A/N – Okay just a heads up. I can't speak, write or read Arabic, so that's the Italics, for this chapter. Second going with memory problems post pits, because it's decent drama, and lets me not worry so much about early story OOC for Sara. Third of all I am not really sure what Future Sara told Barry, I will figure sooner or later, probably.

A/N 2 - Okay not sure I am happy with this chapter, but it well you will see.

T/W Do to the fact that I am worried I didn't make it clear, Sara Lance is going to die ALOT in this story she just won't stay dead, kind of like Jack Harkness from Torchwood (Okay that's exactly whats its like) This will be played for as a mix of Drama and laughs

Sara's Point of View

"What are you doing?" I was wondering around some of the support beams in one of the more open areas in the lab, Laurel was yelling at me from bellow.

"Calm down Laurel I'm fine." I wasn't fine, but this wasn't going to be a problem. My fine motor control had shown remarkable retention despite the length of disuse, my doctor, one Caitlin Snow, and my sister both didn't want me doing some of the activates I knew I could handle. Ollie on the other hand insisted I knew just as well as they did.

The problem was my memory; I was missing huge parts of it. I remembered Ollie, but not the boat, I remembered a Diggle, but hardly anything about Felicity. There was a girl Cindy, Sin, who I knew was important, but I couldn't remember why. And then there was Oliver's wife, any time there marriage came up I got really pissed and wanted to hit Ollie, a lot. No one explained to me why, though apparently there Marriage was not planned by either side.

"What if you fall?"

"I won't" then I did.

"She can't be dead again, I just, it's not real." That was Oliver

"If we're talking about me, I'm fine, what happened." I asked.

"You fell" Caitlin said, "You stopped breathing a moment ago, Barry is getting a defibrillator.

"I am perfectly physically fine."

"You are not fine Sara." That was Oliver's wife.

"I have it," that was Barry.

"I'm alive; heart still beating, still breathing, and all things to say I am fine."

"You fell nearly fifty feet."

"Pretty impressive right, but I am good, also can like everyone but Laurel and Caitlin leave me alone for a few. I'd ask you two to leave also if I thought you would."

"Nyssa you should stay."

"There is no need Laurel. I will go train with my … Husband" she cringed as she said it. I wanted to punch Ollie.

After they were some distance away. "He didn't like force her to marry him or something did she."

"No her father did. He also made their marriage ironclad, there are absolute nuts stipulations for the case of divorce, and it is utterly contrived." Laurel bitched.

"How did he even meet her?" I asked, "and how did he agree to it?"

"It doesn't matter right now, what matters is making sure you really are okay, come on let's get you back to the lab."

"She really is fine" Caitlin.

"I saw her fall" Laurel

"May be its residual energy from the Lazarus Pits, but she is okay, amazingly" Caitlin again.

"See I told you" I spoke up.

"However I am worried that you are suffering from depression."

"I was dead, for nearly a year. I think I have the right to whatever emotional state I see fit."

"Be that as it may, you really should start talking about it with someone. It can't be helping you to bottle up everything. We can handle crazy."

"It's my memories, and you aren't telling me half the things I want to know."

"Thea's memories came back to her; we don't want to influence how you look at things."

"Then we have nothing to talk about."

"You need to talk to her Ollie; Nyssa won't. She needs something." Caitlin told the former billionaire. "I think she still loves Nyssa, and she can't remember their history and it's tearing her up; especially with you having married her."

"It was the best option at the time. And the island is just a trauma Congo line I don't want to make her remember, god I barley have talked about my own time there." He sighed. "And I do understand Nyssa wanting to keep her away from what happened with the league.

"The fact he doesn't notice you there is sad. I am ashamed that he has bested me in every one of our confrontations." The other woman they were speaking of said with resigned sadness.

"Why did you marry him?"
"My father wanted a male heir. If not a direct one, the man who survived his blade must have seemed a good way to insure his legacy.

"I am so sorry Nyssa."
"Please talk to them Sara, if nothing else maybe that will help you remember what you can. Perhaps, the worst of those hard times is gone."
"But at what cost."

"It doesn't matter, if it is the case you have escaped the horrors you have endured, make new memories. Don't get pulled back into the hell the rest of us are tied up in."

"And what about you?"
"What about me, I am a phantom." Except that she said last word in Arabic.

"I speak Arabic?"
"Quite well actually" she said looking into Ollie and Caitlin.

"And you are no more a phantom then I am." I said with a wry smile.

"You are not a phantom; you are Ta-er al-Asfer."

"I seem more of a broken bird these days." I replied "But I don't know how to feel about any of this Nyssa, just tell me, when this is all over and am I going to understand what happened between us? Because god you confuse me more than any of the others. And Barry can run at Mach 2, and I am zombie."

"I cannot tell you because I do not know. I don't have the answers to your questions because; I don't know what we are to each other anymore my love. It is why I had done my best to avoid talking to you. My heart, my soul, everything I was died with you that day, but there are certain things that even those mythic waters can't heal, and it is my burden to bare, not yours despite, the echoes of the past."
"What do you mean?"

"Please don't ask me anymore Sara, I will not lie to you, but I also don't want to tell you the truth."