Chapter 4

In Germany we get our presents in the evening of the 24th december. I will take this one here otherwise it wouldn't go in this story.

Regina was sitting on the couch with a glass of whiskey. In front of her the little christmas tree with the presents under it. She thought about what she had done earlier this day. She had really cheated on Tanya with Emma. How could she have been such a fool? Regina took another gulp. She had to tell Tanya. If not then it would be revealed from Emma or someone who might have seen her and that would be clearly unfair to Tanya. Furthermore should she be honest to Tanya. So she drank some more to get braver.

She saw Tanya enter the apartment with Miri and Rose. "Tanya? Can we speak?" Regina asked and stood up. "Sure, Gina." They walked into Regina's bedroom and Tanya just knew something terrible was gonna be said. "I...I slept with Emma..." Regina said with tears streaming down her cheeks. Tanya stood stunned in front of her. "You... you what?" "I...I slept with her... I thought I am over her... that I don't feel that what I felt when we were together back than... but... I..." She felt Tanya's slap and looked down. "When?" Tanya asked furiously. "Some hours ago... I... I love you, Tanya... that's why I told you directly..."

"You say you love me but sleep with her..." "There is a reason why I couldn't stop dreaming of her the last 5 years, Tanya... Don't expect that I can switch this feeling of in an instant...I told you that I still have feelings for her... I know I shouldn't have slept with her but... she is my weakness, Tanya... I... I can't think right when she is next to me... I... wish I could but..." "You love her more than me, don't you..." "I...I don't know." Regina said and sat down on her bed. Tanya sat down next to her and ran her hand through her hair.

"Will you sleep with her again?" Tanya asked. "I... I... no... because I won't meet her anymore. At least not alone." "Why did you meet her at all?" "Because I wanted to discuss with her the visiting chances she can have." Regina asked. "She has none. Not after that today." "It was my fault too, Tanya..." "Yes, but you are vulnerable and she knows that. She used your shyness and love to coax you into something so that she definitely has this rights." "No. Emma isn't like this..." "But she kept you away from your son." "That was her family. She was just the tool. She told me that she would have chosen me if she had known..." Regina said and sighed.

Tanya looked down at her hands and sighed too. "What will happen with us?" Regina asked quietly. "I don't know... Maybe after today we should... take a break?" "You want to break up with me..." Regina said sadly and stood up. "I love you, Tanya..." "Regina... it's just..." "No. I understand, Tanya... I would be disgusted too..." She turned away and tried to hold back her tears. Tanya stood up and walked behind her. "It's just...It hurts to know... It hurts to see you hurt... It hurts that you cheated on me with that bitch... Please just give me a few days to sort everything out." Tanya said and turned her back around.

She stroked Regina's cheek and softly kissed her. "I'm not disgusted. I'm just hurt." Regina melted into the touch and nodded understanding. "Let's get back to the others and celebrate Christmas." They left the room after Regina had freshened herself up. "Mama? How are you?" Rose asked and hugged her. She scooped Rose up and hugged her back tightly. "Better now after a hug of my favorite girl on the world." Regina said and kissed her cheek.

They giggled and Tanya went with Henry into the kitchen. Someone knocked on the door and Miriam's boyfriend Paul opened it. He let Emma enter. "What are you doing here?" Regina asked her and Tanya left the kitchen. She had heard Regina and directly knew who it was. She punched Emma in the face who toppled over and crashed against Paul. "Ouch... For what was that?" Emma asked and Tanya laughed humorlessly. "For daring to seduce MY girlfriend in YOUR bed! You had your chance! She belongs to me now! And be lucky that I just hit your nose. I would like to break your bones right now. What do you even want here?"

"Giving Rose her first gift from me." Emma said and picked up the present and stood up. She held it to Rose who slapped it out of her hand and looked disgusted. "I hate you! You are destroying the first Christmas in which Mama had a chance to be happy! Go!" Rose was furious and Emma looked down saddened but walked away. Tanya and Regina looked at each other. "You cheated on Tanya with HER?" Miriam asked disbelieving. She just nodded and looked down. "This... Morning... But I directly regretted it and told Tanya... There won't be a secret between us. Ever." They nodded and sat down. They shared the presents and Rose played a bit with her new stuff before Regina ordered her to bed.

Rose's present long forgotten. At least from the adults. Rose wanted to have it but she wasn't sure if she could because of what her other mother had done to Mama. When everyone was asleep she quickly took the present and walked into her bedroom. She pulled away the lid and saw a bear and a letter. She took the letter and read it. The bear clutched tightly in her arm.

"For the most beautiful little girl on the world. I know I shouldn't say it but you are. Just one look at you and my heart melts... I'm sorry... I really am but I sadly can't travel back in time. I would if I could an choose you and your mother... I can't so I decided to give up what I love the most. This bear was my first gift ever. He is 32 years old by now and I trust that you will take care of him. I know you will. Keep an eye on your mom and big brother and stay safe, most beautiful little girl on the world. I love you two. ~Emma~"

Rose stared at the teddy and hugged him closer. Maybe her other mother was really sorry. Maybe she should spend a day with her to get to know her. She had seen that her mother had put the card with Emma's number in a folder and she quickly got it and the home phone. She dialed Emma's number and waited. "Swan." Emma answered and Rose sighed relieved. "Emma?" Rose asked. "Ehm... Yes? Who are you?" "Your daughter? I read your letter." "You can read?" Emma was surprised. "Yes, since last year. But I wanted to ask you if I could see you one time... To thank for the bear..." Rose said nervously.

"Sure! Ehm... Whenever you want to. Just tell me and I'll be there." Emma said and Rose smiled. "Good. Tomorrow." "I don't think your mom's girlfriend would like that." "Then come at night over the fire ladder." Rose said bored. "Or were you lying when you told us that you would be there if we would need you?" "No. Of course not... I'll be there tomorrow..." Emma said and Rose smiled. "Good. Bye." "Wait." Emma quickly said and Rose stopped. "Yes?" "I'm really sorry that I wasn't there the last years..." Emma mumbled. "It's what happened to me and I said that I would never do that ever again...I'm really really sorry." "You shouldn't apologize to me, Emma... I don't even know you. I never really missed you. Sounds bad but it's the truth. I have a mother... I just want to know my 'father'." Rose answered and Emma sighed.

"You will." Emma said. "Great... bye. I have to sleep now. I want to be able to spend the entire morning with playing with my new stuff." Rose said. "Have fun. Good bye, little one. Be a good kid for your mom." "I will be." Rose said and hung up before she quickly returned the things to their old spots and went to bed.

TBC...?

I'm more of the honest person. I rather know directly about a cheating than months later. I hope it isn't rushed:)