When he tried to go after her the doors had already closed, With the resolve to talk to her he sat and stewed while he waited till he could get to the foundry quickly.
When he finally arrived it was to the sound of her tinkling laughter floating through the space, He turned the corner to see her talking to Roy and laughing at something he was saying, Before he new it he had a full smile on his face and her name slipped from his lips.
She turned around so fast that her hair caught the end of Roy's nose, While they locked eyes he caught a quick look behind her mask before it slid into place, Hurt, Longing, But mainly disappointment filled them, But before he could talk or say anything she had already turned and started to work on her computers.
Roy and Digg looked on with a mixture of confusion and caution, He quickly approached and placed a hand on her shoulder, Only for her to turn from his touch, Eyes filled with nothing stared at him and he couldn't help the flash of hurt that passed over his face from the one act, "Felicity Please, I know I messed up for that I cant begin to apologize, Sorry doesn't cut it but it's the only place I have to start, Please "
She looks at his face a long time, While the others await her response curiously, "No It doesn't, You have training to do, I have searches to run if you excuse me" She says nothing but fake polite at him, A detachment in her voice.
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Thursday - 4 days since.
The foundry was quiet, The only sounds coming from the training dummy as Oliver swift, Hard punches connecting to the wood, A few quiet grunts sometimes thrown in the mix, The sounds suddenly added to by feet walking its way over to the work out area of the foundry.
Knowing its just Dig he doesn't stop the aggressive work out, Just slows down slightly, Splitting his attention on the two.
"What's going on Oliver?" Dig asks, Topic heavily implied.
"What do you mean John, What does it look like?" Oliver snaps out at the same time his hands deliver deadly strikes on the dummy.
"It looks to me that you fucked up and still haven't fixed it" Dig says not put off by his angry tone, At his answer Oliver whirls round to face his friend and partner.
"I've tried, She quit and hired her replacement, Didn't even stay the day, She barely speaks to me, Wont answer my calls or text's, I try to talk to her here and she respond's with short clipped, FUCKING SENTENCES" He has slowly worked himself up and as his strikes land harder and quicker his voice starts rising loudly.
"So tell me John how am I meant to fix something I didn't even realize was broken until it was thrown in my face and now all I get is information on Arrow business, How did this even happen Dig, How did it get to this?" He asks his voice breaking slightly, Making Dig pause and Oliver reach for his water bottle.
"Do you remember what you said to her in Russia Oliver, When she told me about it I was ready to punch you, But she talked me out of it, She knew then why you did and said what you did, She understood why, So even when she had a reason to hate you she didn't, All because she knows you, Half the time better then me or you" Digg says shaking his head with a scoff.
"So how did you think she felt when Sarah showed up and not a second later you two are back together and your back in your lance spiral, But she understood, She knew you loved her and she wanted you to be happy even though it hurt, Because only a week before you had gone and given her that damn speech. She was fine she was able to put her crush or hope of romantic feelings for you away into a box, Because she was your friend, She was your partner" Dig says starting to pace until stopping to shoot Oliver a look when he opens his mouth.
"But then she suddenly wasn't that any more, You stopped turning to her, Stopped telling her about things until she had to be brought in, And then telling her she wasn't needed, You where pushing her away all because you couldn't deal the with conflicting emotions that are going on in that damn head of yours, But did you care that while you were doing all of this she was feeling adequate, Disposable , Like she wasn't your friend, The girl was half of herself, It took her getting shot for her to tell me why the clock man bothered her so much, But even then you couldn't be bothered longer then to shout at her about it a barely 'are you okay?' and then it was done, Can you tell me Oliver honestly that if Roy hadn't told you she was thinking about quitting would you of even bothered to ask her to lunch?" Dig ask the thought suddenly occurring to him.
One look at his face and Dig has his answer.
"Dammit Oliver, What the Fuck is wrong with you" Dig says a hint of disgust layering his voice.
"How the fuck was I suppose to know she was feeling that way, I thought she would understand when I missed those lunches, I didn't think she-"
"Didn't think What? That she wouldn't care that she's got stood up 5 fucking times in a row, How is getting stood up meant to prove anything other then she was right and you do in fact don't give a shit " Dig bellows angrily
"Fuck you dig, It's not like she was a girlfriend who would be bothered by it, I thought she understood me as you put?" Oliver says angrily
"You know what Oliver, Just because she understands you doesn't mean she should allow herself to be walked all over by you, And that is exactly what you do to everyone"
"I didn't ask her to do half of the things she does for me, I didn't ask her to care about if i eat on time, If i have dinner with my family, How was i -"
!"YOU TALK TO HER, You ask her how her day was, Even if she spent the whole of it with you, She gave up her job, A job she loved because you asked her to, She does those things because she know's that if you forget about lunch with Moira or coffee with Thea you'd feel guilty about it and she knows you feel guilty for way to much as it is so she doesn't want you to add to that amount, Because she cares Oliver, Because she's your friend!"
"But you know what she was right, When it comes down to it 'we' still are just the IT girl and Black driver to you, Because you can't care about it unless it's a lance" Dig says before turning and leaving, Oliver glaring at his back all the way till he disappears from view.
Thwack, The broken dummy's arm fly's off landing on the floor with a roll until it settles.
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Tuesday - 9 days since.
The lair was filled with tension, Hardly a word was spoken, Dig and Oliver where trading hard glares at each other, The air around the once bright and lively Felicity was cool and resolved hardly brightening up when Oliver left the room, A small sad twinged smile tugging at the edges of her lips when he goes.
Sarah and Roy could barely stand the tension and where quickly trying to leave but Oliver was dragging behind, So they had positioned themselves on the stairs ready to bounce when ever he leaves the bathroom.
Dig and Felicity sat quietly at her station, Digg cleaning his weapons while Felicity double checked every ones trackers and comms, It was until she was sure that evey one was gone that she spoke the one question she hadn't allowed herself to ask before.
"How's Oliver?, I know I shouldn't want to but I've got to know, Has he been speaking to you, He looks like he hasn't slept and I doubt he's eaten properly in days, I know I'm meant to hate him but I cant, I just can't not care, Dig" She trails off softly losing some of her voice, Bowing her head to hide the tears.
Before he can answer the bathroom door opens and out strides Oliver, Hood pulled up and bow in his hands, "Felicity Get me the directions to where I've got to go" He shouts not allowing himself to look at her as he head's out of the lair after the two others, Felicity scowling at his back.
"You know what I just said, Its becoming easier" Felicity says only getting a raised eye brow in agreement from dig who's also scowling after his long gone back.
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Friday - 12 days since.
The lair was unrecognizable, It still looked the same, Smelt the same mixture of leather, Lavender and sweat, Still held the same buzz of computers in the air, But it didn't feel the same, Instead of the welcome atmosphere that the three gave off together towards visitor's was gone and in its place was a cold tension thick one, One that threatened to create mass destruction should the wrong thing be said, Roy was struggling to keep himself together.
Sarah couldn't decide what was worse her sister hating her or the tension in the lair, She sits watching the other three hoovering around each other, Clipped and terse exchanges being passed between them, She can't fight the grimace that takes over her face as she watches Oliver say something to Felicity only to be shot down, 'This definitely worse, She decides.
"Oliver" All heads turn towards her when she speaks, Her voice breaking the harsh silence, "Outside, Now" With that she turns sharply on her heel and heads to the back entrance of verdant.
As soon as Oliver exits the lair and is stood in the alley way, Sarah whirls on him, The slap to his chest taking him by surprise "What the hell sarah?" He says blocking the second hit heading his way.
"Are you going to tell me why I came out here or was it just so you could hit me" He says watching as she takes two steps away.
"What are you playing at Ollie" She says and just like that he knows what its about "Leave it Sarah" He says turning on the Arrow voice, Not surprising that she doesn't take the warning and barrels on.
"Its suffocating in there, Just being in the same room with the three of you feels like torture and poor Roy's gonna end up getting an ulcer, All because you can't man up and talk to them, This friction needs to stop otherwise someones gonna get hurt or worse . You need to fix it" Sarah says crossing her thin but powerful arms across her chest.
"I tried" He admits, His voice defeated as his shoulders loose their tension and sag down. "Try again Oliver, Get her to listen" She says earning a look from Oliver like she's crazy.
"She quit Sarah, She ran away, She may be here but she's not my Felicity any more, She walks away or glares at me when I try to brooch any subject not related to Arrow business, I tried, She doesn't want anything to do with me" Oliver says shouting at her now.
"Ollie werent you the one who stayed up for three days on hold for tickets to some concert Tommy wanted to go to when your where 16 and your dad refused to get them for you, You say you've tried but if you really did want to fix it you wouldn't allow her a chance to run away, You'd say your bit and you'd fix it" Sarah says arching her eyebrow at him.
"And you better fix it soon because until you do the arrow won't be running around the city anytime soon" She adds changing her stance preparing for the out burst, He doesn't let her down she just's waits until he's finished.
"You done, Good because you will do this and if you don't, Well lets just say I'm not apposed to plan B" Sarah says an evil glint in her eyes.
He grumbles all the way back down to the lair Sarah smirking at his back while following unaware of a set of eyes that caught the whole exchange.
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Saturday - 13 day's since
Oliver had spent the whole night on his motor cycle outside Felicity's condo trying to work up the courage to talk to her, By around 5 o'clock he had broke into her house and found himself sat on her bright couch lost in thought. So the large squeal from a startled half asleep Felicity was unwelcome and had him jumping up guiltily.
"Oliver!, What the hell are you doing?" She shouts crossing her arms angrily over her large TARDIS night shirt.
"I uh I want to talk" He stammers scratching the back of his head nervously.
"About what Oliver?" She asks her whole body becoming rigid as if preparing to put up a fight.
"Us, We need, I need to talk to you about us, We need to fix this, Fix us" He says his eyes pleading with her.
"No, What ever your gonna say no, I can't , You can't do this" She say's her feet taking her away from him and into her kitchen where she automatically sorts out the coffee maker, Her hopes of him leaving being dashed when she hears him follow her.
"No you can't keep running away Felicity, You need to let me talk, To explain" He says his arm's moving about, Felicity whirls around a pointed finger at him.
"NO!, You can't explain or talk because if you do, I'm gonna listen and forgive you And I don't want to forgive you" Felicity says her eye's beginning to water.
"Felicity" "No, You can't Oliver, You don't get to choose when to fix this I do, I need time to get over what you did before I can even consider forgiving you, So you don't get to come here and force me to listen to you, Not now so just go home Oliver"
"Okay" Oliver says looking at her tired expression.
"Okay" Felicity repeats relief evident in her tone.
"Okay, Just know that I'll wait how ever it long it takes , Until your ready to hear what I have to say" He says walking out of her kitchen just before he leaves he looks at her with a sad smile before saying softly
"I'd always wait for you" Leaving her to loose her last ounce of control and slides to her kitchen floor on a sob.
The end, For now.